Tuesday, June 28th
"This state is elevating as the hurt turns into
hating, Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again"
"The hurt inside is fading, this shit's gone way
to far, all this time I've been waiting, oh I cannot give anymore, for
what's inside is waking, you've taken everything and Oh, I cannot give
anymore"
- Here to Stay - Korn
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There's no real point to this part. It's just music lyrics that I
enjoyed and felt that I wanted to add them to my site with my
journal. Kind of expressing myself with lyrics as opposed to words,
cause it's sometimes easier.
Up in the
corner is I guess kind of I guess a quote that I feel particularly drawn
to at any point in time. It's quite possible that I won't update my
journal everyday, so it could be quite old, so I'll put the time and date
over it.
Below are just
other quotes from songs that I really enjoy. Sometimes the whole
song is actually posted.
Tuesday, June 28th:
Listening to Alanis' first cd, lots of good songs, thought I'd put down a few that feel apply to the way I feel at the moment.All I Really Want - Alanis Morrissette, I'm Not The Doctor - Alanis Morrissette, and Wake Up - Alanis Morrissette.
Friday, May 20th:
Just a couple songs that make me think of Kyle. Happy thoughts :-). Loving me for me - Christina Aguilera and More than a Woman - Aalyiah
Monday, May 9th:
Elsewhere - Sarah McLauchlan
Tuesday, April 19th:
Just a quick 2 songs that I've been listening to constantly for the past few days: Perfect Drug - Nine Inch Nails and Faceplant - VideoDrone
Friday, April 15th:
I made a new CD yesterday and have been listening mostly to only it
ever since. It's quite a strange mix of songs, but it reminds me of
dif. people. This is basically it:
|
 | 01- Smoke, the song in general reminds me of someone ;-) not telling
who. |
| 02- Since you've been gone, kinda reminds me of that same person. |
| 03- Passive, I just really like this song |
| 04- Numb, Had extra room and it's a good song, reminds me of good
times in Deep River, before I started seeing Ben. |
| 05- Brackish, Good song for when I'm pissed off, also kinda reminds
me of a friend I used to work with, Adam. |
| 06- Thug Love, Reminds me again of the times in Deep River before
Ben and I started seeing each other. |
| 07- It's Been A While, I made a link for this song a while ago, the
old link can be found here.
I still find the lyrics quite significant. "It's been a
while since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do! It's
been a while, but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with
you!" |
| 08- Loosing my Grip, same thing for this song, the old link is here.
I still find some of the lyrics very significant. "Right now I
feel invisible to you, like I'm not real" |
| 09- Can't get my head around you, Again, reminds me of someone
I'd rather not mention :-) |
| 10- Freak on a Leash, I love this song. One of my favorites by
Korn. |
| 11- Here to Stay, My absolute fav. song by Korn. |
| 12- No
Leaf Clover, story of my life... |
| 13- Impossible,
reminds of someone (different person than the first) |
| 14- Fallin',
same as 13 |
| 15- Why
do I feel so sad?, same as 13 and reminds of times in Deep River
after I broke up with Joel and started seeing Ben. |
| 16- Killing me Softly, I like this song |
| 17- White Flag, reminds me of a time in my life, not sure when
exactly when (time wise), I know it was in Deep River, just unsure if
I was seeing Ben at the time. |
| 18- Ex-girlfriend, I like this song and listened to it non-stop a
few days ago, so I figured I'd but it on the cd, :-) |
| 19- Le
Coeur au vif, reminds me of Kyle |
Wednesday, April 13th:
| "God send me an angel, from the heavens above, Cause all I
do, is cry, God send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes" -
Angel -
Amanda Perez
 | I've had this song in my head all night last
night and most of this morning. |
|
| "It's crowded and I feel lost in here, I'm trying to find a
familiar fear, I look everywhere but I just can't see, there's not
anything that reminds me of...me! Wayne..... wait for me!! -
Wayne -
Chantal Kreviazuk
| I've loved this song for so long! When I woke up
this morning, this is the song I had in my head. I like it
cause it kinda describes me. |
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Monday, March 30th:
Been doing a lot of thinking and a bit of reminiscing. Don't
really have specific parts of the songs that apply, just the songs in
general. Made me think of people.
| Ben - Deux
fois la même histoire - Eric Lapointe
| This song reminds me a lot of Ben because I used
to listen to it constantly before anything happened between he
& I. Listening to the song helped me not to be so upset
when things got a little rougher. |
|
| Kyle - Le
coeur au vif - Eric Lapointe
| This one, I find, was the perfect song to
describe both Kyle and I. We'd both just been through some
rough times and had very cynical points of view on life and
relationships. It's too bad he didn't understand french,
cause even though I did the best I could at translating it, it's
really hard to translate all the meanings from french to english.
(In my opinion french has much stronger words than english). |
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Thursday, March 24th:
| "I tired so hard to hate you, but it only makes it all
worse. I only end up hating myself. And as the hatred
grows, so do the lies, it's hard to face the truth sometimes God I
feel so useless!!!" - Stabbing
Westward - Sometimes it hurts
| I've been basically listening to this album all
day (darkest days). Unfortunately I can't post all the songs
although they are all awesome. There are however 2 others
that I should because some of the lyrics do describe how I
feel. Darkest Days and I'm not sure of the other one (too
lazy to go check lol). |
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Sunday, March 22nd:
I'm gonna have lots of quotes for today!! lol!! (bad day). They are
pretty much in order that I heard them today.
| "Why would you offer more? Why would you make it easier on
me?" - David Usher -
Black, Black Heart
| Listened to it on the bus going to school.
Became convinced to make it my msn name when I got back home, but
then I heard the other songs. |
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| "In the arms of the angel" - Sarah
McLachlan - Angel
| This whole song is basically my life. I've
listened to this song for many years. It's pretty much been
on almost every mp3 cd I have. I was listening to it today
in class when a memory all of sudden came to mind of one time
(about a year ago) when I was listening to this song with Ben and
I started crying and basically curled up to Ben and he just held
me. Phil walked in and went to his room. When the song
was done, he came back and commented on how "emotional"
(from lack of better term) it looked, the song playing and me
curled up in Ben's arms. I had to change the song cause I
got all chocked up and almost started crying in class, just
thinking about it now is making me cry :-( |
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| "It's been a while..." - Staind
- It's been a while
| I listened to this song all day. I think it
really fits me right now. It makes a lot of sense. |
|
| "Benjamin... oh... Where did you go?" - Benjamin
- Veruca Salt
| Another convenient song. Was listening to
random music today when this song started playing. Right
after "Angel". Made me wonder even more what went
wrong... |
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Sunday, March 20th:
| "I do not want.... I only need.... Everything I touch, I
break" -
Stabbing Westward - Everything I touch |
| "Je suis un saule inconsolable, mais qu'est-ce que ça peut-me
faire, l'amour la guerre? Je t'aime, je t'aime" -
Isabelle Boulay - Le saule
| I totally didn't know that saule meant a willow
tree lol! I like my version better... (I am an inconsolable
soul, what difference does it make to me, love or war? |
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Sunday, March 13th:
| "That's when I decided: why should I care? Cause you
don't care, so I don't care, and we're not going anywhere" -
Avril Lavigne, Losing my grip
| Yeah, the rest of the day, this song played till
around... probably2:30 am. Yeah, my roommates must really hate me.
lol! |
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| "God send me an angel, from
the heavens above (...) Cause all I do, is cry. God send me an
angel, to wipe the tears from my eyes."
| Been listening to this song on
repeat all morning, my roommates are probably getting really
annoyed. lol. |
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