A raw diet of love

An Ape's Challenge ©Toppy,1998.
I never meant for this to happen
I only ever wanted to be left alone
The rapists in my life
Have come inside and made me home
I am not pleased with mortal desires
Nor am I deceived by my playful obsession
I am but a man
Trapped by sinful love
Beholden by my rage
Set in place within my age
I won't complain
I don't want
I can't retire
I dare not desire
Yes I am the septic one
I am what never tires
What the f*ck am I
But an ape
Who dreamt of heaven
And woke up in hell

Who loves ya baby ©Toppy,1998.
In the moment of torture
I revealed my face to god
I said look at me
Look at what has become of your seed
Are you pleased
You f*ck

Surrender ©Toppy,1998.
I shedded my skin
I lost myself to the sin
I held back for want of desire
I fell onto the funeral pyre
Then we clashed
We broke
Nothing touched us
Amongst the smoke
Was it too much to ask
To fly amongst the angels
Was it too big a task
To sleep amongst the gods
Why should I feel so degraded
Now that my passion is sated
Why am I the only one
That seeks to have my share of fun
Worst of all
Is the simple fact of life
That no matter where I turn
I am surrounded by all this strife

Moments of Love ©Toppy,1998.
From the moment we met
I never really understood
What you really mean to me
So soft, so hard
I only feel a need
Subtly concealed within an eternal fight
You are more then a moment of fancy flight
More then a cliché' masturbation
More then a hero in the light
So soft, so hard
You please me beyond belief
I dare not believe that fate's my ally
The chance we met
Is all consuming
Rising above the lust
A disbelieving moment
When we stared
A moment
And then we met

Lost days dogs ©Toppy,1998.
The day I felt the shame
Is the day I learnt to play
The hidden god of future sight
Never led me from my doom
Lost inside my head
I lick my tail
And wonder home
Funny how all this sin
Is lost beside the truth
And what do I get
For my souls redemption
No earthly paradise
Is compensation for my rage
I couldn't fake it
I can't deny it
Why don't I f*ck it

CHESS ©Toppy,1998.
Temptation moves
Sodden sheets
Of empty sin
Holly mirrored vows
Broken on the street
I shall die
Never will I cry
Living an empty death again
Telling me to leave
Imploring me to behave
I hate the moments of lust
Conceived by a mind that's lost
Play along with the fools waltz
Hoping that the rot sets in
Destiny reminds me
Calls the facts back
Tells me to forget
That I ever was a pawn
To your game
Love sours everything
Trades thought for instinct true
No way
Come here
Go there
Discontinue
Pleased to defile your corpse
Evil will come to nought
And here I am
Lost inside your mind
Come on, just take my kind
Oh no, don't confuse our time
Can't I feel within you
We'll make it
It's true you know

PREDATOR ©Toppy,1998.
The beast is still within me
Hidden away by the night
It lays in wait
As the cliché'd predator it is
It won't be driven by my soul
And shall be back again
To feed upon my blood
Drink, there is plenty to go around
Drain away to an empty carcass
That's riddled with the shame
Sores of hate
Shall weep puss indiscreet
So I shall not hold onto your womb
Shedded from me
By silent storms
To die a simple death
Is just too much to ask
So to live to the end
Is too big a task

A lovers slumber ©Toppy,1998.
You lay beside me
In bed
Dead in slumber
Scratching subtle need
I beside you
Cast in wonder
Immersed in your flair
Muscles and breath
Move beneath me
You're content to sleep
I'm content to ponder
Our plight in life is before us
Our problems no longer deceive us
Content in arms we live
Joyous we have been reprieved

Inferno ©Toppy,1998.
Bain of my loins
Flame within my soul
Full of heat within such intensity
Burn through to my side
Hell knows you've come to far
And now I can say that you are mine
Cremate away reality's vile vale
Leaving only shreds of lace
Wrapped within those cold ashes
I sleep for eternity
Without disgrace

Adequate resolution of a simple distance ©Toppy,1998.
Disconnect your penis from your mind
Run around kids within untamed lust
Suck venom and spread disease
Milk of aborted mothers rubbed into fetus
How do you make it
So sincere
Pain and suffering in the womb
Concealed
Pump and grind those tender infant bones
Shotgun lobotomy
Drives the demons away
It's love or hate
Why don't you just save time
And masturbate

Childish dreams ©Toppy,1998.
Nature came on hard
It never made amends
No matter how hard I tried
My ego could not defend
Sodden needs
And a life without seed
Was no compliment
Compared to a child's dreams

Lusty toys ©Toppy,1998.
I see life through a single spinter of pain
'My mind is driven by deviant moments of blood lust
Every moment of desire shreds my soul upon a wanton fire
A life that heal incomplete
Is a farce that is indiscrete

Faked It ©Toppy,1998.
When a heart stood still
I wept over lost feeling
A sight of open arms
Long time gone
But still in sleep I miss you
Warm or cold
I slept without your hold
Resting on the stage of our memory
Across a room
Love consumes
In silence
Eternity's bell rings true

L3 ©Toppy,1998.
Decieved by smut
And torn by lust
My ego drains empty
Rubbed into dust
Twisted into fragments
Disolved within the impossible
It is to hard to contemplate
Life without twodle
But to draw upon the soul
To raise tose higher values
Is to serve the guilt of others
In which you can only lose
And be driven by false scorn
So instead it is just a token
Of what has driven life this far.

Hours of naked Lite ©Toppy,1998.
Touching in the moonlight
Feeling very queer
Trying to find a satisfier
With someone unknown
Just to hold back for a moment
The uselessness of desire
Feed the worms in the brain
Trying to rub away the crime
Just pumping hard
hopin to finish in time

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