Stewart is in the black print
the ( ) are the voices of the brothers and sisters collectively
By Grace you are saved never by faith ..by grace
You’ve heard it how (often a bunch of times_ You were in fact, as Gayle
pointed out, kept in
restraint. You were kept under tutors until this day. There is also,
in no way to excuse my
...error...There is also an amazing working of God in all this too,
not to excuse at all...not to
excuse me at all.....That’s one will have to get into...there
is this in Job “ Behold you have
instructed many and now it has come to you.” “Nevertheless if the Son
makes you free,
you will be free indeed...(thank you Jesus) A child as long as he is
a child is no better than
a slave...he is under tutors until the day the father appoints...you
better be glad you
were..and there is this too...you better be glad you were...the alternative
is
worse..appauling as this is... If I hadn’t grabbed you ...what then?(
saved from my own
backsliding...I might be dead...I might be physically dead) Yet as
I said all along..but my
spirit didn’t mean it ..it’s not me doing it ..it’s God doing it...and
it was!
You’ve all been reading Romans a lot lately(yes)...you’ve all
been reading Romans a
lot(yes)..and could not notice this? Look , it is clear that God has
decided that it is time for
you to transfer your allegiance, if that’s the word, from my spirit
to His Spirit(yes..thank
you Jesus). there are deeply ingrained ideas and feelings..running
wild in our fellowship,
many of them directly or indirectly can be traced back to my error.
Everything has to be
re-examined. And this is a good time to do it....What has happened
is this..this is another
set of..some sort of ah ah...some sort of tying my error
to your problem....and ..ah..how
do you think I’m doing Gayle?.....
Gayle: I’m not really sure”..
.Stewart: in speaking anyways....
Gayle: no answer.....
Stewart: I have been unable to speak almost right Gayle?
Gayle: yeah
It is again only His grace that I am even physically able to
speak right now.. that is
coherent...I have been a help in many ways..but have torn down in others...we
have come
to depend on faith instead of Jesus.....by faith....the stress is subtle
yes... “it’s up to you
and your faith”...is that the idea that you have?(yes)...Some how I
cheerily bounded off
with that idea...and the brothers couldn’t keep up with me...faith
in His love but it’s up to
you...somehow...these are absurdities...Why did God allow this?
You think it must be
because of wrong in me...”(yeah,muttering) this illness is not unto
death..it is for the glory of God”... yer
saying that kind of thing? Unless...then there’s me ...how can
this be?
Furthermore....Furthermore.. let us let us erase this whole meeting
now...this has never
happened....even so I would not rightly..now again..forget the wrong...
but I was not
rightly strengthening the brothers... you don’t think so? see you say
“oh you’ve been so
much help.” go ahead say it...(yeah yes)....it yet remains it’s
not true...I haven’t
been...what then?...Jesus told the parable...there was a rich man...with
a trunk put all kinds
of money in...and the woman put one penny in...now what’s the point?(guessing)
I could
cheerily keep going this way I could..I could cheerily keep going..but
in affect I was just
saying to the brothers..what it comes down to whether I thought I was
doing what it
comes down to is saying ..”well..it’s up to you..you gotta be faithful”and
so forth. So
where is strengthening the brothers the real way?
Strengthening the brothers in faith
that you are his chosen..first and foremost...and I am not ..to my
shame. building up on
the one hand and tearing down with the other..bull in a china shop..I
hear my friend back there....it really has been...and
I want you to know something else...are you listening?(yes) you must
understand
this..how...hard to believe again...this is nothing...there is a real
way in which I have been
as or more a victim than you ...now think of that...you didn’t waste
25 years...and had he
not rescued me as he rescued you a short while ago... I wonder what
would have become
of you...it was that bad. Getting that bad...this has been a stumbling
block for all of us
including me...poison talk... “ God gives you what you need to get
started and then it’s up
to you” ...my my ...look...how easily everyone is returning now..how
easily!(yes). Why is it so
easy? They are returning so easy. Because He’s doing it(yes..yeah).And
all this error...he
is overlooking as it were and bringing us back... but enough is enough.
