June 23, 1861
My dearest Kid,
You've only been gone for an hour, and already I miss you more than I ever thought possible. I know I won't be able to send any letters until I hear from you and know where to send them, but I just had to write down what I'm feeling right now.
I know that last night you really didn't want to talk about what we went through the last few days, but there are some things I need to say. Kid, I am so sorry that I didn't' give you a chance to explain, that I didn't even try to understand. Thank you so much for coming into the barn yesterday and forcing me to talk to you, to yell at you, to listen to you. I don't know what I would have done if you had left with things so bad between us...I don't even want to imagine it.
My love, I haven't told you yet how so incredibly happy you have made me. These past two months since our wedding have been the best of my life. In the two years since we met you have shown me what true love should be. You were there for me through so much...when my father died, when my past caught up with me, even when I turned down your proposals. Through everything you were always there supporting me, listening to me, driving me crazy by worrying about me. But now, now I know. I understand your worry. Because I'm worrying about you right now. The person I love more than the world, the person I could not live without is going into danger. And that makes me worry.
You should see me right now Kid; crying my eyes out as I pour my heart out in this letter. If you don't get anything else out of my ramblings, always remember this: I love you. Isn't it funny how those three small, simple words can say so much? I love you. These words hold everything I'm trying to say in this letter: all the feelings, regrets, worries, memories all mixed together in my heart. They are my life; YOU are my life.
I love you, dearest of my heart.
Until we meet again,
Lou
