APRIL IN ROME
Chapter Four
Rated NC-17 for Content
Gangs of Yesterday – Scene 43
CAMERAS—LIGHTS—ACTION ON ONE!
Inside a garishly furnished burgundy and gold
boudoir above a noisy tavern, Valor is still holding Cora near his heart and
slams the door shut with a dusty well-worn boot. The room is dimly lit from a
hurricane lamp and a huge elevated four poster sits majestically in the middle.
The windows are open and the outside brisk night wind blows a sheer lacy
curtain invitingly into their haven. This night’s street noise is subdued and
the only discernable sound is the slight strains of music coming from the player
piano below and the heavy breathing of two star-crossed lovers. Valor releases
Cora’s knees causing her to slowly glide down the length of his tall, masculine
frame. With her arms still locked around his neck, she tiptoes to place a
visibly shaking hand on his heaving chest and to hesitantly entangle her
slender fingers through his overly long blond hair at his nape.
Valor reaches for the ties of Cora’s flimsy
ivory overdress and it easily slips off her creamy shoulders where his lips
taste her velvety smooth skin. Cora releases the mass of thick copper hair held
captive by tortoise shell hair combs causing it to cascade down her back and
into his searching hands. Pushing her gently against the wall, Valor yanks his
faded shirt over his head exposing a finely muscled chest tapering down to a
flat taut stomach. Cora’s glittering eyes widen slightly as his work-roughened
hands seize the delicate silk cord of the lace corset divesting her from its
restraints. As it falls over her slender hips, he impatiently kicks it aside.
Instantly, he reaches for her temptingly exposed collarbone and continues to
trace a path downward to her shivering breasts.
The banked tremors begin anew in each of the
lovers as their smoldering eyes interlocked with mutual need and understanding.
Cora’s nipples visibly harden and Valor’s hands cup her full breasts to judge
the reaction to his demanding touch. No longer able to stand on their own
accord, her knees buckle and Cora emits a strangled breath. Valor’s nostrils
flare as his limpid gaze devours every curve and inch of her youthful alluring
body. He was on fire…and he couldn’t catch his ragged breath. He thought he
might actually pass out at any second from the exhilaration of it all . She was
so perfect, all his sexual fantasies were embodied in this beautiful creature
that was now at his mercy. The experience of it was so heady, so unreal. It was
impossible to try to decipher why he, Adam Valor, alias Jack Dawson, had been
so luckily blessed. His chest was heaving and the tremors easily matched those
of his partner. Capturing her moist, yielding lips, he slowly lowered their
bodies to the oversized bed. An intense atmosphere of exultation, expectation,
and fear permeated throughout the set.
Placing Cora on the rumpled cotton sheets he
bent down to hurriedly divest himself of his abbreviated garb and turns to her
expectant and nervous gaze. With his hands around the top of Cora’s under
garments he tugs them down pulling silk stockings and all. Dropping them on the
pine hardwood floor, Valor brings the sheet to his waist leaning down to place
soft sensual kisses along Cora’s ear, neck, and breasts. They both moan
together and he savagely ravages her willing mouth, slanting, twisting,
exploring the honeyed depths with his tongue. Closing her impassioned eyes,
Cora unevenly rasps, "Please…" while struggling hard to breath and
relax.
It all happened so fast that the next thing
the few select bystanders observed was voyeurism at its peak. A bloodcurdling
scream and a strangled groan was heard simultaneously. In the next millisecond,
Jack thickly grunted, "God damn!"
"CUT!"
Rose and Jack were jolted back to reality
fighting hard to catch an even breath. Rose pushed against Jack’s weight in
extreme agony, pain, and horror. My God, he had boldly taken her virginity in
one swift move that tore the very breath from her soul. Although, he had not
completed the act, he had partially rent her precious flesh and the damage had
been done. Filled with self-disgust, she had literally been branded a whore. She
was ruined, sullied, spoiled! And she knew without a doubt, this was all her
fault. Her reckless, impulsive abandon had finally caught up with her and
sealed her fate. She had stepped over the boundary of propriety for good this
time and she would have to pay its tremendous cost.
