- Sitting in her corner now
Staring at the wall instead
Closed off from a normal world
Wishing all the men were dead -

Everyday brings fresh candy-apple fantasies
Suffering with dreams where you never stop hating me
Lately I’ve been more consumed
With taking fate by the hand
Than worrying about the consequences ____ :Priority focused: - You are my obsession
Your soul has turned me to stone

People - you know your people
Stalking my thought pipe
Alive in this world
Found something obscene
Transparent thoughts
It’s so cold to feel before
And in particular you’re so right

Your beauty burns inside me
But still I feel cold
Blinking spirit: you exist so short
But your pain burns like salt in my wounds

Take this as an offering
No, I don’t want it back
Every time I try to bring us closer together
We are pushed farther apart

Drifting too far
So far away...

Your voice is quieter than the color of your painted face
Harlequin miming my day, I no longer speak;
My words mean nothing to you
All this is real -
Once we begin there is no jumping from the track
I can’t turn back
Stare into the face of the incoming train as you collide
The love and emotion trickle past
But the fear never subsides

The engine whispers the chorus of a thousand faceless voices
That all look like you

Amputate the philosophy
Sure it’s deceiving
Whether to let a brother dies if he wants to
Seeking out eminence - hoping that it’s wonderful
Something tears me inside so I can’t breathe
Another day is gone
I can’t live here anymore
The simplest way to American pie is through
Dried up discussions: leave feelings you cannot ignore
Dirty fascinations of you I implore

I come to you
Emotional tremors pounding thick through my veins
Always afraid of what you hear
Never do you question your fear
You refuse to give up caste for freedom
So I’ll show you what slavery truly means

So much of you is me
And so much of me is inside you
Now that my scales bleed
Suffering is all that you haven’t taken from me
Rumors may fade
But reputations never die
Every night I disappear into my grave
But morning endlessly exhumes my soul
My love you don’t want; don’t need it
But I can’t stop
I’m tired of believing in you

Lone gunman whispering to the high-noon sun
He woke up screaming a name
With meaning he cannot remember

Going ape shit over stress
Let it slide
When I find out whose clown was laughing at me

Lured to women simply to voyage back inside
I found out what went on
But bringing it back won’t be easy
Reaching out toward the warmth of a cold sun
The sunflower that walks
Alice in Phantomland
How much must I pay before I stop losing?

Beaching the whales
Diaphragm of horror
Move your integrity
You recoil into lust

Pure superficiality
And that was all that mattered
Believe in the rumors
They’re all fucking lies!

Everyone’s changed sides
My friends are my enemies
And my enemies swear to kill me
Harsh melodrama - got to know your enemies
Before you begin to believe their lies
I don’t know what I’ve done
Into the light
Perceiver of faith in times of horror

I become what you most fear
Smack you around with the same shit-shovel you used on me
Trust?
No, you never had any
But you’ve got to trust this is going to hurt you more
Than me
Echoed rhythms
Patterned antiquity
Recoiling in my swath
Nothing here can sleep
Give myself up to the trestles
Let the train smash my bones
Release my marrow-deep emotions

Hell flies down to fill the void, and I am released
Uncoiled, torn, unwound

How this is real doesn’t matter
Lock you up and throw away the key
Sometimes the demons inside are scarier
Sometimes I just have to let them out
Then sometimes you are the epitome of evil
I’ll fly down to meet you
And when I do you’ll wish I never did
The signs read ‘Werewolf Crossing’
A virtual skinfreak
You slipped away
Smash away
So far from the truth
You will learn to repay me for your crimes
Impossible humans dancing in my palms

You stayed true to yourself
Waiting for you to fall
I rip open my chest and set my heart on fire
Fray the skin from the innocent

And you wave as I drown
Crazy is only a word
Insanity is an emotion
Shovel up all we never were
And throw it all away

No vacancy in my Heart-Hotel
I follow you
I’ll never go away
A penny saved is a penny earned
An empty lust is a heartbreak deserved

Pretentious violent mood swings
All this time I’ve spent chasing you
I should have used to hate you for wasting years of my life
I know I’ll never find another woman like you
But you won’t stop laughing
I’ve loved you for so long
But I was never meant to have fortune like that
I’d die for just a moment in your arms
I am you

I’ll show you who’s laughing now
Disembody the old style
Reform to reality
I am a clown in an abertoire
You - no more the love of my life
Never again the love of my life

I set your bed ablaze
And spread your ashes over me

The ancient lust
Unassuming melody leading to evil crimes
The acid has left me with sunset dismay
The acid has left me with answers
But the lies are something I’d prefer to believe

A leviathan climbing as silent as oiled machinery
The bridge of connection between transpose and composition

Marrow-deep
I spread your ashes over me
Always the upward rooter
Reaching for the skies
Reaching for your eyes
Blades slash through my head
Betrayed - no lights
What it tastes like - throw it all away
Throw us all away - remainder of the night
Cringe to the music
Revolt - savage beatings
No laughs when I’m beating you
Empty promises - empty as a void
High screams
Pouncing twilight
Overcoat emotion

Tears drown all your fears
Vacant silence
Remember all the years - your body now
A mortician’s nightmare

Nothing owed
I will break you
Here I come
Deeper now
Darker now
Holding out until I can come again
Something speaks to me inside my head
It says you’ve left me with nothing but time to hate you
Tied up to animosity
And to untangle the hold
Releases violent mood swings
Just how did you think you could set me up like that?
Like I wouldn’t care
Like I wouldn’t dare to find you out
And tie you up

Something about the pain in your head
Lights a fire in my heart
Fray the skin from the innocent
And spread your ashes over me