NEW IMPRESSIONS
Chapter Twelve
MAY 28th, 2001
"Do you want one of these bags,
sir?" The employee behind the ornate glass counter held up a tiny black
gift bag, that had "Aura Jewelers" written in glossy lettering across
the front. Shaken into reality by his question, Jack opened his mouth to speak,
then looked down at the small blue velvet box in his hand. After a moment's
thought, he shook his head.
"No, no thank you though. I think I want
to be inconspicuous for a few more hours."
Jack smiled and simply slid the delicate ring
box into his suit pocket, checking to make sure it didn't show through the
lining. He let out a nervous chuckle and offered his hand to the tall attendant
who had been so kind. "Thank you so much." Jack glanced quickly at
his watch and reached for the receipt he was handed. If he didn't leave now,
there was absolutely no way he could make the ceremony on time.
"You're welcome, sir. We appreciate the
business." The man adjusted his wire-rimmed glasses and grinned, putting
his hands together. "And come back and let us know what she says. But with
that ring, I'm sure there's no way she would refuse."
He winked before returning to his work behind
the display cases.
Jack swallowed and felt his heart pounding
inside his chest like a loud set of drums. He nodded politely, his mouth dry,
and turned for the door. Suddenly he felt as if a huge knot had formed inside
his stomach, churning over and over. The warm air hit his face as he stepped
outside onto the narrow sidewalk. Jack squinted against the sun and shook his
head several times, trying to regain the calmness he had felt only a few hours
ago. When he woke up this morning, he had felt strong and sure, but now those feelings
were dissipating rapidly. Why in the world did someone have to make a comment
like that? He had never even considered that she would say no...and now that
thought was playing a game of Ping-Pong inside his head. Frustrated with
himself, Jack hurriedly jumped inside his car, determined to make it to Rose's
graduation on time.
It was a beautiful day for such a
celebration--he had to admit that at least. It was warm, especially in dress
clothes, but the sky was a crystal clear blue. The sun was bright, and a gentle
wind was rattling the trees that lined the streets of Berkeley. Jack squinted,
searching for the turnoff that would lead him to the University. He wasn't used
to this side of town, and he hadn't known it would take so long to get here. A colleague
had recommended this place to him, and they had certainly done a nice job of
re-sizing Rose's ring. But now he was running extremely late.
Jack bit his lip and pictured the ring that
was now resting safely inside his jacket. He knew without a doubt that Rose
would appreciate its beauty...after all, she had picked it out herself, even if
she wasn't aware of the fact. During their trip to Florence the previous
Thanksgiving, she had admired it at an enchanting little jewelry store on the
Via Tornabuoni, near their hotel. He could recall exactly the way she had
looked, on the ancient cobblestone street, her hair whipping behind her as she
stared at it with a smile on her face. Seeing her so happy, Jack had wished
that he could buy the entire store for her.
But he did purchase the ring, which was
silver, with a sprinkling of diamonds set around a deep-blue sapphire. Not
overdone or showy at all, but unique and elegant just like Rose herself.
Glancing in the rearview mirror, Jack tried
to compose himself. He had a speech planned...or at least a few special things
that he wanted tell Rose before he actually proposed. He'd spent nearly an hour
in front of the mirror in his bedroom this morning, practicing the carefully
mastered words that were stored in his mind. He just hoped that in the midst of
the commotion, he wouldn't forget any of it.
He positioned the air conditioning vents
right toward his face, trying to cool himself. But since his adrenaline was
racing, it really was a futile effort. The word "engagement" kept
flashing in his mind. Along with two others--"yes" and
"no". "Dawson, get a hold of yourself..." He whispered this
quietly to himself, slowing down as he reached the traffic that was moving at a
snail's pace through Sather Gate. Ruth, who had been in town since Saturday,
was already there. She had gone this morning with Rose, to take pictures and
help her with her cap and gown. Maybe once he was sitting with Ruth, and had
someone to talk to, this sudden anxiety would lessen. She was already aware of
the question he was going to ask Rose today, and so far she had been
surprisingly encouraging. It seemed she had become a completely different
person in the last year, from what he could tell at least. "We've all
changed for the better..." Jack leaned back against his seat, waiting
patiently in the long line of cars. Thinking back to the miraculous year that
had passed, he knew that both he and Rose had grown and evolved, and he liked
to think that was because of their devotion and strong commitment to each
other. As Editor in Chief of the Berkeleyan, Rose had excelled in both that
important position and in all of her classes.
Time had passed quickly, and just as Jack had
predicted, their relationship had thrived despite the hectic school year. They
still received the occasional glare on campus, but overall it seemed that most
everyone had grown accustomed to seeing them together.
