First things first, make sure you visit the above link, the artist is incredible! Also, read last year's entry on this very day, and see the differences. I like to compare my life from year to year. Well. I feel pretty down for no reason. Well I get upset, I feel really heavy and I figure I'm currently weighing about 200 lbs (not physically of course). Somedays I wish I was more social, and that I actually liked being around people. Other days I'm thankful for being so independant. Today, I feel like.... people aren't so bad I guess. Not today at least.

Today is my dad's birthday. Today is also the day that my parents return from their two week adventure. I'm giving my dad a painting of Ramses II and Nefertari, that was too large for a scan, unfortunately. I just finished it today. I also started working on a logo, and design for my query letters that I will soon be sending to random magazines and corporations (for art).....I'm sad. Wanna know why? Because I'm incredibly sensitive (since being off medication) and very empathetic. Nothing at all is wrong in my life, I have not the slightest thing to be upset about, and yet I can listen to a song and be depressed for the whole day if the story it tells is sad. Its even worse when my friends are sad, everything affects me personally, and its sucks because I don't have the motivation to actually do anything about it. I never go out and try to cheer them up, I'd rather stay home and wallow in their sadness, by myself. I need to focus on my life, its sooooo great right now, but I can't even appreciate it. Ugh! Whats a sad/happy girl to do? I'm so fucking heavy. I think I'll look at art.