Stunned, Jack couldn’t believe what had just
transpired between them. His throbbing body refused to accept the fact that he,
a supposedly professional actor, had practically committed pornography on a
movie set! He had literally lost all control. He had in fact forgotten when he
stopped acting the part and started living it! Rose had drugged him with her
feminine sexuality—charmingly bewitched him with her heavenly body. Nothing
even remotely similar to this had ever happened to Jack Dawson!
But beyond that revolting fact, he was
completely bewildered and mortified that the girl he mistakenly believed was
knowledgeable in the art of love, was actually a blasted virgin! He silently
raged and savagely cursed. He had just committed an unforgivable cardinal sin
and he would be made to atone for it in the worst possible way. Jack had
coveted Rose from the first moment he had laid eyes on her and damn…he had
assumed the worst. It was so much easier to believe that she was a willing and eager
girl playing games with his libido! Yet tragically, he had been entirely off
base. She was a maiden and he had never been with an innocent before…never
wanted to be for that matter. They ensnared a man with their artless ardor and
wiles. Although every man might secretly desire to be his soul mate’s one and
only…but he, Jack Dawson, wasn’t in the market for a soul mate. He didn’t want
to need anyone and the word love had never truthfully entered into his
vocabulary. It frightened him that his worst possible fears were coming to
pass. God, he had to break free or be hopelessly trapped.
Martin Stefano was lost in tumultuous
thought. Once in a lifetime one saw the incredible magic of two entwined souls.
Jack and Rose maybe didn’t realize it yet, but it was more than just inborn
talent coming to the fore. These two young people were destined to be great.
Rose DiStefano could be the next century’s icon. Jack Dawson was already at the
brink, King of the Movie World, no less. Hell, he practically controlled his
glorious future as it was. With Rose, she could carry them both over the top to
perpetual stardom and fame. If they wanted it…if they nurtured it. God had
given them such a precious gift and he heartily suspected they had no idea how
fragile and delicate that was!
Shortly, Martin’s personal assistant rushed
to the director’s chair brusquely exclaiming, "Boss, you know there’s no
way in hell we can leave this scene in! Shit, it’ll give us at least a R and
possibly a X rating! Sorry, Boss, I just don’t think there was too much acting
going on here!"
"It stays, Mr. Bodine, and I don’t want
to hear anything else about it! This scene will not wind up on the editing room
floor! Is that in any way unclear?" Martin stoically commanded.
Reluctantly, shaking his shaggy bearded head,
Lewis Bodine grumbled something incoherent under his breath and stalked away
sulking.
Rose didn’t know how she got to her hotel
suite at the Grand Hotel de Russie. Everything was such a blur, so surreal. She
actually thought her body was in complete shock. Berating herself repeatedly
had only thrown her deeper into utter despair. She let out a strangled gasp
when she saw her reflection in the mirror. Did she appear different? Could
anyone else guess what she had now done? What would her family say if they
suspected? The image of her stricken father was too disturbing to imagine and
she solemnly entered the spacious bathroom to sink into a warm tub of scented
water to help sooth her troubled thoughts and tender body.
Finally, tears slipped from the corners of
her translucent green pools to fall like gentle raindrops into the tepid water.
Cupping the water into her hands, she tried to brace herself with the cool
water to snap her out of her suffering reverie. She couldn’t continue like
this…she had to accept what happened and make the most of it. Jack had wanted
her and she knew it; she had wanted him and he knew it. They had known it from
the very first; and the obvious had happened. It was just a matter of time.
Yet, incredibly their time had come in a mere two days and on a movie set of
all places! Rose had to face the inevitable; she couldn’t change fate. This had
happened for a reason…but what would she do when she saw him again?
"God help me…" she pitifully
pleaded.
Jack had been pacing furiously up and down
the outside hallway of his rooms. Several husky bodyguards were solemnly posted
at each end guarding their famous charge. They professionally averted their
gazes but it was quite obvious their employer was in a tiff! Cursing himself for
every foul deed he had ever done, Jack was harshly condemning himself for the
fool that he was. He had stared trouble straight in the face. He had went
looking for it and found it; throwing caution to the wind!