Putting to death “I
can do this part over here myself.” I can see that working in me. Thats
what the
brothers...and I would forever teach about Samson...and I am the most...and
I’m not a
hypocrite...I’m not a hypocrite...you understand this? (yeah) you don’t
get that.(yes) How
many of you don’t? He doesn’t. How many don’t understand that? Gayle
how bout you
defend me...
Gayle : because um in teaching about Samsom the
way that Stewart
Stewart: while I just....I did it in ignorance
Gayle: Yeah the way he was doing it himself...
Stewart: a hypocrite knows he was
Brothers and sisters: rightyes yeah
Gayle: Nobody was telling him “Look, yer doing
it this way..and there was nobody telling
him....
Sister 1: Nobody tried telling Stewart
before? I just find it hard to believe
Stewart: Let’s hear it.
Sister 1:(I don’t want to be judgmental)..
yeah Let’s hear it
Sister 1: I find it hard to believe ..So many
brothers talked about it...I was always under
the impression that they wrote you letters and
tried to tell you, I mean that’s what I always
heard..........and I don’t even know the whole
truth, but David Wilkerson told brothers and sisters that
he tried to talk to you and that you wouldn’t
listen to him, I don’t want to be judgmental,
I know I have a lot of faults too..I just think
you had to have some clue..you pushed
everybody away and made it so hard for everyone
to talk to you
Stewart: And you’re glad I did aren’t you?
Sister 1: yeah but I..
Stewart: Listen..,Let’s start over..you said “A lot of brothers
and sisters think about
this..No they don’t. They never never never thought that this was bad.
No they never
thought they thought there was something wrong of course! Of Course!
there’s someth..
they didn’t think anything of this. And neither did I. Now you
say didn’t anyone try to
talk to me. Well friends like him. “How you have helped me,” and David
Wilkerson...well I
don’t remember..this was 25 years ago?(yeah) And if my old wine is
this bad what must
the new wine have been? I don’t know what I was doing with him...I
don't remember anyway .I don’t know what I
was trying to say..it maybe as bad as him..I don’t know. there is this
also. Me and other
Christians. You know that scripture “ Woe to him who is alone when
he falls.”(yes) Well I
know that scripture, you don’t. I know that now. You don’t know what
that means. Why
am I alone? Why is it that there is no fellowship between me and other
Christians? First of all,
I gave up long ago. That was my sincere claim. But why , what was the
trouble in the first
place? Perhaps it was..while insisting...perhaps they were trying to
land me with
grace..now I doubt it...now I doubt it. But! it may have been, that
may have been the case.
Perhaps someone did somewhere, had to have been way back. Perhaps
someone did try.
Perhaps someone noticed. I have no way of dealing with it. No memory
no...I repeat what
I said , I think if you showed this, they would murmur nice things
instead of throw up.
What do you think?(yes yeah) Well try it! Try whoever can..you want
to..
Brother 1: I did show somebody and they
thought it was wonderful..
Stewart: I am afraid that’s what would happen...I am afraid that’s
what would happen
But you know , but you know it isn’t right to do really. Because then
it is to their shame.
Yer just sticking pins in em. And even if you then try to argue and
correct them as I might
have done 20, 25 years ago tried to do...for an argument , to learn,
some such
thing....Let’s hear some more what you find hard to believe..cuz I
do too.
Sister 2: I find it hard to believe...how I often...and
we all so often say “By the Grace of
God....and hearing you speak to us...I now see
how those words were empty
Stewart: that’s right
Sister 2: I wasn’t conscience of what I was really saying, just what I was taught
Stewart: And who is the emptiest of all....me....I was devoid
, I was unconscience of
grace. I really wonder if some of you were more aware of grace than
I. I really think so
because it’s zero with me.
Sister 3 : I remember too
Stewart: There might as well not been the word in
the bible. You never heard me say 2
words. Did you ever discuss grace, anyone of you?(yes)
Wait a minute, wait a minute, she’s first anyway, wait a minute, listen
, did any of you ,
just raise your hand, did any of you discuss grace a year ago and more
with anybody? Well
then yer way ahead of me!... way ahead right there. Because , to you
, the word existed
and that’s way ahead of me.
