This is really getting into the inner workings of my mind. This is my poetry. It has been inspired mainly by
those close to me.
Crystal prison
Dazzling and bright
Yet dark and deep
My crystal prison
Is where I sleep
Warm bright colors
Turn murky and arcane
My crystal prison
Drives me insane
Indigo and violet
Become crimson and black
From my crystal prison
I cannot come back
I’m trapped inside
And there’s no way out
In my crystal prison
I’m forced to shout
But no one can hear me
So I’m trapped in this place
My crystal prison
I must face
Questioning
Why do I care so much
The more you push me away
You try to hide your pain
But I see it every day
You make me want to hug you
You make me want to cry
You make me want to love you
But I dare not try
I’m scared of how I feel
And what it will do to you
I don’t want to think its real
For I don’t know what it will do
So for now I hide it away
In a bottle where it will stay
Until I hear it from your lips
I will wait for that day
All I can give is bits and pieces
And let you know I’m there
That’s the way it has to be
I can’t show you how much I care
Xtasy
I want to loose myself
In the sea of your eyes
In the warmth of your embrace
In the lock of your soft lips
In the ecstasy of your touch
You are a drug
You feel so good
Yet are so bad for me
And I am addicted
I cannot break free
I need you more and more each day
Craving the tenderness of your body
The passion of your words
The compassion of your smile
I am addicted to you
But I won’t let you go
I will hold on
Till my addiction is through with me
A Tribute
I hope you're happy there in heaven,
And all your dreams have come true.
Because I am on my way to hell,
Without ever seeing you.
I'm sorry I have failed you,
But I loved you all the same.
This life is a competition,
And I have lost the game.
So be happy there in heaven,
And have a smile on your face.
Your love spread to all,
And let
others feel your grace.
Perfection
We strive towards perfection
Every minute, every hour
It becomes an obsession
and it seems to give us power
We try to achieve it
Somehow, someway
But in the end we will regret it
When comes that final day
We don't realize how much we miss
When comes that final day
We ask did it come to this
While in a hospital bed we lay
We realize our hopes and dreams are gone
As we lie awake in pain
They flew away like a swan
Only memories remain
We realize it was a mistake
To live our life this way
Anorexia was not the path to take
And now that's hard to say
So don't do what I did
And throw your life away
For I was a girl, only sixteen
And now in a grave I lay
But Before I part and say Adieu
These final words I say to you
Things are not always as they seem
Perfection can only be a dream
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You try to push us
Out the door
But slowly we creep in
You bottle us up
Don't let us go
One by one we stack
You throw us out the window
And try to lock us out
But through the cracks we return
You bottle us up
Don't let us go
One by one we stack
You try to throw us far away
But like a boomerang
We come back
You bottle us up
Don't let us go
One by one we stack
until that moment
Kaboom
You Blow
Don't bottle us up
Let us go
One by one you deal
Reflection
Mirror, mirror on the floor
You shattered when you hit the door
I cannot bear to see me
I do not like what I see
Mirror, mirror you showed all
Shattered pieces are on the wall
In myself I cannot see
What other people see in me
Mirror, mirror on the wall
I want the truth, please show me all
My true self I want to see
Who am I supposed to be
Forever
Forever I will love you
Forever I will care
Forever I will dream
'Cause forever you won't be there
