March 20, 2002
Jive man 2: Mnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Flight attendent: Can I get you something?
Jive man 2: S'mo fo butter layin' to the bone. Jackin' me up.
Tightly.
Flight attendent: I'm sorry I don't understand.
Jive man 1: Cutty say he cant hang.
Woman: Oh stewardess, I speak jive.
Flight attendent: Ohhhh, good.
Woman: He said that he's in great pain and he wants to know
if you can help him.
Flight attendent: Would you tell him to just relax and I'll be back as
soon as I can with some medicine.
Woman: Jus' hang loose blooood. She goonna catch up on the`
rebound a de medcide.
Jive man 2: What it is big mamma, my mamma didn't raise no dummy, I
dug her rap.
Woman: Cut me som' slac' jak! Chump don wan no help, chump
don git no help. Jive ass dude don got no brains
anyhow.
3/26/02
horoscope:
Friends: I have a hunch that there might besome jealousy in your life in March. Two of your friends could get in a raging battle-- over you! (I can see it now.. Tim vs Tim.. live at Madison Square Garden..Let's get ready to ruuuuuuummmmmbbbllleeeeeeee!) The more you make each of them feel important, the better it will be when the summer comes along.
Love: This March and April you've got a fantasy to make. Not a reality--well, not quite yet. It's time to plan an adventure, and it's time to plan a strategy for wowing the crush of the moment. (Oooohh.. it's like I'm making Lord of the Rings 2: The hot elfin guy who shagged me!) Do it early in spring and you'll be in the right frame of mind to make it happen in May.
Happy cinco de Mayo to my Mexican Peeps!!
Well, last night, my mom's friend Begonia decided we should all go to a Mexicn Resturant to celebrate. Yep, yep. And none of us are Mexican either.. but anyway..
(oh yeah, we went with Begonia's parents and their other friend, Lee.) Anyway, half way through dinner, Begonia says, "Theres this guy who keeps staring this way. But he's far too young." So, my mom and Lee look. I go to look but Begonia says, "Not you, you're too young to even be listening to us." Anyway.. my mom says, "Oh, he is cute." Well.. I had it.. I wanted to seethis cute young guy looking at our table. So, I lean foward to get a look at him. Same exact moment he looks up.. AYE CHIHUAHUA was this guy cute! Anyway. That's the end of that story. He was young, yes, but maybe a lil too old for me. I'm guessing he was 24, 25 maybe. But he was cute.
Why May will be better than April:
I get spring break.
Harry Potter comes out on DVD.
Blink Concert.
Atticus CD (speaking of Atticus, I wonder if I can get me another Atticus hat at the Blink Concert.)
My mom's b-day (Any excuse to eat b-day cake!)
Warm weather (any excuse to go to great adventure)
Ben Affleck's my lobster!! Karla said so.. So, now that we've got that cleared, time for me to find him. He should really know...
May 8
EXT. CONVIENCE STORE -- NIGHT
AMANDA, 19 and the strong (like bull) but not so silent type, leans against a tree. KARLA, 18 like Amanda only girlier, ties her shoes.
Got extra batteries?
No, why?
Expect the unexpected, that's why.
They stop at a gate and look around them. After a short while, they wedge themselves into a hole in the gate.
EXT. CAMPSITE -- NIGHT
VIC, 17 the youngest of the group but on this particular night he seems like the leader, stands waiting.
Patience is a virtue.
Patience is for a hunter on a Safari-
Well, that's what we're on, right? A hunt.
Beauty's in the eye of the beholder.
Why so poetic today, Vic?
Vic glares at Amanda for a moment. A smile comes to Amanda's face and Vic smiles back.
We should get going. We're late.
(grabbing another bookbag)
Oh, really, Ms. Runs-on-her-own-time-schedule, Vic and I hadn't noticed.
Actually, I was about to start making some tea. Amanda, would you like sugar?
Ooh, yes, I would like sugar.
Karla sighs and grabs another bookbag as well.
EXT. PARK -- NIGHT
The three walk in silence. Karla stops walking and slumps to the ground. Amanda stops and turns to look at her. She opens her bookbag and throws a water at her.
