My Faith and Belief

I hope you enjoy all the graphics on this page as I so enjoyed putting them here. I am trying to express a beautiful experience I had and would love to share it with all of you.

I have had three lumbar disc removal surgeries at all different times and each of the surgeries went well as I know the Lord was in the operating room with me.

The one I'm going to tell you about happened 22 years ago, in 1978. I was hospitalized for 32 days. I did not do well after the surgery and around the 20th day, the doctors detected an infection. That is one of the reasons I had been there so long and all I did was worry about my four children as I wasn't home to take care of them. I had two daughters, and two sons. Lisa was 13, Sherri 11, Darrell nine and Jimmy was seven.

One morning, after they detected the infection, the pain was unbearable and it got to the point where I couldn't stand it any longer. I didn't even have the strength to call for a nurse. There was a cross hanging on the wall in my hospital room. I kept looking at the cross and all I could manage to do was pray to Jesus. I just kept on praying and praying so hard to have Him help me take the pain away. All of a sudden, the pain was gone. I felt so beautiful inside. I had no worries and such a peaceful feeling came over me. I knew I was with Jesus and somehow I knew I had died.

I didn't see my life flash in front of me and didn't see any light. There was nothing but the beautiful feeling inside...in my inner being, like everything had been taken out of my hands and taken care of. I somehow felt like I was suspended and wanted to stay that way as I had never experienced anything so beautiful in my life.

"Oh my God!" I thought, "Who is going to take care of my children? They are so little and they need me so very much. What is going to happen to them? I can't go now, please, Jesus, don't take me!!" All of a sudden my pain had come back. There was no more beautiful feeling, no more peacefulness and the feeling of suspension was gone. In my heart, I know that Jesus let me live for my children as I asked for them and not for myself. There is no other way I can explain it.

While all this was going on, a nurse had been on her way in to check me and she went running to get the doctor. I was later told that when the nurse came in the room, there was an aura all around me or a light and that I was smiling and looked like an angel. When she came back with the doctor she said I looked completely different and that I had a haggard look on my face and was very pale looking. She also told the doctor I was not the same person she saw as she walked into my room, prior to getting him to check on me. She asked me what happened and I related all that I had experienced. She could not believe it as she told me she had never seen anything like it in all her years of nursing.

I must also tell you that my life has changed immensely since then and I know I'm never alone. Jesus is with me at all times. I'm no longer afraid to die. I don't want to die, but when I do, I know what it feels like and there is nothing to be afraid of as it is just beautiful. I also have to tell you that my name is Mary de Jesus.

The Dove

Another experience, in my life, happened a couple of months ago. I was driving to my friend Sue's house and had to pick up the freeway to get there. I took the turn to get on the ramp and wasn't going fast as there was a car in front of me and the turn was almost circular.

All of a sudden, there was a dove in front of me standing on the road. I didn't want to run it over and seeing no cars behind me, I slowed down. I finally had to come to a stop as the dove would not move. I tried to inch my way toward it to get it to fly away to no avail. I had been there a few minutes and thought maybe I should back up so I could go around it. I looked in my rear view mirror and saw a car coming. Well...that shot that idea down the drain. I was still trying to inch my way toward it but finally had to come to a stop or I would have run it over. The car behind me also stopped.

In the meantime, the dove was still there and not making any attempt to fly away. It wasn't moving or even trying to do anything other than to just stare at me. Again, I looked in my rear view mirror and saw at least six cars behind me this time, all stopped. They could have gone around me, and to this day, I have no idea why they didn't. They started beeping their horns and still the dove would not move. Gosh...what a predictament I was in! I looked at the dove again and this time it looked all around and then stared at me one more time and finally flew away. I really and truly didn't know what to make of it.

I finally got on the freeway, drove a few hundred feet and straight ahead of me was a five car accident. If I had kept on driving, instead of stopping on the ramp, I surely would have been involved in the accident because the car that had been in front of me, on the ramp, was one of the cars involved. It was a very serious accident and quite a few casualties. I truly believe the Lord was watching over me once more and sent me an angel in the form of a dove to watch over me. He didn't let anything happen to me.

I started crying, closed my eyes and prayed. I truly am blessed as I know how much Jesus loves me and I know I'm never alone because He is always with me. The first thing I do in the morning is thank Him for giving me one more day in this world of ours.

I have had quite a few experiences happen in my life and all of them leave me in such peace and joy. Someday, the Lord will take me to His beautiful home, but in the meantime, I will share all these wonderful treasures and experiences with anyone willing to listen. Peace and joy to you.

May the peace of our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ, be with you today and every day of your life.

Thank you for stopping by, please stop by again. God bless you always!

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