WHAT DO THE STARS SAY?
Chapter Nine
It was early morning; Rose got up
from her bed and got dressed. She left the apartment without saying good-bye to
Ruth. Rick was at his job, so she didn’t have to deal with him.
There was a bridge in front of
the apartment building. It was over a lake. The lake wouldn’t kill her, but the
fall would. It was a long fall, and Rose knew it. She stepped over the railing
that was there to protect people from falling. She couldn’t see clearly. Tears
filled her eyes and made her vision blurry. Rose stood there for a moment,
thinking.
I’m sorry, Jack. My heart
isn’t strong enough. I know you told me to make each day count, but how can I
do that when I don’t have you? she thought, crying. She closed her eyes and was starting to let
go when she felt someone hug her from behind.
"Don’t do it! Please, don’t
do it!" the man cried.
Rose heard his voice and thought
she had completely lost her mind.
"It can’t be! You’re dead! Stop
it! Don’t play with me like this!" she cried.
She felt him put his face against
her neck, and she felt his tears falling, running down her neck.
"No, Rose. I’m not playing
with you. It’s me. It’s me! Don’t do this!"
"No! I can’t believe this.
It can’t be you, Jack! It can’t!"
"But it is me, Rose. If you
let go, you will take my heart with you. Please, open your eyes and look at me!
Look at me, and you will see that it is true!" Jack cried.
Rose turned around slowly,
holding onto his arms. She slowly opened her eyes, and the first thing she saw
was his blue eyes. It had started to rain, and the sky seemed to have listened
to her. She hugged him and started to cry even more. She buried her face in his
neck and wrapped her arms around him. He hugged her back, not wanting to let
her go; he also started to cry even more. They were both soaked, but they
didn’t care. The rain kept falling, and they kept crying. Rose hugged him
tighter, afraid of letting go. She was afraid that if she let go of him, this
would all be a dream and she would wake up.
Jack pulled her over the railing,
making sure she wouldn’t fall. He held her with all his might. Jack kissed her
forehead and closed his eyes.
"Oh, Rose, you don’t know
how much I have missed you!" he cried. "You are all I have thought
about all these painful years!"
"I can’t believe it’s really
you! I have prayed so much for this to be true. But I kept thinking you were
dead! They told me you were dead, and I realized I was such an idiot. I blamed
myself so many times. I’m so sorry for what I said that day!" she cried.
"No, Rose, don’t blame
yourself. I don’t even remember what you said that day," he said, lying;
of course he remembered what she had said. They were the most painful words
that he had ever heard, but he wanted to forget about them.
"All I have been thinking
about is finding you. I wanted to tell you that I wasn’t dead, that it was all
a misunderstanding. All I wanted was to see you again! All I thought about was
you. You were always on my mind!" he cried.
"Really, Jack? You thought
about me?" she asked, finally letting him go and looking at him.
"Yes, Rose. Come on. It’s
raining, and I don’t want you to get sick. Let me walk you to your
apartment," he said, and took her hand. He started to walk towards the apartment
building, but Rose stopped him.
"Wait, Jack! I don’t want go
back there right now. I don’t want to see my mom right now. Why don’t we go
somewhere else to get warm?" she asked.
He agreed, and took her to his
new apartment. It wasn’t the best apartment ever, but it was better than the
last one.
When they got there, Jack gave
her a towel so she could get dry. He started some tea. Rose sat at a table and
looked around. It was a small apartment, but she felt safe, knowing it belonged
to Jack. A bed was in the room. There was a small television in front of it. On
top of the television, there were a few pictures. She got up and walked towards
them. She picked one up. It was a picture of his mom and brother. The other one
was one of her and Jack making funny faces. She remembered where they had been
that day. It had been at the fair. She smiled when she remembered; it had been
one of the happiest days of her life.
Jack came in with two cups of tea
and gave one to Rose. He had a towel around his neck, but he had not changed
his wet clothes. Rose took the cup and sat at the table again. He sat on his
bed. The room was silent for a moment. They just looked at each other and took
sips of tea. Rose finally broke the silence.
"I remember that day,"
she said, pointing at the pictures. "I remember that your mom didn’t want
to take a picture, because she said she wasn’t pretty, and you convinced her by
telling her she was the most beautiful woman in the world. I took the picture
of you with her and your brother," Rose said, smiling.
"Yeah, I remember, too. It
was at the fair. I remember how we forced her to go. She didn’t want to go,
because she had not been to one for years and she said she was not that age
anymore. I miss her as much as I miss my brother," he said.
"I’m sorry, Jack. I’m sorry
for what happened to them. Life can be cruel and unfair," she said.
"Yeah, it can be. But it
also can be just, and it gives us a second chance."