Even Rose's two bumbling, gushing roommates
had long forgotten the initial shock at discovering that Rose was involved with
their art history professor. His classes had gone well also, and he had even
managed to enter a painting of his own in an art show near Los Angeles. Now as
Rose's four years at Berkeley were culminating into her graduation, there was
nothing for her to do but look to the future. A future that Jack hoped with all
of his might, included him. Rose was so full of fire and energy--had such a
promising career and life ahead of her. Some horrible, gnawing part of him
wondered if she really would agree to marry him. That thought was
frightening--for being with Rose and loving her was as natural and necessary as
taking each breath. There was no way he could live without her now, not without
her smile and her laughter.
The traffic began to spread out as he drove through
the main gate. He headed carefully to his staff parking space, grateful that he
didn't have to join the huge mass of cars that were battling for the precious
spots outside Haas Pavilion. Jack quickly reached beside him, carefully lifting
a bouquet of red roses from the seat. Their fresh, fragrant scent reminded him
of Rose, and he knew that she would love them. He hopped out of the car and
made sure it was locked, before starting toward the auditorium. He ran his hand
through his smooth, newly cut hair. He'd never had it this short before, and he
still felt a bit self-conscious about it, despite Rose's adamant approval.
Somehow he missed the loose locks that used to fall on his forehead, but he
knew it was time for a little change. Rose said that it made him look older and
wiser, and he hoped that she was right.
Jack walked briskly, until his step had taken
on a light jog. Gathered in the large courtyard were hundreds of proud
families, squirming children, and bustling faculty. The women's hats, which
seemed to be back in style these days, created dots of pastels against the lush
green of the lawn, and all of the men seemed uncomfortable in their suits and
ties.
Jack knew that Ruth would be saving him a
seat, and he relaxed slightly when he realized that he still had a few minutes
to find her. There was a muggy smell inside the marble lobby, with dozens of
people milling around aimlessly. He caught a glimpse of blue and gold around
one corner, where he knew the graduates themselves were lining up in their
formation. He smiled, imagining Rose in that group, knowing how excited she
must be right about now. Jack climbed the flight of stairs that took him to the
first section of seats available to the public. He knew that Ruth would be
close to the front, because she had gotten here so early. He scanned the crowd
before him, and sure enough, only two rows away from the banister, was Ruth
decked out in a mint green suit. She saw him in the same instant that he
spotted her, and she lifted a hand in the air, a broad smile on her face.
Ruth stood in her place, carefully setting
her camera bag on the floor beneath her chair.
She looked back to see Jack making his way to
her, adjusting his tie slightly with one hand as he walked. In his other were a
dozen roses, encompassed in white paper and ribbon.
He looked happy, she could see, but there was
something else in his eyes.
Something she never thought she would see on
Jack Dawson's face--and that was nervousness.
Any man would be anxious or out of sorts on
the day they were to propose, but Jack carried it off better than anyone else
would be able to. Like always, he was dressed sharply, this time in a crisp
gray suit and navy blue tie. His blond hair looked lighter than usual, probably
because he had just cut it, and the new short style made his face appear even
more striking, if that was possible. And his chin sported a small goatee,
obviously something he was experimenting with.
Ruth couldn't help but smile, her heart
pounding with immense pride as she thought of her daughter and Jack. Rose had
endured much in her short life, but she had triumphed as an intelligent and
beautiful young woman, who in just a few minutes would accept her degree and
head into the world. And now, she would be able to share her life with someone
Ruth held great admiration for. After the disastrous divorce she herself had
experienced, she had been reluctant to see her daughter enter into any serious
relationship.
Until Jack changed her outlook completely,
sweeping Rose off her feet with his gentle charm and endearing love. This
amazing young man, who had overcome horrible tragedy and grief in his own life,
now stood beside her. He looked around and smiled, letting out a sigh.
"So how are you holding up, Ruth?
Haven't cried too much yet I hope," Jack chuckled and tried to calm his
wild pulse. He studied Rose's refined mother, who had quite a thoughtful
expression on her face. Her hair was swirled into a loose bun, and the green that
she wore accented the color of her eyes, making her look younger than her
years. For just a moment, Jack wondered what it would have felt like to have
his own parents at his various graduations. Although no one could truly ever
replace them, he felt lucky to have Ruth in his life, filling somewhat of a
parental role. She treated him like no less than her own son now, and for that
he was grateful. Ruth allowed a soft laugh to escape her, and she rested her
hand on his arm, taking a deep breath.
"Not yet, Jack. But I'm glad you're
here. I think that maybe later is when I'll really lose it," Ruth lifted
her chin and watched the set of doors that the graduates were to appear from.
