all i want is to be able to touch you right...just one time. i want you to sweat because of me, and i want to take your breath away. make noises and fists because of me. close your eyes tight because of me. i want to fuck you like i’m not scared, like i know what i’m doing even if i don’t. i want to make you feel like a goddess...like the sexy thing that you are. like you’ve made me feel before. it’s your turn. my plan was to take you before you could even say a word...to sweep you off your feet and make love to you like i should have done so long ago, but i’m still a scared kid who loves you too much and is too worried about perfection and things that have nothing to do with passion. i still want your toes to curl because of me and i want you to hold onto me so hard -- like you would fall if you let go. i want to rise up bigger and better than you are to me. show you that there is something for you here...with me. i want to be the more experienced, sexier girl who can take you and leave your head spinning. and not just from something that i’ve said. i want to not be worried. i want to be confident. i want to be a girl who can pick you up and fuck you on a table...or on a washing machine...or up against a wall if i want to. sometimes i think i can do all of this, and maybe my body can do your body good, but then i scare myself out of it. i turn into a real good kisser. that’s all. maybe not even that. i don’t know... all i want is to touch you right. make you see the amazing me that i see when i think about what i’d like to do to you. - me