Must you throw everything?
I think it adds to my charm.
Karla looks up at Amanda and throws the water back.
Where's Vic?
What? VIC! Damnit. I saw this movie, I didn't like it.
Karla gets up and looks around. She paces back and forth. Amanda takes off the backpacks and watches Karla.
Vic! VIC! VIC!
What a shocker, silence.
VIC! VIC!
Karla walks father from Amanda and paces around. Amanda shakes her head and looks at the ground. A large black thing tackles her to the ground.
VIC!
(turning around)
Amanda.....
Karla stands still for a few moments then begins to run. She just runs, not caring where, just as long as she gets away quickly. She stops running, out of breath and begins to look around for a way out. Amanda stumbles into Karla. By the looks of it, she too, was running at full speed.
I thought....
Amanda stands dishevled and out of breath.
More lives than the Energizer Bunny.
I can't believe you left me...
Karla falls to the ground with a large thud. The large black thing stands with a stick. Amanda tries to move to run but the creature anticipates her movement. She tries the other way.. but the creature follows. Amanda stands still.. then with a surge of energy runs full speed into the creature. She bounces up quickly and begins to run away. She stops short and turns around. Karla lies on the ground, motionless. Amanda begins to start to run again but doesn't. The creature stands close to Amanda and raises the stick. TIM, 19 slouched in a chair and drinking from a mug, stands up and walks to the creature.
CUT! Amanda, do you call that acting. Who hired you?
I did. I'm the director. I yell "cut", Tim.
Look, all I see from sitting back there is flat acting. I can get more emotion from a can of tomato sauce. And Karla.. you call that a death fall. And if you think I find a twig menacing.. you got another thing coming... and where's Vic.. is he the supposed killer.. what kind of script is this.. CUT! Cut I say......
HEY! I'm the director....
Fin.
June 2
Win, Lose, or Draw: The Alan Thicke Story
Cast:
Renald Shmee....... Tim
Alan Thicke........ Vic
Debbie (1st wife).. Christina
Marcia (2nd wife).. Munira
Shashushishasababayababa (3rd wife)
.. Aditya
The Cook........... Karen
The House Keeper... John
The Butler......... Mike
The kids
Frank.............. Mario
Betty.............. Mary
Alan Jr............ Kevin
Bertha............. Carmina
Joe................ Sam
Ok.. what will basically happen.. is that we'll all improvise a mockumentary. The "tragic" life and death of Alan Thicke. Purely for fun. Email me if you are interested. I'll post more. but this is it for now.
By the way, I'm thinking I'll shoot it like E! True Hollywood Story and Citizen Cane. And remembre. This is just for fun people.. lol.. let's not get sued. LoL.
6/19/02
Well... lots has happened since I really mentioned anything about me. Vic's going to the Marines... he's leaving this Monday (he was supposed to leave July 9th.. but decided to change it.. ) WHICH SUCKS MAJOR BALLS! I'm loosing one of my best friends.. (I'm loosing most of my best friends)I don't know why he decided to go earlier... he said its what he wants to do (I'm thinking its so he can occupy himself faster and not think about Karla)
Karla.. well.. she's a whole 'nother different animal.. I don't know if shes coming or going really..
Mario and I have been hanging out.. I really missed him.. we've had fun.. feels like the old days. Really.. I mean it feels like we were always friends.
Tim and me.. still friends.. God bless 'im.. I'm glad we're still friends.
I've recently started hanging out with Juan (slick) GREAT GUY! Really! I missed the guy!! Great f*cking guy! LOL! REALLY! He did improv friday night.. best damn Gregory Hines impersonation I ever did see! (you should have seen him be Tony Hawk!!)
Oh yeah... did I mention I got me a bf? No... how funny.. I got a boyfriend. I do.. he's real too. (Although.. I got to admit the words my and boyfriend in the same sentence still wiggs me out.) The poor guy who actually would date me is Juan (yes the guy I liked since like how long?) Anyway.. yeah.. we've been going out for almost a month now. I guess that's all I gotta say about that for now.
well.. I'll try to post things up frequently.. just.. I'm filming on the 28th.. ya know..
