Written
by Jess
Based on some situations originated by James Cameron.
When our eyes meet, it is across the span of
ages.
I know this woman. I have known her before.
The nanosecond between the lifting and the
falling of her lashes as she blinks, I glimpse a deluge of images that are
shocking in their clarity. There is her frightened face, not her own and yet
the one that houses her soul, huddling along a muddy embankment with tears in
her eyes. There is her courage, shining through as she bravely lifts her face
to the crowd of raucous onlookers and allows the noose to be slipped around her
neck, ignoring the taunts and accusations while she calmly awaits her
execution. There is her voice, low and sweet, as she sings to me while I lay
bleeding to death on a battlefield in her arms. There is her spirit, beautiful
and unquenchable, as she allows me to spin her around a dance floor in the
depths of a ship on a collision course with destiny.
Lifetimes, lifetimes that we've known each
other, felt each other, touched the other's lives in a way that no other could.
And countless more, where we did not chance to meet, where we were nothing more
than a ghost of a whisper in each other's dreams, to be forgotten with the
morning.
Names, faces, destinies...all varying and
none of it mattering now, none of it, other than the fact that we have found
each other once again.
The only difference is, this time I have
remembered what came before.
This face, the face before me now, has been
haunting my dreams since I was a child. I had always wondered who she was, and
why my subconscious felt the need to manifest her.
And now I know.
She blinks at me now, innocently enough
behind the wire frames of her glasses, and lifts the mug to her lips. I can see
the questions in her eyes. She wants to know why I am staring. She doesn't feel
threatened quite yet, seeing as this is a public place and we are at separate
tables. But she is edgy underneath my scrutiny.
I smile and offer a name, and after a moment
she gives me hers. It is a beautiful name and I tell her so. She responds with
a roll of her blue eyes, but I can tell that I've pleased her, if only a little
bit. Laugh lines crinkle around her eyes, and her mouth turns up at the
corners, a dimple appearing in one cheek.
I suddenly want to kiss her. I want to crush
her against me and devour her mouth until the need for oxygen overcomes our
need for each other. I want to tell her everything; I want every word to spill
out, ages and ages we've loved and lost each other. I want it to be different
this time, so very different.
She looks slightly wary now, as though she's
able to read my mind, and is wondering at the desperation layering my every
thought. She's so beautiful.
Every face, every time, she is always so
beautiful. Because she is mine. My soulmate. My other half.
Too bad we seem to be cursed.
Does meeting her in this life mean that
another tragedy awaits?
Have we met in lifetimes, loved in lifetimes,
without tragedy?
I don't know. I can't remember.
I take a deep breath. Time to step forward
and embrace our fate once more.
"I know you," I say.
She lifts her mug to her soft parted lips;
takes a sip and swallows. Her eyes, suddenly serious, gaze unblinking into
mine.
"Yes," she says. "You
do."
I feel a mixture of joy and confusion wash
over me. Maybe it's not like it sounds, maybe she just...
"I remember," she says quietly.
Of course. Of course.
I try to control the shaking of my hands.
Of course. If I can remember, why shouldn't
she?
"I've been waiting for you," she
says.
My mouth feels dry. For a moment I am
speechless. Finally, a word forces itself from my throat, barely above a
whisper. "Forever."
She gives a nod. She seems dry, almost
analytical, in the midst of such an unforgettable realization. But then, I have
always been the passionate one, haven't I?
Out of nowhere, long ago, steam-drenched
images filter through my head, of us, another us, loving each other in the
backseat of a Renault, her damp red curls clinging to her face and neck as she
pulls my head down for a long, breathless kiss...
Well. Maybe not.
Maybe we're both passionate.
She sets her mug carefully on the formica,
and stands, weaving around tables and chairs until she reaches my side. Instead
of sitting, she chooses to stand before me, gazing solemnly at my face, as
though searching for all the lives we've known before.
At last, she speaks.
"I don't want to lose you."
Again, I want to touch her, to kiss her--the
need is even stronger than before--but I know that now is not the time for
that.
"I don't want to lose you," she
repeats, her voice still low, but strong. "Not this time."
I take a breath, let it out slowly. "I can
make no assurances..." I begin hoarsely.
"I know. I know." Her voice is
mild, but her eyes spark with a multitude of emotions. "Neither can
I."
We stare at each other for a minute.
I have yet to touch her.
Do we curse each other with our love? It is
entirely possible. Tragedy seems to befall us whenever we meet. Death follows
revelation in short order. At least, that seems to be the trend.
For all I know, we could step out the door of
this cafe and get hit by a bus.
As though sensing the direction of my
thoughts, she gives a gentle shake of her head. "There's no way we can
know," she says, answering her own thought.
I reach out at last, taking her small, soft
hand in my own and squeezing it gently. "I guess," I say slowly,
"all we can do...is live."
A beat, and then the smile that splits her
face is brilliant and by far the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
At least in a hundred years.
"Do you trust me?" I ask, the words
speaking themselves. A last vestige of a past life, perhaps. One last remnant
from a love affair, in another time, cut tragically short.
Her hand tightens around mine, and she nods.
"I trust you."
When our eyes meet, it is across the span of
ages...
But now, as I stand and place a hand against
the small of her back, steering her out of the cafe...centuries past are
discarded, and it is only us.
Fate brought us together once again. I can
only pray that this time, we will remain.
The End.