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zurück April '04: -- 29.04. I met my midwife today for the first time. She's great! Soooo nice, laughing a lot and very understanding. We talked for almost 2 hours about everything and anything - mainly about the pregnancy, birth etc. though. She is happy to let me have an 'unassisted' birth, but she will be in the house so that I can call her if I need her. She will give me some acupunture during the month before the birth to (hopefully) speed up the process slightly. I don't know if it is needed but I feel good about trying it out. :-) She said Ayla could attend the actual birth, too, if she feels okay with it. I like the idea - but I will see how we all feel about it at the actual time. Wouldn't it be great if Ayla could witness her brother or sister being born, and greet her and hold her in the first minutes of being out of the womb? I'm grateful that Marit is my midwife - especially because I had chosen a different one before (but she will be on holiday in August). Marit is definitely the right one!! :-) Apart from that we are enjoying the wonderful weather!!! -- 27.04. I've started to go running again. I can do about 3 km at the moment and I feel very good with it. I also do yoga regularly and belly-dancing. The baby is probably enjoying the swaying and rocking very much - I wonder if he/she will love to be carried in the sling as much as Ayla did... Raw food diet is coming back much better now since the weather is warmer. :-) It's doing me a lot of good and I love eating watermelon, pears, papaya and mango the most. I eat fruits mainly in the morning, though, and eat salads, wild herbs, nuts and veg in the afternoon. I'm so much into growing my own food right now! It's fun seeing it all grow. My courgette-plants look great and tomatoes and cucumber plants are just coming out of the soil. I've sown watercress, celery, root-veg, salad, and pees, too, and my Mum is going to get some more plants from the gardener. I want to try to grow melon, too, and maybe sweet peppers, but then we have to have a nice summer like last year's. :-) -- 21.04. There we are - back online. Since a long time I'm now starting to feel motivated again to work on my little projects. Although I have much less time than before, but maybe that's the reason why? Our little family is gaining a new member in August. Or rather he/she will come into this world around that time. So far the little one seems to enjoy the time in my belly and all in all he/she seems to be a calm baby. I think Ayla was lifelier - but then again I might be wrong. :-) The first three months were really tiring this time. I wasn't feeling sick, but totally exhausted and terribly hungry all the time. My 'healthy' diet went totally out of the window because I couldn't even look at a salad. Pizza, Chips, Cheese etc. were my favourites...all the things I don't usually eat. Strange, our bodies. After three months everything was normal again, though, and now I can eat my much loved salads and fruit as much as I want. I also encreased wild herbs in my diet, such as chickweed, nettle, daisies, comfrey, dandelion, etc. And I try to eat more organic. Hopefully our garden will grow lots of veg this year - that will save me a bit of money. :-) I haven't been to any pregnancy checks, yet, but once. Everything "important" was done at that time: blood, urine, ultrasound, etc. by the gynaecologist. I really had intended to enjoy this pregnancy without any medical intervention. I don't know why I ended up at the doctor's - probably to make clear to me how much I hate it and don't need it. That woman was totally insensitive and was constantly going on about risks and test and costs, so that I even started to feel guilty that I was pregnant!? So I decided to never go there anymore. I have contacted a midwife, who was recommended to me, today. But she wasn't in. I'm planning to have a home-birth again, if all goes well. Hopefully as unsassisted as possible. I have the feeling now that I probably want to be alone this time to be able to let myself flow with the experience. I can't relax when there is someone around - I know that from Ayla's birth. At that point it was okay for David and Simone to be around, but I couldn't let myself go. I was trying to control myself and was actually quite tense. I realize that now. :-) Apart from all that Ayla and I are busy in the garden, digging, sowing, picking (herbs), going for long walks, doing yoga at night, playing, singing, etc. etc. I just had a very good translating job, translating a web-site, and since February I am studying with the Open University. The course is great - very interesting and fun to do!! I'm glad that for once I made the right choice. :-) Ayla's Papa is hopefully coming to visit soon. He is greatly missed by both of us and we can't wait to see him in May (?). I'm sure that some day we will move closer together again, as we have a lot to offer to each other - as a family, as friends, as soul-mates. Who knows? :-) |