Sister 3:I remember about 10 years ago..um the
sisters and brothers in New York found
some Brother Monbleau ..Wayne Monbleau..and his
whole teaching was based on
grace..the grace of God..and they would all talk
about the grace of God and everybody
there, everybody in New York would like mock
them and put them down and ..I really don’t
know.... that's what I remember
Bobby Whiple: I just heard him on the radio
Stewart: ehuh?
Bobby: I just heard him on the radio on the way here , I don't know , some of the things he says...
Stewart: And?
Bobby:: He does speak of the grace of God
Stewart: you know something else even more appalling? All these
subjects, many of the
subjects dealing with God’s grace are in fact fairly accurately dealt
with here, everything
around grace, but grace doesn’t exist..that’s that’s more amazing God’s
love is in here all
over and Relying on Him....you see God was eh ..heh..I guess ah..I
guess they are all
running out now..it’s getting too boring...(nooooo) apparently(no)
Listen..God was
revealing to me over some time when I said ya know back Jan 1
when I said “He was restoring
me too, I didn’t know the tenth of it, I didn’t know the tenth of it.
Nevertheless um Gayle
has been reading the bible studies recently, all the bible studies
and see how its working
towards grace and the subjects around it.... hard to even say...I don’t
know what the
sessions are...I knew I didn’t know what they were...God was bringing
us to the real basis.
I was selling righteousness comes from faith...therefore...it’s through
faith, not from or by.
Victor Trapani: I have a question, When I was
younger in Jesus I would meet a lot of
other Christians and I would hear them talk about
this exact thing about the grace of God,
and even though they would tell me about it I
would say I understood it, it never really
clicked until 2 months ago, so I think it was
Jesus Himself revealing it to me personally at
the time when He chose to
Stewart: All right whenever you say that that you also have to
come back to the other
side, it’s also my spirit pushing it out of you and saying “don’t listen
to
that”(yeah..yes)How much of that was it too?(yeah yes) You know there
are ways
..different ways to look at it.
Brother 2: I remember I used to read alot of Charles
Spurgeon and he’d talk about grace,
and I would just think “ well it’s 100 years
later Jesus has showed us more now
Stewart: uuugh!
Brother 3:I think he must be in error...ya know
that’s what I would that’s what I would
think ...somehow ..I would really wonder about
what you would say about what he said
there
Stewart: How much is it I could clamor and I could gallop
and skip along in my merry
way and the brothers couldn’t keep up with me(a lot a wholel ot) It
was my merry
way..that is in what I was doing wrong...don’t forget also..Jesus used
me a lot (yes...sure)
in spite but it was in spite ....and if that isn’t His grace..according
to the bible what is? His
kindness ya know.. His grace was extended to us while we were enemies...Now,
we must
really get into grace(yeah yes) I mean really....try this saying...There
is something to
this...Now Grace, Faith and spirit, small S, these three abide, but
the greatest of these is
grace....small S....small S eh..we”ll have to get into that. Wine is
treacherous....Now
here’s what happens...Let’s take those three...Grace, Faith, and spirit...there’s
a lot of, are
you paying attention, (yes) There’s all of churches overboard on spirit
matters. You now
know of a church overboard on faith...there are in fact apparently,
recently I have been
inquiring, that there are some overboard on grace, to the extent that
they to the extent that
they claim to do away with baptism. you know you can be lopsided
any way?(yeah) Nevertheless
those 3 exist.... Grace , faith and spirit..all of them are important.
