It really does make me happy when my friends are happy. Okay, there was a time when it would only make me more bitter about not having what I want. But, hey, life's a rollercoaster, everyone hits their ups and downs. If a friend is at a high point, that is something to be celebrated! I'm certainly not at a low.

My current dilemma. Everyone knows about it, everyone knows how I'm handling it, and everyone thinks I'm doing the wrong thing. I know I am! I know I should back away or give up or whatever. It just reminds me of when I was going to Kendall and dating Jeff. We never saw each other. Who knows what he was even doing during that time? I mean, I have a pretty good idea, he's a very respecatble person. But the point is, time spent apart is time spent growing apart. ? This doesn't sound like me. And I don't really believe any of my justifications for what I'm trying to do here.

I quit the Humane Society today. That sucks. I think I like the idea of working there more than I actually like working there. But I think I could've been friends with Todd if I'd known him longer. I don't think the other employees really cared for me at all though. But, I'll have more time for Michaels and drawing. Priorities! Those are mine, I suppose.