Jumps out of nowhere
Realizing you aren't the intruder
Runs to the door
While I put on my socks

Growls from the Bed
Moving her body for more room
Rolls on her back
To eliminate the itch

Eyes staring at you
While you eat ice cream
Grabs the Frisbee
Moves the toy near your hands.. Teasing you.

Lost for five minutes
A lifetime for me
Tears from my eyes
Hoping to find my baby

Each second I'm gone from you
See's each second I have with you.

Take it as it comes!
A saying I here often
Take it to heart!
My conscience spits at me

Throwing each object to memory
Put it all off for another day
Each block keeps stacking up
My wall of pain builds

Each brick closes on the soul
Disappearing from your sights
Until you learn from your experiences

Break down the wall!

A time begun
Where the future
Seems to see the past
A unknown picture
Flashing before my eyes
Faces adorn my dreams
Situations not known
Where the faces take place
Where are the faces coming from?
Can't they go away?

Death and killings grow in numbers
Because of the feeling of hate,
No love for each other
Feelings of prejudice
Of race and color

No matter who you are
Or where you live
We need to get together And learn to live with one another

Holding our memories
>Replaying in my mind

Talking of current issues
Play fighting on the couch
Kissing your lips
Your hugs holding me tight
Taking walks with Mystic
Eating dinner each night
Exploding orgasms shivering my body

Realizing each moment is so precious
Each moment I spend with you
Is a memory I cherish each day

Times we are away from each other
I go through our moments and longed for you
To hold you
To touch you
To talk with you

You bring something to my life that know one has ever done
I love you so deeply

A little girl so young and sweet
Remembering how you were
The arguments … Telling mom and dad on us.
You were always not far behind us
Following us around like a little puppy

With your bowl haircut
And innocent smile
You always had your way  

At ten you were of course eighteen
No one could tell you anything different
You were always in the best of us sisters  

As the baby of the family or as you would prefer to say
Our sister
You’ve grown into something special
Someone with your own desires and wants in life  

I guess you could say life is just beginning
My words of wisdom….
Things I now know about life could be said to you….  

You will learn and cherish in time
The things you have done
And who you will be.  

You are the one I love with all my heart and soul…
You could only be just my most wonderful little baby sister….  

"Tiffanee Elaine"

TO MANY MEN

Endless rows of faces
No one in particular I remember
Maybe just situations  

Situations of nightmares or enjoyment
One usually goes with the others  

I don’t see how my memory fails
Maybe it’s the choice I have to make
Or I want to make.  

I continue to forget and learn my experiences
Changing what I think is wrong....
Which is nothing.

THE STORY

A little picture
One girl so small and delicate
With big blue eyes and a tiny smile
Looking at the camera
She looks as if she will break
Images form around her
Developing the scared thoughts she will soon believe  

A big picture
One women so old and frail
With closed eyes and lips that disappeared
Looking into the camera
She is dying
All the ideas turned black and white
Consuming the life from her very soul  

All the choices and words that were told to the young one
Made the body of the old  

It starts with the child
The little girl who could have had it all
Yet she didn’t speak of the images
That became her life and death.

NAME-CALLING

"Dedicated to the ones hurt by their peers at school"

Pink Elephant
Two words that bring vivid memories as a child
I became those words
I lived those words

From one person to another...
They relived in my nightmares
Taunting me...
The words filled
My head
My mind
My esteem

It felt like punches were being thrown
Feeling bruised...
Bleeding inside...
I died that year...
And every year after.

Becoming powerless to the children's hot words
As a child, I was the pink elephant!

Years later... As a grown women
I realize... I am in power
That I'm human not an animal
Someday all those children will realize as adults
Pay back is a bitch!
My smile and life will continue to grow each morning in my mirror!

HAPPY FOR A MOMENT

Thinking of a moment
When happiness met my life.

I was proud.
The glow was on my face.
Ambitious towards my future.
My face was the being of my world.

The world where I was...
The ruler
The owner
The follower
The guilty
I became all of the things I wanted to be.

Unknown to you
I was a person
A person with the abilities that made me human.
Yet, you couldn't see that I was like you.
But the words you use against me
Break the walls of my existence
The happiness you destroyed.

SIGHTS

Closing my eyes
Feeling the thoughts floating around me
Each thought carries the sights I’ve seen
The horror and happiness cling to a sight
The unimaginable becomes real

Evoking the only thing known to me is my reality
The reality that was created each year of life
Hoping my dreams will take away the…
Thoughts, Sights, and Realities that are me.

FUTURE

As independents
We want to choose
Who we worship
Who we follow

With dreams inside
We begin the trail
That just began
Within our mind.

YOUNG SWEET HEART

Waking up next to me is nothing
I still feel the reality of you
Deep breathing and warm flesh
My heart beats faster
Waiting to see if this is my nightmare
A tender feeling of wanting to hold and enjoy

But the outline of him is still there

I feel him turning around
The caresses from him
Kissing his lips…
I miss and want him by me always.

Owed to Paul

"A"

A broken promise
A time forgotten
A moment gone
A page turned
A lifetime waited
A tear dropped
A mouth closed
A hand broken
A life gone

BEST FRIEND

You are a friend with a heart
No one can compare to you.
You hear my problems,
Through thick and thin.
You permit and follow.
And comment on all.
To all, you are cared,
By only the best.

Without you,
My heart would die,
Of ache and pain.
With your heartwarming words,
You fill my holes,
And dry up the face.
My words of thanks could never end,
'Cause I know you will always be there.

A CHILDREN’S GAME IS NOT JUST A GAME