And they have to be in
the right balance. And they certainly haven’t been here...and therefore
I have no idea, I
have no idea in the light of the truth I have no idea about other churches,
you know I have
to say that...I have no idea...because anyway I would have looked at
them, would have
been in error. Follow? (yes) spirit had better not be the basis, because
it’s just an anything
goes..Faith can’t be the basis because then it’s hard work. Grace is
the basis. It’s not on
the basis of works but of grace. Grace must be the basis. Anyways....Romans
10 “...a zeal
for God but it is not enlightened.” speaking of the Jews....I have
heard it said “Am I some
sort of Old Testament character....maybe there’s something to that...being
ignorant of the
righteousness that comes from God and seeking to establish their own...now..that
had to
be true of me...to some extent...partly the problem ignorance, non-enlightened
Samaritan
doing both at once....I began speaking about relying on Jesus...The
big thing is that you
have to remove the phony relying on faith before you could actually
rely on
Jesus...How much are you relying on Faith?(weak muttering) You see,
in other words,
here’s another explanation. In some sense or other I have a framework
somehow, that I
can keep going...does that make any sense?..That you don’t have. I
wasn’t seeing grace,
Nevertheless I could include enough of it in some sort of pseudo-framework
to ah..keep
going..enough to ah seem right...got it?(yes) How can you rely on Jesus
with some sort of
“It’s up to me” feeling?( can’t)..contradictory....now a double problem...yanking
grace out
of scripture...especially out of those three, Grace , faith and spirit...yank
grace
out....you’ve done 2 things, 2 problems. First , you’ve changed...by
removing
grace...what’s left is changed...but it’s also damaged. You can’t yank
something out of
something without damaging what’s left...its its..there are two things...there’s
a
vacuum....and there’s damage. Do you follow? (yes)You can see that
having happened.
That is , violence has been done to faith and spirit too! And then....the
actual wrong came
in which is relying on faith.....to the point(sighing) I was right...you
are saved by faith, by
the way that’s in the summary....it’s both. Twice, we are saved by
faith, don’t you people
ever check your bible?(yes)
I wonder if you have more appreciation of the working of God’s grace
among us
now?(yes) Grace enough to overcome this sin. Where sin abounds , grace
abounds all the
more. Shall we therefore sin...God knows that I did it in ignorance...I
didn’t plan this...I
assume that you all know that(yes)
What about another explanation.....as he said.. without such a foundation..means
that
there is no framework, there is no sight of the framework....everything
is sort of
disconnected in a strange feeling kinda way, and every week it is a
new direction and
teaching and it isn’t connected to the foundation, the basis which
is grace....which is the
way it must be.....minus grace ..all the good things are floating.
And how do you ever tie
them together? Well you couldn’t but I quote could. In some sort of
a running on
automatic pilot....do you start to get a picture?(yes) There’s no confidence
therefore...confidence is a Big word....big....or..as it is written...”how
come they never
marry.?”.....for that one alone I repent...for that one alone....Because
you have to be like
Stewart first(yeah)....and the amazing marriage that He has given me...which
is near
per...not me.....I’m far from perfect..in fact, Gayle is close to perfect...did
you ever hear..I
heard some of you people say “ She’s not , she’s like not human.”(yes
laughing) that
marriage itself is nothing but the grace of God. Nothing but. In fact
she looked up and
found, “ He who finds a wife”, it’s very close, by the way, grace ,
what is grace? we’ll
have to get into that(undeserved ..undeserved mercy) hold it
hold it hold it, that is the
stupidest thing there is, I say , with my fervent spirit, undeserved
mercy...that is stupid to
talk like that, because mercy is never mercy if it is deserved....so
you’re saying mercy is
mercy when you’re saying Mercy is undeserved mercy.....fix your brain..in
order for to be
mercy otherwise grace would no longer be grace...in order to be mercy
it can’t be
deserved...or it isn’t mercy...What is this stupid undeserved mercy...and
that is what
people say!!(yeah yeah)Listen Listen..it doesn’t even make sense...just
in words.....Oh
maybe you do deserve some other kind of mercy..do you?(nooo)well..what
is this? now think
about it....You know I haven’t lost my confidence..my confidence is
in Jesus...now where
it should have been all along but it wasn’t ....and therefore will
confidently say that...what
is this undeserved mercy? Get your head screwed on! Noo?! (yes)
Now think about it...
