HERE AND NOW
Chapter Thirteen

New York, NY

Rose looked down at the city below, though there was no satisfied smile or any kind of happiness at the sight. The only thing she felt was relief. And maybe a bit of fatigue. It had been a bizarre few days.

Thanks to Molly Brown’s amazing organizational skills and sheer good luck, she and Jack had made it off the docks and were now residing in a small youth hostel that wasn’t too far from Carnegie Hall. The media, thankfully, had been kept well back from the docks so that the survivors wouldn’t have to go through more than they had already, though Rose didn’t remember ever seeing so many reporters and photographers in one place. Everything had been a blur as she’d gotten off the ship, and all she could really remember were people yelling questions and camera flashes. The press had all been kept behind special barriers that had been set up, and almost as soon as they finished walking down the gangplank and onto the docks, Rose had found a car waiting for her and Jack, so she had bundled them both in and sped away, praying that no one had noticed them.

Now, she and Jack were holing up in a youth hostel. Jack was sleeping, still recovering from the night of the sinking. Rose also felt exhausted, but she was too worried about her next move to rest properly.

In the morning, Rose planned to find a phone and call Information so she could check where her aunt was. She knew her aunt’s address, but Rose didn’t want to just rush over to Santa Monica when there was a good chance Jessica might not even live there anymore. So she’d phone and check first. If Jessica wasn’t there, maybe she had left a forwarding address. It was all she had to go on.

Rose also knew that she and Jack needed some more clothes, so she’d also go to the nearest thrift store the next day and see what she could find. While Molly had given her two thousand dollars, Rose knew that the money would be gone in a flash if she wasn’t careful, so she’d just buy a few essential items.

Rose still couldn’t get over how much Molly had done for her. She hated that she likely wouldn’t be able to pay Molly back the money, but at the same time she knew that without it, she and Jack would be in dire straits. This way, at least they had a temporary roof over their heads and a means to travel wherever they wanted.

Rose sat down in the chair that was near the window and looked around the room. It was small and in serious need of repair and redecoration, but she’d stayed in worse places. Anyway, hopefully they’d be out by the end of the week at the latest. With a yawn, Rose reluctantly laid her head down on the armrest and got some much needed rest.

*****

The next morning, leaving Jack to hide out in their room, Rose went down the street to Starbucks and bought two large cups of coffee and some little cakes, which she took back to the hostel.

"After this, I’ll go out again and get us some clothes," Rose told Jack as he eagerly wolfed down the cake and coffee. He sat on the bed, wearing his suit shirt and pants. They were all dirty and ruined from being in the water, but for now they were better than the vest and other pants Rose had gotten from the Carpathia donation box.

"I also want to get a newspaper. I heard someone in Starbucks saying the Post had printed a survivor list," Rose continued.

"You do know that Parker and Mandy probably won’t be on it?"

"They could be! Maybe they were picked up by a different boat, or we just didn’t see them, or…" Rose knew she was grasping at straws, but she still had a little hope. She swallowed. "I want to see if we’re listed, too. If we’re not, it means we’ve got away with all this. So far."

"What about when we get to your aunt’s? What if she recognizes me?" Jack asked.

"That could be a problem," admitted Rose. "But we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it."

*****

It was early afternoon when Rose went downstairs to the lobby of the hostel, where she knew there was a payphone. She took some change with her and went up to the reception desk.

"Excuse me; do you have a phone book or Yellow Pages or anything? And maybe a pen and a bit of paper?" Rose asked the young girl behind the desk.

"Yeah, sure," the gum-chewing girl replied, bending down and pulling out a phonebook from one of the shelves. She handed it to Rose. "Bring the book back when you’re done."

"Okay," Rose agreed. Taking the heavy book, Rose went over to the payphone. She opened the book and scanned the Bs, seeing that there were four pages of Burkes listed for North America and still many for Santa Monica alone. There were five J. Burkes in Santa Monica, and Rose knew the only option was to try all of them until she got her aunt.

She tried the first three, and none of them were Jessica. Two were men, and one was an elderly sounding lady called Jennifer. By the fourth attempt, Rose was getting desperate.

"Hello. I’m sorry to bother you, but does Jessica Burke live here?" Rose asked.

"I’m sorry. No. She did, but she left six months ago," the woman replied.

"Oh." Rose felt her heart begin to sink. "Did she leave a forwarding address?"

"I think she did," said the woman. "Hold on a moment and I’ll fetch it for you. Are you a relative?"

"I’m her niece," Rose answered, her disappointment instantly replaced by relief.

The other end of the line went silent, and Rose waited a few minutes before the woman returned. "Hello, dear. I have her address…ready?"

