Mortal thoughts

CONFUSION, another red nightmare. ©Toppy,1997.
There is no story
For that I'm not sorry
There is just me
For which I bleed
Fountains of the minds juice
That pours without heed
It will not stop
Nor will it stall
When I lie empty
You ask me if that's all
Never, there is more to it then that
I will strain my mind
To build bridges of rock
On which the sun may shine
There is no rhyme
There is no verse
To tell you the truth
I think that's worse
I fall to my knees
But do you care
You walk right past me
Too immersed in the fair
Do you really care
Have you ever seen
Those places where I've been
Oh, what a dream
In which I scream
For the saviors return
But I know I will burn
As tears of lava
And blood hate
Runs over my body
As I cremate
So don't look at me
I'm scared of what you'll see
And never say
That you know where I've been
Can't you tell that your world and mine
Shall never meat
You may try with all your heart
But my life will still be in retreat
Don't show me what's gone before
I don't want to work harder
Just to be poor
In a future that holds no rest
In a vain attempt to be the best
Don't dare drive me towards your goals and dreams
I just want to sit here
And watch you scheme
Ahhhhhhhhh
Why can't I scream
This is no dream
I am lonely
But never alone
Walls surround me
As far as I can see
When I find the door
I'll settle my score
Leaving behind untold time
To wither in denial

WORDS ©Toppy,1998.
Words, words
They originate from my mind
To be fucked by the pen
They define themselves
As what they are not
Showing glimpse of secrets
Hidden in hell
No matter how hard I write
They won't tell
The man is alone
With secrets to yell
The paper fall empty
But he has so much to deceive
Using words,
Words
Dying and flaming
They show their worth
Flowing and flailing
They turn into verse
Don't change a letter
Move with an order
Come together
So things sound better.
But what's wrong with saying what you really mean. Can't you show them just what you've seen. Using words. Words. Mold and control them. Make them do as you please. Move and feel them. Through pressures unseen. They are words, words. And they stand for you and me.

RAVING ©Toppy,1998.
What can I say
To please the likes of you
Who laugh and bay
At others dismay
But refuse to see the truth
With tablets of rye
And flowers that die
You send your regards to soon
And puppets unchained
Speak of devils inflamed
While the jugglers stir the stew
In such a way
Will robots get paid
On account of receiving what's due
Still children will hide
From upstaging stars
For fear of what may return
And with such disgrace
Written across your face
It's doubtful that you feel concern

LOST ©Toppy,1998.
Lost in the moment of anger
When I really was alone
Couldn't figure out what to
Had to destroy my own home
I thought it would prove that I was God
I thought it would hold the world at bay
I could not have been more wrong
Now I am driven by my sodden dismay

The hand of fate hangs over me
A moment of infinite complexity
In my head
They are fighting
My ego the single prize
My life is the price that is paid

Fools guide to hell ©Toppy,1997.
What have you got
When you feel the rage
Do you feel so different
When you world has gone insane
Demon spawns from emptiness
To hold a world at bay
Despite all your love
You're still just an ape in a cave
And still you believe that you can be saved
Knowledge warps your veins
Tearing your soul to shreds
Now that you know
It's time to go
Feel the pain
Holding back the hero again
Denying life it's flower
Showing such great power
Nothing is the same
Kaleidoscope of disinfected hope
Half of you is insulted
To immersed in the greed
Everything is important
Disease limits the weak
All along you have cried at your doom
Preying that the rot won't set in
Can't you see
You have to make room.

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