6/24/02
Met with an actor today.. not Harry. I wish I could find Harry! (Why couldn't Art be in my film!!)
I figured out that I am the target of some sort of vengeful movie god. My actors couldn't make it.. crew bailing..
What's with the bad karma.. oh i see.. something good happens in my life and the rest has to suck. Everything can't all be good. I need some misery.
But.. on to the good thing.. today was the one month aniversary. Yep yep. I know this is the longest relationship I've ever had.
Wow.. I keep suspecting this be some long dream.. I'm actually dead asleep on the flight from Spain to the US. That's it.. yeah
A month. Wow. That's crazy. 'specially for the girl who was single for 19 years.
Anyway... it's going well.. so you know... but i wish I could have spent more of the day with him (Perhaps I should steal him one night from Target??) what can I say.. I'm crazy about the guy. guess thats all I have to say for now.. oh yeah.. I'm karma's bitch.. and I gotta sacrifice a lamb to the film gods to make 'em happy. Enjoy the weather.
6/25/02
Hey! Today I saw my first actual celebrity. (Not like that guy from Freaks and Geeks and Undeclared) I saw.. get ready for this... Morgan Freeman. Yes THE Morgan Freeman.
Just sitting in Union Square park! AMAZING! JUST F*CKING AMAZING! MORGAN FREEMAN. Wow. It's like the acting gods took pity on me b/c of the movie gods wrath. OH HOW COOL! Morgan Freeman.
On another note.. still no definite Harry. Nagra tapes difficult to get.. and my mother probably won't pay for film. Well.. atleast I've seen Morgan Freeman!!
7/2/02
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Well.. you guys.. interesting discovery well.. have you heard me mention the creep who hangs up when I pick up.. well.. not exactly after i pick up. Anyway.. I've gotten a recent string of weird messages.. like noises.. like mixed noises..... like odd sound bites.. like doors closng.. anyway.. I noticed something this time.. b/c i listened to all off the message... that freak used me saying "hello".. that f*cker has me taped saying "hello".. of course now i gotta kick the shit outta this f*cker..
On to more pleasant news KARLA'S B-DAY PARTY! JULY 27! Be there or be square!!
7/30
Well, lot's gone on since I last wrote. Hmm. Well, been on film shoots. I was on Renetta's shoot first. (Out in Long Island) let me tell you how much that commute sucked!! Plus she gave us a lot of crap on her set. Said whatever we put into her set.. she'd put into ours. (And yet she did nothing on Misa's shoot.. but more on that later)
I met this guy Mike on Renatta's shoot. he said he'd show my around Hofstra U.. says its good for film. (how cool is that.. ) This guy was sooo smart.. I like want to have his children! Anyway.. on to Misa's shoot...
Well, I was Misa's AD (take care of crew, take care of actors, make sure the director's happy, make sure shooting is on time)Anyway, she told me to talk to her actor (who is also 19) you know.. be nice. So, I'd always joke and say, "Is he cute."
Well, I met her actor (Sho)... wow... he was a total babe. I turn to Misa and I'm like.. he is cute! Well, I got to know the guy.. he's real cool. I got to liking him.. and he likes me.. (RELAX PEOPLE! I wouldn't cheat on Juan.. I think of Vic and what he went threw.. don't want to wish that on anyone else.. especially by my doing) Anyway, we decided to be friends (tomodaci)
I've hung out with Karla and like her less and less each day.. (i figure I shouldn't call her or anything before I just turn around and be like "f*ck you!")
Said goodbye to Mario. I MISS MY WADDLING FRIEND!! hes gone!!
:O(
I've been hanging out a lot with Slick. He's the man! Great kid!! Awesome...
I need to hang out more with Tim (oh we saw the Croc Hunter movie)
Um, I dyed my hair..