Slamming the hotel door, he furiously picked
up the phone and dialed his mother, the most calming force in this life.
"Dammit, she’s not there? No…sorry, just
tell her Jack called and I’ll get back to her some other time!" Nothing
was going right! Damn, damn, double damn, and hell. Oh great, just wait till
the tabloids get wind of this! I’ll never hear the end of it; never live it
down. Shit! They just won’t find out, that’s all! If I have to…oh hell, Dawson,
face it! You wanted her, you took her, you claimed her...did you satisfy that
curiosity? Your sexual cravings! Hell no! He had to get a grip on himself for
he couldn’t think straight. He was literally answering his own questions like a
madman.
Then out of nowhere, he began to realize just
how young she possibly might be. Twenty? He had a sickening feeling that the
answer to that loaded question was considerably younger. A flower in her youth
and at its peak and HE had plucked the Rose, literally. Damn, he felt like a
depraved pedophile!
Making up his overwrought mind, he came to
the conclusion that he had to try and make amends somehow. Try to alleviate
some of the gnawing guilt invading his every thought! Placing his slightly
shaking hand on the door, he knew he had to see her again at least one last
time.
Eventually, Rose left the sanctuary of her
bath and dressed for bed. Donning a scarlet jacquard silk chemise and robe, she
strode across the room combing her long copper tresses into some order.
Suddenly a soft rap sounded at her hotel door.
"It’s me, Jack. Can I talk to you a
second, Rose, please?" Jack anxiously awaited her response. Would she be
furious as he suspected and send him away after a well-deserved slap and a
cursing for the horrendous crime he had violated against her? All he could do
was wait and hold his breath.
The door slowly opened and Rose stepped aside
letting him enter. Jack’s heart soared yet the uncertainty of the situation
overshadowed all hope. She didn’t look like she would attack him. But one never
knew with Rose. She was so unpredictable most of the time; the next moment was
like a gamble…he suddenly realized he was extremely nervous. If he didn’t play
these next cards right…
Rose guiltily raised troubled green pools
expectantly into Jack’s tortured visage. Before he lost his nerve in an
earnest, sincere tone, he rushed, "I’ve come to apologize…to seek your
forgiveness if you will…I lost control…I’m so sorry, Rose! I know words are
inadequate but please give me a chance!"
Clearing her throat, Rose softly asked,
"Are you really sorry, Jack?"
"Of course!" Jack emphatically
replied practically begging with his haunted eyes for some sign of forgiveness
and solace.
"Do you truly regret what happened
between us today; what’s happened before?" she calmly questioned. Her eyes
glittered with unshed tears. Pleading with him for something that he didn’t
want to admit to her, at least right then.
And suddenly, it became as clear as a picture
to him. NO, he wasn’t sorry. His half-hearted apology was just an inane excuse
to see her again…a moral obligation of principle to try to correct the terrible
wrong he had committed against a young, vulnerable innocent. He wanted to ease
his guilty conscience, that’s all. But was he sorry? No, not really if he was
totally honest with them both. He was glad it had happened. There was no
possible way he possessed the will power to stop what had occurred. He wasn’t
that strong-willed and he wasn’t a martyr by a long shot. He should be
regretful, he concurred, but he understood at that precise moment that Rose
didn’t want him to be!
Taking a deep halting breath, he brushed her
finely boned cheek with his fingertips and rasped, "No, Rose, I have no
regrets."
"Then finish what you started. I want
you to be my first, my second…and my last!" Rose seductively murmured.
It was like someone had thrown ice cold water
in this face. He somehow gained some sense of the precarious dilemma they were
now in and accepted that he had to take charge of the perilous situation once
and for all. He was the mature, older person in this volatile malady. Someone
had to abort what was surely about to happen! It was up to him.
"Your Only, Rose? You have no idea what
you’re saying. Shit, how old are you anyway? You can’t possibly know what
you’re asking!"