"Yes. Maybe you’re
right," she said, and looked at him. It was silent again. She looked at
him and thought that he looked different. He looked manlier. He had some facial
hair and longer hair than before. Since his black, button-front shirt was tight
to his body because it was soaked, she realized that he wasn’t the same skinny
Jack. She smiled at him.
"What?" he asked.
"You just look very
different. The Army did do you some good. You aren’t scrawny little Jack
anymore," she said, laughing.
He laughed with her. "I got
that a lot when I got back to Rocksprings."
"You went back?"
"Yeah. I went to see my mom,
but they told me she had died. Then I was going to look for you, but they told
me you had moved to a big city. I really had no idea you had come here, I
swear, until I saw you yesterday," he said.
She looked down and realized he
knew she was engaged to Rick. She could tell by the look in his eyes.
"Rose, are you really going
to marry Rick?" he asked.
"I…it was something I
decided without thinking," she said.
"So, you don’t want to marry
him?"
"I really don’t know."
"How can you not know?"
"I just don’t!" she
shouted.
"Rose, do you love
him?"
"Why do you ask?"
"Why can’t you just answer
the question?" he asked, shouting back.
"Why are you being so rude?
I don’t have to answer you!" she said, and got up to leave.
"Wait, Rose. I’m sorry. I…I
don’t want us to fight. I just found you, and I don’t want to lose you,"
he said, getting close to her.
She stopped and leaned on the
door. He came closer.
"I don’t want to fight,
either, Jack. But I have to leave. It’s getting late," she said, getting
nervous as he got closer.
"It’s only four o’clock in
the afternoon," he said, looking at the clock.
"I know, but I didn’t tell
my mom where I was going, as you might imagine," she said.
"Don’t leave. Please,"
he begged, and his eyes said the same. "I have missed you so much. Just
stay a little longer and make this moment last a bit more. Please!"
She looked into his eyes. They
were beautiful. He got close to her face; she could feel his warm breath. He
got so close that she could feel his wet shirt touching her. He wasn’t scared
anymore. He wanted her, and he always had. He put his hand on her waist and
brought her closer. Rose didn’t fight back or push him away. She let him do
whatever he wanted.
He leaned closer to her lips and
kissed her, pushing her against the door. She kissed him back and wrapped her
arms around him. It was the most magical moment of her life. They kissed with
passion, Rose grabbing his hair as they kissed. He put his hand on her face as
his lips soothed hers. He pulled her up and started to kiss her neck. She loved
the way it felt. She wrapped her legs around his waist as he kissed her neck.
He went lower with his kisses, then came up again and kissed her lips. She
started to unbutton his shirt, feeling his muscles. Her body was begging for
his. Jack pulled her away from the door and took her to his bed. He finished
taking off his shirt and started to kiss her even more passionately. He took
her shirt off, unbuckled his belt, and unzipped his pants.
He kissed her neck and face. His
kisses made her feel like in heaven. She gave herself to him, body and soul.
Never had she thought of this happening. But he had dreamed of this all his
life. They made love as the night came and the rain fell. They became one, and
there was no turning back. They had waited years to see each other again, and
all their locked feelings were brought out that night.
Hours later, they had stopped.
She fell asleep in his arms, hearing his heartbeat; she lay her head on his
chest as she slept. He couldn’t sleep. He was afraid of closing his eyes and
losing her. If he fell asleep, he was afraid of missing her or losing her in
his dreams. He wanted to make this moment last forever. He smiled as he started
to run his fingers through her hair. He could feel her breath on his chest and
her breasts against his belly. He stared at the ceiling as he thought of how
long he had waited for this moment. He pulled her closer to his face and kissed
her forehead. She felt it and opened her eyes. She got off of him and lay close
to him. She closed her eyes again. Jack turned to look at her. He kissed her
and pulled the covers over her. After admiring her face for a moment, he got up
and sat at the edge of the bed. He started to put his clothes back on.
After he got dressed, he walked
to his window. He sat and looked at Rose; she looked so beautiful as she slept.
He looked at the time; it was now 9:30 PM. He looked out his window and looked
at the stars. Jack still loved to look at the stars. That had not changed about
him.
She finally woke up. He saw her
wake up and got close to her. She opened her eyes and looked at him.
"Rose, do you love me?"
he whispered in her ear.
"I…don’t know," she
said.
"We make love, and you still
don’t know if you love me? You give me your body and soul and you can’t tell me
if you love me?" he asked angrily, and walked back to the window. He
looked at the stars with angry eyes. Rose felt bad. She didn’t want to hurt
him, but she was afraid. She sat up and kept looking at him, but he wouldn’t
look at her.
"What do they say, Jack?
What do the stars say?" she asked.
He looked into her eyes, and for
a moment, he didn’t say anything.
"One day, I’ll tell
you," he finally said.
Rose’s eyes started to fill with
tears.