As the lady reeled off Jessica’s new address, Rose scribbled down the information and then thanked her and hung up. She handed the book back to the receptionist and then went upstairs again.

"I found her!" Rose said. "She doesn’t live in Santa Monica anymore; she’s in Cedar Rapids in Iowa now."

"Iowa? Hmm. Never been there," Jack said thoughtfully. "And it’s sure not the sort of place my family would ever go to."

"It seems safer than Santa Monica. In Santa Monica, there would’ve been a ridiculously high chance of our cover being blown before we’d barely gotten off the plane," Rose agreed.

"So, are you gonna call her?" Jack asked. "She should know we’re coming."

Rose shook her head. "I don’t usually like to be so rude, but with Jessica, I think it’s best if we just turn up. Any warning and she might turn us away. She still could, but I think the shock of an unexpected appearance from her niece might work to our advantage. I think we’re gonna have to get the train…our passports were lost in the sinking. Later on, I’ll see about getting some new IDs made up with your new name…"

"Rose, you can’t do that. That’s fraud! Do you know how many years we could get for that?" Jack was horrified at the suggestion.

"Unfortunately, if you want to keep playing dead, it’s a risk we’ll have to take. Unless you want to go back to your folks?"

"God, no!" Jack sighed. "This is the best way. But damn, we’d better not get caught. And do you even know where to go for fake IDs?"

"I’ll find out," said Rose, determined. "For now, though, clothes. I won’t be long…stay here, okay?"

"I knew this wouldn’t be fun, but I’m getting really bored of just me and these walls," moaned Jack.

"We’ll be out of here soon," Rose promised, crossing to the bed and taking his hand. "Until then, just hang in there. It’s not fun for me, either."

"Yeah, I know…don’t worry about me. I’ll be fine," Jack said. Rose kissed him before getting up and leaving the room.

*****

Rose spent quite a bit of time at the thrift store. Usually, when she’d had the money, she’d found shopping a pleasure, but not this time. She was too worried about the future and still suffering the effects of the sinking too much to enjoy herself at all.

She’d found some nice things for herself, though. A few pairs of jeans, a dress, a skirt and blouse, some tops, and a couple of pairs of shoes. She knew that along with whatever she bought for Jack, the items could come to a few hundred dollars, but it was okay. They needed this stuff.

It was harder shopping for Jack. There wasn’t as much choice for men as there was for women, but she did find him a few pairs of good pants, a couple of shirts, and some T-shirts. She also found one pair of sneakers and some other fancier shoes. She knew it wasn’t the sort of stuff he’d be used to dressing in, but that was the point. And for what it was, it was okay.

Rose took all of her items to the counter, where they were packed into bags for her as she paid. She thanked the cashier, then left, wanting to get back to Jack. She didn’t like leaving him on his own.

On the way back, she stopped off at a newsstand and bought a copy of the Post. Then she rushed back to the hostel as quickly as she could, desperately needing to read the survivors’ list. She still had a glimmer of hope for Mandy and Parker. Believing them dead just hurt too much.

Once back, she gave Jack his new clothes, which he didn’t seem to mind or protest against. He went to the hostel’s main bathroom to grab a much-needed shower, while Rose sat on the bed and opened the newspaper, bracing herself as she turned to the page with the passenger list. A list that wasn’t nearly as long as it should be. She scanned it. Three times she scanned it, and three times neither Amanda Phillips nor Parker DeWitt-Bukater’s names were there. She swallowed, not wanting to cry. Rose didn’t like crying. She then looked for her and Jack, and their names weren’t there, either. Then she turned the page, and there was a huge spread that made her heart turn.

Socialite Bachelor Jack DeWitt-Bukater and Sister Parker Missing; Both Feared Dead After Titanic Sinking

Accompanying the headline were recent pictures of Jack and Parker and the family, with a short blurb and a quote from George about how they hadn’t given up hope, and urging others who had missing loved ones to keep faith. For once, the quote sounded sincere. Maybe George Bukater was human after all.

"Find anything?" Jack asked as he came back from the shower, wrapped in a towel.

"They think you’re dead, and I’m not on the survivor list. So far, the plan’s working," Rose said.

"W-what about Parker?"

Rose felt more sadness. So Jack had been hoping…he’d been acting so sure since the sinking that Parker was dead, but he’d secretly been hoping himself all the time. Rose further fought the urge to cry and silently showed him the full page spread about him and his sister.

"Mandy?" Jack asked, though he sounded like he knew already.

"Gone." Rose did cry then, letting out a choked sob. She couldn’t hold it all in any longer and, tired of being the strong one, collapsed against Jack as she wallowed in her grief. Soon, Jack was crying, too, and together, they both mourned their losses.

Chapter Fourteen
Stories