Security Blanket
Been crying for 3 days,
Ate only enough to keep me living.
A bite or two here and there,
Cut myself 6 times to drown all my pain.
I feel like everything,
I've depended myself on,
These past 2 months,
haev been demolished.
Have almost been a waste.
Baby, I love you,
But how could you?
You're the closest to pure bliss,
I've ever had.
I would've died for you,
And still would.
You patched the holes in my lungs,
You kept me breathing,
You convinced me we were,
Everything toe eachother.
You kept me living.
Now,
I crawl under my covers,
Cry myself to sleep,
Hoping for everything to go away.
Or for God to just let me die.
I promised him I'd do better.
Make him proud.
If you and I could remain as one,
If all that happened was nothing,
I'd forgive and forget.
You mean more to me,
Then you could ever fathom.
You've done so much more,
Then anyon'es ever done for me.
And you know that.
All I ask is for my security blanket back.
Tell me you love me,
And mean it; no more games.
I'm not mad at you,
I need you,
I love you, baby.
*Melissa E. G. Juliana* 2/29/04