Mercy is mercy is all yer sayin.....you don’t get it?(yeyyss..noo)If
eh rather Grace is
mercy..yer saying Grace is mercy yer saying Grace equals mercy and
it doesn’t....They are
two different things....Grace is something...and it is certainly undeserved
as all mercy is..or
it wouldn’t be mercy....now anyway..anyway...um..anyway...what was
I saying before
about that...oh yeah “he who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains
favor, now grace
is close to favor...close...it’s not...but thats approach..that’s one
of the words that are
around grace...that you’ve found favor...that He has extended his grace
..although the
grace of God and the grace of Jesus Christ too ya know,by the way,
two different things....we gotta
get into this...see somehow I got saved....And I still think I got
saved...I still think I got
saved. did I get saved two weeks ago? Well I think I have to say I
got saved 25 years
ago...I think... but that’s another matter...I got saved or whatever....and
right away...right
away...ahh....again you know, ..there’s another thing. I bought a bill
of goods in a way
....because what does everybody do...you get saved....and then you
go to
church...and that’s about it....anyway..ahh..something like that..I
got saved and I lost
interest in ..thats ..I don’t remember doing it , I’m saying...I must
have something like lost
interest in salvation...it was no longer interesting...now well it’s
over..I mean ah...and I
must have been acting something like that...perhaps having bought that
picked that
up..who knows..anyway...that’s something...in that area...well all
right it’s no longer
interesting....so now I’ll get in the Old Testament now I’ll start
interpreting...and that’s
what happened...it was a process..iin the process since....and got
into interpreting this
and interpreting that and and Matthew 24....meanwhile the most important
teaching of all,
salvation, and the most important part of the most important teaching
was nowhere. An
nobody noticed. Now , in a nutshell, that’s a process sense...dya
follow?(yes) that’s partly what happened....Yes..eh..Gayle thought
studying Matthew 24
would do that...over the years ..how many secretly dreaded it because
fear “I could
loose my salvation, with such an extreme testing , will I make it?
(yeah yeashyes)”.....
and you know it’s the brothers ...again...that may ..that particular
one was even worse
with the sisters...perhaps...there feeling reaction to it might be
worse...but ya know it’s
still the brothers...If ..if our life is based on works...that faith
becomes works
somehow...that’s just it ..it is more telling on the brothers...and
it’s the brothers therefore
that um...that’s why I have been speaking of the brothers being set
free...think it’s true?
(yes)...Without grace you’re on a crossing your fingers basis. I asked
a while ago
“Are you trying to talk Jesus into saving you?” Remember..(yes)
trying to convince him
into saving you. (yes) my goodness...
Ya know the whole while, I never tried to take Jesus place..no way and
was always
speaking against it...and yet that’s what the devil arranged...now
think about it...something
like that in effect....Without grace the chain of how connects everything
to Jesus is broken.
So all becomes mysterious..grace is meant to be the framework, format....I’m
saying
"salvation is a gift while under the counter you have to earn it by
faith." Why don’t the
brothers marry, because they have no confidence. Why don’t they have
confidence,
because of their impossible task....what do you think of that brothers?...(yes
yeah makes a
lot of sense)...
Brother 4: Many of the ones that are married ,
their marriagearen't very good because of the
same problem...
Faith has almost become almost an end in itself ...how’s that?(yeas)
one of the translations calls it
the instrument...the tool....by the way But I wonder ..Gayle?
there are of course a lot of salvation
tracts floating around ..you pick em up right?(yes) Are they all the
very same thing?(pretty much)
that I t’s faith, faith, faith, that it’s never grace? (nooo, it’s
grace yeah grace) it’s grace?
(yeah yes yeah)....I picked one up..I saw one yesterday, it was zero
grace....or a few days ago
.there certainly must be grace....
Brother 5: isn’t even the King James translation...don’t
they even word it, don’t they say...
“it is through grace you are saved by faith?
Stewart: Yeah..same thing..that’s Revised...same thing...
(noo no, it’s by grace ..)
Stewart: say again...say again..I can’t hear ya
Brother 5:: I thought the kings James Version
as I have seen it on those tracts.said. “By Grace
you have been saved through faith..the KJV
(wait..wait...you changed it ...you said it differently
the first time)
Stewart : It says "by" ..I’ll bet ya..it says by grace
through faith..(right) Faith is the lesser and
Grace is the greater, doesn’t matter what translation...(yeah) that’ll
come out...Grace is
the basis... ..all the faith in the world...if He doesn’t extend His
grace....Now ..that’s
jumping the gun... without grace as the basis...Be zealous to confirm
your call and election
becomes trying to convince Jesus to save you(yes)... because the fact
that nobody is
picking up on grace.. and you haven’t been...You haven’t been picking
up on it... the fact that
nobody’s been picking up on it...as much as I have already gone into
it...shows how
deeply everyone is into “Faith, it’s up to me”ecetera...instilled
in...think a that...