Um, I've hung out a bit with Juan. Don't see him that often.. maybe once a week if I'm lucky. Well... we did get to see Amelie... finally, I guess. Now he's gotta watch Chasing Amy and Gods and Monsters. (He's made me see Amelie and Vanilla Sky)
Oh yeah, I hung out with Angie and Swavek.. oh my cod! I missed those guys.. we're making plans to chill (go see devils tower... go to the beach...)
I'm worried about me and Juan... well.. not worried.... I think something is going on between him and cynthia... and while another girl would get jealous.... i think I'm going to step down...
Juan and me were friends (not even good friends at that) before we dated.. and I think him and Cyn could make a great couple. So... I'm thinking of cutting him loose..
Ok now.. don't start to think that I don't like him.. I do... but... I don't want to stand in the way between something far greater. So...
I guess when ever I see him I'll tell him. Would be wrong to break up with him on the phone... so... I dunno.. Friday maybe... well.. I do gotta go to edgewater tomorrow.. I guess i could tell him then.. or see him before he goes to work.
*sigh* I"m going to miss him.. but he'll be happier with her.. she seems far more normal than i do.
besides! first relationships shouldn't last more than three monthes.. and and.. i never really wanted him to be my first bf... and and.. well... I can't really handle a serious thing.. and and.. it's all or the best you see..
Well... that's all I guess for now..
8/22/02
I finally began filming my film today! YAY! Finally.. 2 monthes after I was supposed to film. Wow. Its great to know that I will finish soon.
Luis' film. I was his A.D. as well. That shoot was exhausting to say the least. Everything seemed to be going wrong! Far to much stress. Far too much crap.
Jake's shoot. The lil bastard made me continuity.. and gave us nite shoots.. I got a total of like 3 hours of sleep each day b/c of him and he didnt even show up to my film. Fucking A!
Aliah's shoot. I was the key grip. Turns out.. Aliah's dp(Mike.. er.. Mike from Renatta's shoot) he requested me to be the dp. In fact, he asked me to be on a paying shoot. (My mom says that he just wants to hit on me... ) YEAH RIGHT! We all know my luck with guys liking me..
Friends:
I got a letter from Mario.. he signed it "your best friend, Mario" Ohhhh.. (I tear up just thinking about it...) that made my year. The rest of this year could be a bomb... I could like loose a kidney and go blind and it would still be a good year b/c Mario said he was my best friend. That meant a lot to me...
I heard Vic got sick.. I'm soo worried about him. I just wish he was back in NB already.
Tim's leaving back to rutgers soon. I'm going to miss him a lot. Going to be really lonely without my best friend around.
haven't really talked to karla.
I've been talking to my actress, Heather, a lot. She reminds me a lot of me when I was 10. LoL. She said how she was proud to be a tomboy. (I was like damn straight) While she has all the wit and kick ass stuff I had at 10.. shes also got lil boyfriends running around. (Best of both worlds?) Shes really a cool lil kid..
I hung out with angie and swavek the other day. It was great! I had soo much fun. People I need to see more often.
I need a bf someone who I can watch movies with. play video games with. hang out with. All I want. Applications start today.
9/9/02
CLASSIFIEDS:
Novice director seeks credulous friends to be on movie set.
19 yr old seeks Harry Potter fan of same age.
Well, I promised to write on whats been up w/ me.
Light side of life.
I saw this lil boy pushing a stroller. Funny.. when you see lil kids doing stuff like that. Seems like the kid is walking of course. Almost into a pole. Woo. That looked like it hurt the lil one inside.
Ok. so I'm mean b/c I laughed. I only laughed b/c I saw it through the eyes of the kid in the stroller.
Baby's voice: Look at this lady here. Actaully letting my older bro push this here carriage. Is she insane? I'm seen how the boy drives them hot wheels. And she intrustes the safety of my well being in the hands of a 4 year old. I bet this shumuck can't see over the stroller. Lady. Don't smile at me like that! I got diaper rash and that pole over there is coming closer. Closer. Pole. Pole. Hey... kid back there. POLE. POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLE! UPPHH!
and then the mother screamed "FERNANDITO!"
