You see my disheveled hair; you wonder: what do I think?
My words linger in your head like a diseased-filled plague
Minds trapped by the existence today like piranha in a fishbowl
Don’t you know when you ask the question you are inevitably swallowed down
Swallowed down by the impression mold-ability of contempt?
I sprout feathered wings and fly into the sky, only to fall and break
Shatter into a quadrillion pieces just to live like you for one moment;
Flutter like your guardian angel above your head,
I enjoy watching you make your decisions
Admirer, it’s the peace your face brings to me - makes me humble:
Makes me crumble inside
I thought twice that I could control you - once in the beginning and once again
After I realized the truth; after everyone has told me who you really are
Like a virgin in the wind, but you have seductive tendencies
And like to inject the poison in my vein
Conscious-less nurse, I see your face and it is sad - I know what’s making you mad
So why do you make all of your problems bigger than they really are?
Why place yourself in front of the speeding semi when you could simply absorb the bruises?
Every night you set yourself on fire in your bed
The sheets burn around your head, everything smells of Hell and hellfire
You don’t want to lose the emotion so you tuck it deeper into your mind
When it comes back, it grips you like the hand of
Demon, Itself
If Heaven is on the way, why make the trip to Hades instead?
When you are old, when you can no longer look in the mirror and like what you see -
Won’t you believe that you wasted all these years? So put away that box of matches
Before you sacrifice something you cannot ever salvage
Forget all that you know; forget before the chameleon changes colors - before he is flame-red
You’re a stranger in this town - you seek out only those who can bring you fame
Your own personal interest masks those who can satisfy you
When everyone around you is there to fill the void, you throw them aside
Dislike everyone who likes you - you are used to the guilt
The chameleon shines in the moonlight - he is awaiting your answer
He knows your fear: what you will do when in a strain
Because you are caught between a rock and a soft place, it is your intent to not ever tell anyone
The artificial fantasies that live on your mind; you had your chance a year ago
You sacrificed an opportunity you cannot salvage today
Yet you don’t realize your mistake; amazing how many people are awaiting your words
What is it that flows through our minds? Can you even see my face in the flames that
Envelop your bed tonight? The crackle of the blaze is my screams, and every hot whip
To your face is my smile; you will burn - burn to nothing for the hollowness of your remorse
I will bring the answers inside a pill container, beat them into you with a mace
No medieval stature can bring me down; grow up in the world and do as I do
The world is not a place you want to live in - I punch you just to get you out of my way
I fucked up the reasons; no lessons to learn because no one cares anymore
Love? Hell, what is love? There is no conception of the issue when you have been hurt
So many times by the razors to your wrist that are known as ‘Love’.
Pull the cock back and let out the plug - just let it go!
You are my son, I took you into my life to let you be loved;
Nothing you could do should harm me, scary ain’t it?
Life as I know it has gone away, flip it upside down
As you flip me off with your words
There is nothing that can save my life today; I have finished this tablet with no effect
Placebos can no longer fill the void left by your name; you took something from me when you left
How can you sleep at night knowing you robbed me?
I’ve found the box - the solution to all my problems
Strike the match and let it burn: jump beneath the sheets and feel my skin melt away
Whither, blister, and peel
My dreams are my nightmares, even when I smile
Because your tongue inside my head is a worm eating its way to my brain
How can I think with such a distraction? You make me feel like the biggest apple tree
With the fattest fruit, forcing the forbidden-ness down my throat
Until I choke on the answers: when you told me who you were
When you told me it’s over
And left me to fold in the wind
I knew all the answers, but they were wrong
Your name has a cursed effect on my life
All I can do now is get wasted on my own egoism
So I make everything more complex than it should be
Don’t you know that’s what happens when you come full circle with yourself?
No one is good enough for me; let my aspirations linger for what I can’t possess
Not my intent, but I don’t think with my mind anymore
I am unconcerned with the carelessness of false loves that all these perverts show me
The chameleon smiles at me, and I realize I’m smiling at myself
A tear shreds the contour of my face
I cannot figure it out, the only thing that stops me from achieving what I want is myself
And I can’t remove myself - cry one more river until I drown that chameleon, life is over for Hope