Its [practically] official, the dude that I've been obsessing over for the past month and a half is dating that annoying girl from my morning class. It generally works out like that. I don't know why I like him anyway, I barely remember what he looks like unless he's staring me directly in the face, and even then he's not so attractive. It was just that first impression... He was so different. And he gave me candy, how can I resist? I honestly still own candy wrappers from the candy that four of my former crushes gave to me. Stupid things mean a lot to me sometimes.
Here's a question for ya: whats too big an age difference between a guy and a girl? Its never an issue that bothered me before, because I love older guys. It think 27 may be a little too old for me, but 26 is fine. However, why is it so hard for me to imagine going out with a guy younger than me, even if only by a year? I can't fathom it, being with someone who's not at least as old as me (preferably older), and yet... Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me and makes me think things that aren't logical. I think these are called emotions? I don't know, but I'm resisting. As long as I have a brain, its going to be in charge of my decisions.
I need a break from life. Like Spring Break, which started for me today. Except, I want it off of work too. That, however, is not possible. I want to run away to Chicago or New York, if only for a couple days. Even Dearborn, to visit someone I like:) But I'm stupid and busy and grumpy and my life doesn't feel like my life anymore. I spend an average of 12 hours a day at home, and much of that is spent sleeping. The rest is spent sitting on the couch because I'm too exhausted to do anything else.
I want to go to California.
I may have to quit my job when it comes time to leave for Europe, not something I'll be happy to do. If I quit, I'd be doomed to never set foot in the store again, but I shop there so much!
Is it okay to meet someone you've never actually met? Theres a first meeting in every relationship anyway, right?
Listening to: "Tiny Dancer" - Ben Folds