It was the same day I saw Signs. Which I found incredibly funny as well. (go see it!)
More serious stuff:
I've been talking to Sho a bit more. He's cool. I guess I kinda like him. But I kinda like someone else. (This shumuck who probably only sees me as a friend) Then again. It's me. The girl who likes guys only not to go out with them.
I miss Mario.. I've gotted 5 letters from him. Gonna send him a Sopranos magazine.
I've written to Santos. And I told him to move on w/ his life and forget about Karla. I'm not a popular person anymore. (Was I ever really?)
I owe $310 to the school b/c my crew lost equipment on me. (fuckers)
Me and Juan. Broke up long ago. (yes! I'm ok! Why do people keep asking that??!!!??) Ok. So I miss him. Big deal. I came to a conclusion. My biggest worry, while dating him, was that I didn't like him half as much as he liked me. Now, it's that he doesn't miss me half as much as I miss him. I feel like I lost a friend.
I'm lonely w/o Tim, Mario, Sysol, or Vic. I got no friends left. Well, I do still have Misa. But she'l be moving to Japan soon. Then what. *shrugs*
Been editing w/ Misa. Know lots of Japanese now. I like learning japanese. It's fun.
Been playing lots of sims.
Taking a documentary class tomorrow. Time for Win, Loose, or Draw.
P.S.
I saw Spike Lee.. and get this... Spike Lee saw me! Ya see.. I was eating Japanese Ice Cream for the first (CHO OISHI!).. when I see this guy staring at me.. and I'm making a mess of myself.. and I keep wishing that this guy stop looking at me.. when I look up and think.. gee he kinda looks a lot like Spike Lee. So. I kinda give my lil smirk.. he gives a lil smirk back and keeps walking.. and all i can think is.. OH SHIT THAT WAS SPIKE LEE.. go... say something..but by then it was too late. *sigh* NEXT TIME!
I also did see a girl who.. how should I put this.. LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE ME! Up even to the fact that I got like no forehead! It was so wierd. B/c shes just like staring at me.. and I'm think what's this crazy lady looking at. THEN I realize we look exactly alike.. only I'm a bit bigger.. so I look away quickly and put my headphones on.. Eventually.. the N train came and I got on it.
I told Misa the story and she says, "Oh! You saw your dopleganger! In Japan that means you are going to die soon." So, I stop and I think about it and I turn to Misa.. "No way that girl was more evil than me. I was her dopleganger! She's gonna die soon!"
Well there you have it.. I filmed my film, I owe money, I'm single, I like 3 guys, I saw Spike Lee, and some innocent girl who has my face is gonna die soon.
9/16/02
Today is Yom Kipper as my teacher calls it. (then again I think he's a hottie.. so... ) He read Alan Thicke (the screenplay) and he loves it. Which is good for the ego. I suppose. I met Misa's family yesturday. Such awesome Japanese people. I spoke japanese to them too.
Hmm.. I miss Sho. Where has my cute tomodaci gone??
I been feeling kinda down recently.. don't know why.. (lies I know why.. )
Vic's back. I'm happy he's back. I missed my best friend. I'm glad he's no longer a Marine. Fuck the Marines.. Fuck.. fuck.. (HEY.. I got a cousin the Marines.. I can sing whatever I want... )
Uh.. let's see. I'm gonna hang out w/ Angie and Swavek and Santos on Wednesday, I think. Which will be really cool.
I did a lot of talking with Santos yesturday. He's changed. A lot. I don't know how yet. But he has.
Santos said that he told Jen and Hell what I told him.. and they suggested that we go out. No offense to my best friend, but never in my right mind could I date him. I'd be Karla squared. When I date.. it's like hunting. I'm out for blood. For some god forsaken reason. (Probably a direct result from loosing my dad at such a young age. I guess I figure if I put enough distance between me and the "boyfriend" that we could never get close.. just in case of the even that he breaks up with me before I dump his sorry ass. )
*sigh* I think Sho and Miguel should run for their lives before I con them into liking me. Sure, I seem harmless enough.. LIES.. LIES!! For their own safety.. they should stay away.