There is no receiving His grace with thanksgiving.... which is almost
the basis of Christian
life....Christian Life..that’s right...where’s Orange...now..no grace...Does
the word grace
appear anywhere...just the word...let alone ...I’ll bet it doesn’t....Things
we looked at...it
doesn’t...We got a long way to go people ..are you getting restless?(noooo)
Notice there
is a lot of running out..(yes...maybe take a 10 minute break....) It’s
5:00 now....We can
either keep going or take a break or break for supper(brwaksupp 10min
keep)Well...well...we could take a vote..remembering that for freedom(everyone
together)
Christ has set us free(thank you Jesus) what’s the rest though..(everyone)
Stand fast
therefore and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.) To a Yoke
of (slavery) To a yoke
of salvation by faith or works.... Are the brothers starting to realize
how Jesus is starting
to set all of US free?(yeees) how many are only starting to? how many
think they half
understand it pretty much?...well...that’s getting there...Now let’s
vote...on the break or
keep going....keep going such as...I mean I don’t want to dwell on
me..but aah...up to a
point it’s important...the way I have operated...my spirit.....what
God is doing with
me...how He’s been leading me...and then finally ...the right view
and balance that’s a big
one..what is the right ..what is right then?... well starting that...
and about grace... and
other smaller...or should we take a break?....(take a break) or should
we take supper?
( supper)... What is God’s will?( go a little further)(Why don’t we
take a vote?)
you see when you sing amazing grace...doesn’t really hit you huh?(yes
it does..no, no)take
a vote on it then(yes)...how many say we break for supper now? how
many say we take a 10
minute break?...How many say no break and no supper?(laughter) Well
it’s pretty obvious
that most want a break....(yes) right?(yes) so everybody vote on a
10 minute break or a
supper break(yeah) is supper ready?
Vinnie: Yeah ...if were gonna have a break I think
it should be for supper, because if we
go on to 7:00 its ahh it makes things..hard..the
food will be getting messed up(laughter)
okay you ready? how is that pure Vinnieand our fellowship? Well ...life
and actions are to
be interpreted in terms of the nearest circumstance only and we must
act on the basis of
the closest circumstance....never raise up our eyes into the context
of greater things....ahh
now supper is pretty great that’s true but but..(laughter) there
may be even greater
things...pitiful little “it’s gonna get messed up.” (laughter)....Take
courage Vinnie! Take
courage(laughter) see I’m strengthening the brothers!(laughter) Take
courage...
Vinnie: stupid thing I said...
Brother: (to Vinnie)Don't worry
Listen ah..let’s all vote on a 10 minute break or a supper break...Are
we all ready? (yes)
How many say a supper break now?(clamor) well..and how many say a 10
minute break?
well they lost(laughing) Well since it’s everybody and I don’t know
a reason why to do
otherwise..maybe a supper break..we can agree on that then( yes) what
do you think?
(yes) what do you think about this meeting?(praise God thank you Jesus....)
Never would have thought of it... (nooo)
Denny Dennison: I always thought that we consciencely
as a fellowship
never got into grace because of the potential
to take advantage which I always saw in the
other churches
Stewart: Hey..there’s a huge potential to take advantage..but
tough luck ..that is the route
we must go(yes) cuz that’s the bible route...that is...yes there is
a huge potential...we’ll
have to get into that...you never would have thought this...it’s a
big surprise(yes)....
Brother 6: yeah ..we went to see a brothers last
night in brighton beach
Stewart: Can’t hear a word yer mumbling...
Brother 6: okay We went to see some brothers in
Brighton Beach last night and I
remembering saying “yo ..Jesus is...brother Stewart
is ______too.
Stewart: already did at least two weeks ago(thank you Jesus)..His
grace is greater than my
shame or my error(thank you Jesus...yeahpraise God) the next time you’re
afraid to make
a mistake...because you’re afraid to , in sincerity, do what really
looks ruuu ..do what
really looks right, really checked..ehreally looks right...His grace
if if ya are wrong His
grace is greater anyway(thank you Jesus) TWENTY FIVE YEARS OF ERROR.?
