I'm in love!!! Okay, that's an exaggeration.... I probably only think he's incredible because... well, basically I haven't felt this good about someone since that one guy at Kendall that I'll never tell anyone about. Its nice to finally have a real crush again. I've only met mediocre boys lately, and, frankly, its been depressing. To many nice guys, too many boring guys. And, as it turns out, those boys that I used to think were extraordinary and attractive enough to devout my time and effort to for the past few years- they've become boring too! When I see your face, I don't want to picture wheat fields, NPR and books about wolves. Is every eligible guy going through this phase? There is a difference between being intelligent and boring.
There is one such character whom I've "liked" since I met him however many years agoand we've been very friendly lately. While I'm still physically attracted to him, I find myself cancelling all my plans with him, or leaving early from our activities. I get bored much more easily than I used to, and my new method of getting out of boring situations is to just leave. Man oh man, I was at a party recently, and when the kids pulled out their acoustic guitars covered with PETA stickers and started singing bad emo covers, I left. "Well, I better hit the hay." "But its only 10:00!" Life is short, I want to be happy.
Anyhow, to get back to the whole "I'm in love!" part: this new guy's amazing. When I first met him, I thought, man he's really good-looking. Too good-looking, to be exact. Must not have enough character, and too attractive to ever even acknowledge me. He then did something nice for me, which meant a ton to me, but probably wasn't something he even thought about. After that night I told myself, okay, you'll probably see him again sometime, but don't expect him to recognize you or even know you exist. You will never be anything in his world. But a few days later, I somehow managed to get into a conversation with him without even trying, and we had such similar opinions and it turns out not only is he gorgeous, but smart too! Now I understand there has to be something wrong with him. More than likely, he already has a girlfriend (or boyfriend). He's obviously older than me, but how much? He looks to be anywhere between 20-29. He looks really young, but its the type of youthful appearance that sticks with someone forever, as in, he will still look young when he's 40 or whatever. Plus, there is another big factor that I'm leaving out, but its not worth mentioning. I need to be vague here because I never know who I'm eventually going to give this url to.
Little things are bringing me down, anxiety and such, but with money and Sondre by my side, everything's good. Since I'm locked in my room for at least two more hours, I suppose I'll get started on my Christmas list.
Listening to: "Mary" - Scissor Sisters