Well.. I gotta wash dishes.. I hate dishes...
9/17/02
I'd like to say, yo Juan.. what up kid! YO! WHAT THE DILLY YO! LoL. Slick you are the man.
I'd like to dedicate a song to you..
Shama shama hey shama shama. Shama shama ba deedee dai dai dai ah. Hey Shama shama ba deedee dai dai ah. Beedee dai dow dah eee. Sa see saa mao. (shama shama) Shama shama heeeey shama shama. Shama shama ba deedee dai dai dai ah. Hey shama shama ba deedee dai. Ba deedee dai dai ah. Ba deedee dai. (Hey shama shama. Hey shama shama. Shama shama ba deedee shama. hey hey. Ba deedee dai dai dai ah. ba deedee dai ah.) Ba dow dah ee. Sa see saa mao dee. Sa see saa mao dada. Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh (oh ho oh ho oh ho)
lol. If ever bored. Learn to sing indian music from Moulin Rouge.
10/04
Last night I went to go see 13 Ghosts (IN ILLUSION-O) with Misa, K-yan, Sei-san, Sho, and Slick. They had fun. Which is good. I'm glad they did. Boy, did Sho look good. Of course, the extent of our comunicating is only smiling and waving at each other. Well, whatever I guess. I had lots of fun. We ate at Gandolfos, Misa really likes their pizza. Hehehe. I realy like those guys. They are really nice. Funny too. Heheh.. they were soo into the movie. Especially Sei-san.
I had a funny dream the other night. It was with Santos, Swavek, and me.
We were going to htis movie theater. Which was like this club thing. And we were the 1st three people online. and the people beind us were getting all rowdy. This lady behind me pushes us. So, I turn around and I'm like listen lady don't push. Then this guy with a baby pushes us. And I'm like you know you can say excuse me. I know the kid's sick, but thats no excuse to be rude. So they guy was like, OH! You are only saying this b/c I'm arabic and september 11 this and that. So, I'm just like this guy is insane. So, I says, No way, I just told the lady behind me the same thing.
So, the movie ends and Swavek is driving. And we turn around and theres the guy shooting at us from this van. Me and Vic are like "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" and Swavek is just incredibly calm and says, "Only when we go out to a movie, do you we become targets of iternational assassins."
Which I thought was a pretty funny ending to the dream.
Last night I had a dream with Juan. I wonder what's up with that??
Well, whatever. I'm screening soon. WOOO! YAY!
10/14/02
Well, it's happened. My worst fear. My camera is missing. Gone.
The last time I fully recall seeing it was Monday. I did some filming on the weekend, my credits for "the White Room." On Monday morning, when I was going to go to school. I decided to take my camera out of my bookbag. I put it at the side of the stairs. (The ones leading into the living room) (I had the strangest urge to put it away in its place.. er.. correct place.. but thought nothing of it.. And went to school. I didn't get home on Monday til very late. Then I just went to sleep. On Tuesday, I went to school early again and didn't get back until about 9. On wednesday, (my mom was home) I went to school.. but I didn't get home that late. In which I spent the nite calling actors. (Telling them about my screening. It's Friday by the way. when I will be screening the white room only. Alan Thicke won't be shown.. b/c well.. obviously no camera.. no filming.. no film. )
Thursday I stayed home.. I needed to shoot a scene outside.. at my church.. thought it'd go well in the white room. (Now, I have a vague recollection of putting the camera on my hand and going to go upstairs.) But that memory can be from anytime I had my camera with me.
So, now, I'm cameraless. Its not in my room. WHICH is clean. And not downstairs. It sems to be totally gone. Vanished. It's like it sprouted legs and walked away.
Needless to say, I'm very distraught.. I miss my camera.. I feel empty. Like how I feel if i haven't seen a movie in a long time. I've seen plenty of films this weekend. And I just feel.. incomplete. I hope the camera is in my house.. that I didn't have a brain lapse and leave my camera in school. I know I couldn't have.. but.. I don't know anymore. Is there a god of lost film equipment I can pray or offer a scarifice to?