...you try to beat that(laughter) 25 years of colossal error....
Brother 7: I read about..
Stewart: this is no little point..(yeah) Sonya says I should
expound on grace
more..remember? That’s the ans ah taloowa..you’re the one ..expound
on grace more..he
ha ..that’s the answer huh? MYYYYY...it’s an awful lot more than that...this
mortal sin...I
thought that was a big deal..I made a mistake...I did...Ha I thought
that I was... I bought a
bill of goods.that was awful...but that wasn’t even the tip of the
iceberg...remember that?(yes) once in a
lifetime bible study I called it..remember?(yes)Oh my goodness....It
is very very hard... a
month from now you try to picture somebody...actually being oblivious
to grace...and is
fervent in Jesus as I have been...and put that together...a month from
now ..you try and
figure that out..impossible....which leads you to wonder...God purposely
made me blind to
it..."so I am not responsible"(stewart in a mocking tone)..eh pa..purposely
made me blind to it..etc.. but ah....needs to
understand when I said I’m glad it’s that bad because it’s proof ..it’s
my written
evidence..what I already know in my spirit...that I didn’t do it...
I did it in
ignorance...there’s the proof....it’s not there...if it was half there
messed up...that might
make me wonder....so I’m glad it’s that bad...it’s zero...you don’t
get it huh?(yeas) a lot
more to it...what do you think about this..(thank you Jesus....) later
we will have to discuss
your forgiveness of me or the lack of it...that’s a subject....
now are we all ready to pray
together?(yes).....
(after prayer)
Brother 7: it’s gonna take a while to digest...
Brother 8:: For me , it shows how much Jesus loves you fiercely..
Stewart: Boy ...that is my hope right there...it is said “He
has become my salvation”....that
I dare trust him...what He has done for me...even through this....
Brother 9: Seems to me, like a beginning, a beginning
of a better relationship with Jesus
and with each other(yes)
Stewart: based on the sufficiency of His grace(thank you Jesus)
Lauren Albrecht: I’m not sure but I, I heard that
the man that wrote or that
Jesus gave the words to Amazing Grace,
that he was a Christian for a long time and came
to the realization that he was on the wrong basis..and
that..
Stewart: really?
Lauren: God gave him the words that God marked him with Amazing Grace
Brother 10: there’s a little more than that..
Stewart: is that right?
Brother 11: Actually...he was a seafarer..
and he dealt in slavery, he was a Christian and
he backslid very grossly and he came back to
God and the last part of his life, he was
extremely faithful..and close to Jesus but he
used to deal in slavery
Bobby Whipple: He was He was in a very serious
He was in the Church of England, they
thought he committed apostasy..they told him
he was finished and ah...because of all the
sins that he chose..serious sin he was into when
he was in Africa
Brother 11: Drinking and slavery
Bobby: then he uh called out ta, he did call out
to God and Jesus forgave him and that’s
why he wrote the song..Amazing Grace .(wow...thank
you Jesus)
Stewart: so you see he..he..again...you know we gotta change
everything,...He called out
to God...he put his faith in God’s grace..
Bobby: yeah
Stewart: and then called out to God....is what yer saying(yeah
yeah) And he knew that that’s
what he was was doing then.....same as me....Let’s hear some more brothers
and sisters.....
Brother 12 : I know when I was backsliden
it seems ah, the times when I could see Grace
most clearly in fact, ah pretty much the only
times that I considered it was when I was the
very most out of it..with the noose around my
neck and the rope broke
Brother 13: physically
Brother12 : I considered his grace a lot more
than I considered my faith at that point
Stewart: that makes sense
Brother 14: I saw God's grace when He made me trust him with 3 children....and I ...will continue
Stewart: (whispering) that's His mercy...
Brother 15: I think that God has let this happen this long....and what is His plan for us(yeah yes..muttering thank you Jesus)
Bob Muller: It is his grace that brought us safe thus far...(and grace willl bring me home...praise God ..thank you Jesus)
Stewart: You don't have the view that Salvation is over and done
with..?(starting to..starting to now..muttering) Right kind of view of
that... Otherwise Grace would no longer be grace...