I am tired
And I am not here
Because when I was
You didn’t even care

All I want in life is to be happy
Instead I’m shackled down with chains
Go for the future
But nothing here remains

I’ve lost all the dreams I never thought I’d use
Couldn’t ever realize that this is what I’ve wanted
But the lack of knowledge is my abuse
Lies and manipulation, a thousand possible answers, and I am daunted

I try to go away
Gone from here
But the rain drips off my shoes
Like it were my own blood spilling from my veins

Swallowed up inside a long black coat
I push the emotions down
So no one can see what I hide beneath my familiar

I smile outside, but beneath I can’t help but frown

Remember the past
But it is unimportant
What can I do with these precious few hours I get
I try to be convincing but my convictions aren’t worth shit

I’m about to break
Marionetting around my life
Like an elephant on a high-wire
Without a net

You would think that by now I have learned
That nothing in life is the way it seems
Trying to understand the real world
But all I know are dreams

Steams billow out my ears
I am passive, but there is a tension that boils in my veins
Create another fantasy, live it and appreciate it
Because no one gives a fuck that my life sucks
Wind the world backward, and everything else remains