Heheheh... I love this picture.. my babe is all thugged out.. lol.. who the hell knows why I like this picture.. *shrugs* Awww.. all thugged out.. AWWWWWWWW (the kid will probably be all ippity while reading this) AAWWWWWWWW! LOL. (imma get dropped like a bad habit.. lol)
Hmm.. what to say about Juan.. I guess I should start from the very beginning... We were three and enjoying a nice summer day in the park.... when I threw my ice cream at him. Ok, that didn't happen.. but ask Jeannie if I wasn't capable of such an act. Anyway.. I met the guy on the France and Spain trip.. (which every once in a while I refer to as the Italy trip.. don't mind me.. I'm slipping in my old age..)
Anyway... I hated his crew.. well.. almost everyone.. I liked Cynthia.. I liked Zeenat.. I liked Leslie.. but everyone else I greatly disliked (I thought they didn't like me anyway.. this matter is open to debate) Anyway.. I don't think I even really liked Juan.. all I did notice was that he was only person who would ever wave at me. (Which I guess means he didn't hate me.. ) Anyway... thats the only thing I remember of him on the trip really.. (He says he tried to get me to dance.. and we talked the last night in Spain.. I don't remember.. to busy filming I guess.)
Well, like all trips.. it came time to come back home.
I look at my return trip ticket and *gasp* I'm not sitting next to Mario. I'm not sitting next to Shyam. (Our lil crew was going to be broken up! THE HORROR!) I would be sitting in back of Eddie (La pesina boy) though. Then I heard it.. I was sitting next to that horrid girl Jennifer. UGH!! I was getting ready to trade seats or something.. anyway.. I get to my seat.. (wishing that someone will start with me in order to convince Jennifer to trade seats with Mario...) when who do I see.. Juan. He asks, "Oh are you sitting here.." and I'm like.. "Yeah.. looks like I'm sitting next to you."
I figured it wouldn't be soo bad sitting next to Juan. I figured the kid was ok. Anyway...
Well.. a good part of the trip went on.. we didn't really say a word to each other.. so ... I decides to listen to a lil of the blink 182.. Dumpweed is just begining when my tunes go off... I turn with my look (you know that crazied look i get.. ) and I see Juan with my headphone jack. (LoL.. I'm all.. I'm going to kill this jerk) when.. he plugs the jack into his mini disc player and guess what he's listening to.. Blink 182.. Good ol' Enema of the State.. song.. Dumpweed.
Well... to say the least.. that was cool. VERY cool! I was impressed.. very impressed.. smitten I should say.
I drew Pablo into his palm pilot.. (hes still there.. good to know Pablo lives on in electric appliances not actually owned by me!)
Ok.. so I told Juan all about Pablo.. and gave him my website. Well.. that nite.. after I got all settled in at home.. I decided to check my email. Who should i have a email from than Juan.. congratulating me on my website (and no one loves praise more than this egotistical girl)
anyway.. we got to talking on the phone and everything.. really liked the guy.. more than i ever liked anyone.. and i got scared. I remember this one night.. we were talking on the phone to real late... and I remember hating him.. just b/c I liked him.. and wishing that'd he hang up.. and I kept telling him that i had to go.. but he'd come up with something to say. And before i knew it the phone went dead. And I remember feeling happy. Climbing into bed.. and the phone rings.. I know who it is.. (but fear of my mom yelling at me) I answered it.. "WHAT!" "Sorry.. I was just calling to tell you that my phone disconnected." "Well, I'm tired.. i want to go to sleep." "Didn't you wat to know what happened..." "No. Don't call back.." And well.. he didn't. Which.. I regretted.. a lot.
We talked a few times after that.. but not much. And I remember liking him.. and getting over him.. but liking him again whenever his sn popped up on my buddy list. LOL.
Then there was the day that Kelly helped me scout locations.. we were sitting in his kitchen. Just talking. I mentioned.. "Well.. I know a lot about infactuations.. " and Kelly just says "Oh you and Juan. OOOHHH! Didn't think I knew.." So.. I think I turned 5 different shades of red... and Kelly says, "Well, Juan still likes you.. he gets all excited when i mention your name." So.. I asked Kelly to bring Juan along to my film shoot.. which took place in Kelly's room. (I figure.. well.. maybe I can talk to Juan.. )
Anyway... Kelly brings him... and well.. I guess it was like the kick in the butt saying "yo! you still like him.." And well.. I thought knew he knew I liked him.. which led into the...
AMANDA'S PISSED AT JUAN STAGE.
See the way I see it... I like him.. he likes me.. then whats the big problem.. I made the first move the last time.. he should make the first move this time.. I asked him if he wanted to see Amelie together.. but no go.. So.. I had an epiphany.. Why am I just sitting around waiting for Juan.. So.. I got over him
Well.. then came the day when he invited me to go see Amelie... I said yes.. I did want to see the movie.. I didn't like him anymore.. but I didn't want to loose the friendship..
so it came time to go see Amelie.. and the usual Juan trick.. called a few minutes before and cancelled. Well.. after being ditched one too many times.. I decided.. I didn't even want to be friends with him anymore.
Well.. one day I get an Im from the guy.. saying he wanted to hang out. Well.. I wanted to get out of the house.. so i said ok.. I stayed quite pretty much the entire we were hanging out.. i kept thinking how much i hated him.. and such.. (we weren't going to hang out for long anyway..he had a party to go to) anyway... he bought up the magic topic.. Kevin Smith.. who am I not to talk about him.. but by then.. it was time for him to go.. so.. we hoped back into his car.. I was going home.. he was going to a party.
When he suggested we go see Amelie.. (Well.. I was having fun.. and I wasn't hating him *that* much..) so we checked if they were showing it.. they weren't so we went to Wendy's and talked .. for a long time.
When I got dropped off at home.. I could only think one thing "F*ck! I like him...."
well.. I remember I signed online to tell tim (in hopes that he'll talk some sense into me) when I meet Juan online. And I broke.. I told him that well.. I still liked him. Feelings were mutual.
Before I knew it we were talking on the phone again.. hanging out.
Before I realized that was happening.. we were dating...
And before I realized we were dating.. we got to our one month..
Weird huh? Anyway.. I don't gotta really say that I'm crazy about the guy... and I like him a lot... but I worry about us.. a lot. I guess a lot more recently since nothings been going right for me lately.. figure this is gonna crash and burn in a few days like everything else is.
I'll miss him incredibly if that happens.. I've gotten so close to him these past few weeks.. that I'd say I'd rank him in my top closest friends.. close to where Tim is. (look.. I start one thing w/o straying onto the topic of Tim..)
I'll miss his company.. when he leaves for the Marines.. I'll be, like, the biggest mess since.. like.. now.... LoL. Something to look foward to .. I guess.
Anyway.. despite all the early crap between us.. I still can't figure out why I kept liking him.. or my luck on how I ended up dating him.. dunno really... Amanda just lucky I guess. Either way.. I'm glad it happened... whew.. I'm absolutely crazy about the guy.. I mean who else would i go to a prom with and wear a dress.
but i still don't do skirts. they just ain't my style. Especially red ones.
:O)
Did I mention he actually said, "Amanda.. I don't what type of clothes you wear.." LOOKIE! I got me a guy who doesn't care that I wear t-shirts and Jeans!! WOOO! Heheheheheh.
