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For
It is My
Life Now
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As
I sit by
a window
of a
waterfront
restaurant
enjoying
the view
of the
sunset
on the
bay.
The
waves
rolling
endlessly
upon the
beach of
sand
washing
all the
footprints
of the
beach
travelers
away.
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Truly
enjoying
this
moment
this
freedom
it
may
sound
strange,
but
it’s
new to
me.
For
more
years
than I
want to
count My
freedom,
my
choices
just
couldn’t
be.
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Time
after
time
everything
that
went
wrong
was
my fault
or
something
I did.
Like
a scared
dog
during a
lighting
storm
in
the
bathroom
often
was
where I
hid.
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Thinking
of all
the
times I
had to
be
taught
with
beatings
leaving
bruises
everywhere.
The pain
would in
time
fade
away.
But the
feeling
that
everything
was my
fault
scarred
deeply,
filling
me with
doubts I
still
have
today.
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Friends
and even
family I
had to
set
aside
for
I was
told
"they
were
evil and
they
lied."
Follow
strict
orders
with new
ones
every
day
hoping
things
would
change
or that
I could
die.
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All
those
thoughts
and
feelings
are
still
filling
spaces
in my
mind.
I am now
out of
that
situation,
living a
new life
with
help
from so
many who
are so
kind.
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Finishing
my meal
I
decided
to take
a walk
along
the
beach,
barefoot
on the
white
sand.
Filled
with
hopes
and
dreams
of my
own
such
great
feeling
most
wouldn’t
understand.
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As
I look
back my
footprints
along
with my
past
in
time are
slowly
washing
away.
"For
it is my
life
now"
living
the way
I want
day by
day.
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©John
Tetor
&
Kathy
Robling
4/14/2001
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