Jack was afraid for the first time in his
life. He was afraid of claiming her, afraid of not claiming her! He didn’t know
what he wanted; what he should want. He waited her next response with abated
breath.
"I’m seventeen, Jack. Is that relevant?
Do I look like a child? You said that you had no regrets…were you lying just
now? Will you have regrets if you walk out that door?" Rose was not
finished just yet. Taking his hand in hers, she moved it to her aching breast
and softly implored, "Put your hands on me, Jack."
Throwing his head back and closing his
smoldering smoky eyes for a heartrending moment, he loudly exhaled and then all
restraints and barriers came crashing down around them. Rose untied her robe
and let it whisper to the floor. The thin straps holding the chemise to her
body slowly fell down her arms exposing herself for his starved perusal.
"God damn it all to hell!" Jack
savagely pushed her to the bed practically tearing every piece of clothing that
separated their love-starved bodies. He quickly moved above her and came down
before he could change his mind. Somewhere in the back of his mind, a warning
bell rang but he chose not to hear it because there was no turning back now.
Rose took a deep breath, squeezed her eyes
tightly and pressed her face against the base of Jack’s neck as she dug her
fingers into his shoulders. She ignored the initial unendurable pain and
concentrated on the budding pleasure. Jack held himself absolutely still. His
lips sought hers and played provocatively until she began to answer his
devouring mouth and cavorting tongue. Although not altogether unpleasant, the
tempered panic subsided somewhat and Rose felt Jack’s heartbeat inside her
body. Shortly, she caught the incredible building magic and let him take her
with him to the stars. They clung there for heart-stopping moments and flung
themselves over the edge in unrestrained ecstasy.
Jack cried out and she joined his cry. He had
given her his best and poured his life within her. They had never known
anything on earth to compare with this melding, becoming one flesh. They clung
together, savoring these precious moments of lying naked together. Each knew
nothing would ever be the same again. Rose sighed to her very soul. She had
never felt more safe, more secure, or loved in her whole life.
Rose smiled dreamily across the pillow into
Jack’s flaming azure eyes, suddenly sure in the knowledge that she had found
her one true soul mate. Closing her eyes, she almost immediately fell into a
deep peaceful slumber. Jack knew he had just possessed someone very rare. Here
was a girl, now a woman, to cherish and savor.
Totally sated for the moment, Jack pressed a
gentle kiss upon her brow and got up to light a cigarette. Red drops of blood
were scattered across the white sateen sheet like rubies. The effect upon him
was instant and marked. As he leaned against the window alcove overlooking the
Roman skyline, he pensively watched her sleep.
God, she was so angelic in repose, so
ethereal and so…very young. He had been with many beautiful women but had
always had enough sense to break it off after a few interludes. And he had
never regretted it. Could he do it now? The others before Rose were never
innocents; far from it! Yet this one…not even a high priced call girl could
have done what she had accomplished in such a short time. Damn, he was as
helpless as a kitten…he honestly wasn’t so sure he could turn away…could he
ever give her up? Could he endure this gnawing and growing passion she was
igniting, not only in his body but in his heart as well? This overwhelming
desire was quickly becoming a downright obsession.
Rebelliously, Jack’s subconscious began to
war with his heart. I’m just infatuated with a different, wonderful, astounding
girl—now a woman. Put a dozen of the most gorgeous red roses and one simple
white lily in a bunch and which draws more attention and awe? Still trying to
convince himself otherwise, he inwardly reflected. She’s just a lily among the
roses! As he argued with himself and tried to justify his tumultuous feelings,
Rose opened her dazzling jade pools and stared. They caressingly bore into his
scorching turquoise gaze and interlocked. Jack’s breathing halted, his heart
began painfully throbbing, and he felt his body harden.
"Is it ladylike, Mr. Dawson, to ask if
you’d take me to the stars again?" Rose shyly whispered.
Jack was trapped in a fantasy of pure magic.
His lips curved into a roguish slant and trancelike, he returned to make love
one more time before the sun rose to welcome the two lovers into a new day.
Both would never be the same. They would both carry the scars of this April
night in Rome for a lifetime.