The stage was set in the center of the auditorium, several members of the faculty
seated nobly atop it. Potted plants and bright lights were everywhere, as well
as gold wall hangings with the school insignia on them. Today, only the college
of Liberal Arts would be graduating, the first of many ceremonies to take place
this weekend.
"Oh, you'll be fine," Jack smiled
warmly and draped his arm across her shoulder, giving Ruth a quick hug of
reassurance. "So how was Rose this morning. Pretty excited?"
Ruth nodded, taking her seat as she saw many
others around her doing so, and Jack followed suit. "Oh, yes. She called
me at the hotel very early this morning, just a total mess. I had to try my
best and calm her down. And then she said that she tried to call your house,
and there was no answer. So of course she was worried about that..." Ruth
looked a little exasperated, but there was a smile on her lips.
"I had to go by the jewelers...that's
why I'm running late." Jack lifted his eyebrows and grinned, "But of
course I couldn't tell her that."
Ruth nodded wisely and cupped her hand against
her mouth, as if she were afraid Rose would somehow hear her. "Do you have
the ring with you Jack?" She sat straight in her chair, watching him
expectantly.
"Yes, right here," he patted the
pocket of his jacket, where the tiny box was, "You'll see it later...I
hope on Rose's finger." Jack widened his eyes in a look of worry, and Ruth
immediately wished that she could give him some sign of encouragement.
"Don't worry, Jack," Ruth paused
and met his gaze, "It's been difficult for me...not being able to tell
her, I mean. Especially when I see that look in her eye. I'm pretty sure that
she knows to expect this. And I'm absolutely positive that she'll be
thrilled."
"Thank you, Ruth." Jack stared back
at this woman, who seemed to have taken a complete 180-degree turn from the one
he had met at the airport almost a year ago. He didn't see any of that rigid
pain in her eyes that he had recognized during their first encounter. Now, many
times he even saw a sparkle of excitement or fun in her face.
Rose was satisfied with the new relationship
she had with her once stressful mother, and Jack loved being in both of their
lives. Such a remarkable change in Ruth--from a lonely, almost angry woman, to
the relaxed and sentimental one beside him--was something he felt a huge part
of.
If Ruth Dewitt-Bukater could have such
confidence in him, why couldn't he have it for himself? With so much clouding
his head, he did not even notice when the long procession of royal blue started
through the door across the arena. He felt Ruth nudge him, and startled, he
immediately began scanning each person that appeared.
Strained chords of "Pomp and
Circumstance" grew louder and louder as the graduates filed in.
From this distance their faces blended
together, but both Ruth and Jack saw the telltale sheet of red curls at the
same moment. And in that instant, he felt his heart leap forward.
Soothed by the thought of Rose so close, Jack
found solace in watching her graceful moves as she found her seat among the
other students. He felt the smooth petals of the roses in his hands, and very
suddenly--things seemed too perfect, too wonderful, to think about anything but
her.
***********
Rose felt trapped inside the large crowd that
had formed on the floor of the auditorium.
Once the ceremony had ended, hundreds of
people had joined the new graduates, shouting, running, and taking pictures.
Flashes went off all around her, and Rose laughed, bringing a hand up to shield
her face. The heat of bodies crushed together and the stuffiness of her thick
robe flushed her cheeks and made it imperative to find her mother and Jack
immediately. But in this mess, that seemed almost impossible. She sighed,
pressing one palm to her face in an attempt to cool it, and searched the stands
as best as she could, narrowing her eyes as she scrutinized each row. Her
pounding heart made it difficult to concentrate, and she felt dizzy as she
spotted a bundle of bright red roses, that seemed to be floating toward her.
But that was crazy...wasn't it? She stood on her toes, lifting her chin to see
above the throng of people. Much to her relief, she could just make out a head
of blond hair coming toward her. "Jack!" Rose held her breath and
waved with one hand, shouting his name above the din of jubilant voices. She
pressed the leather-bound diploma to her chest and grinned, full of
anticipation, and before she quite knew what was happening, the bouquet was in
front of her. Jack's smiling face surfaced, and Ruth was not far behind, trying
to squeeze her way through.
"Rose!" Jack quickly threw his arms
around her, and Rose giggled as he lifted her feet from the ground and swung
her around several times, not so easy of a task considering the swarm of
people. Her arm went automatically around his shoulders, and when he set her
down, his words were loud and excited. "Congratulations! Rose, I'm so
proud of you...you look beautiful..." He pulled her tightly against him,
moving his lips to her ear.
In a soft whisper, he sent shivers down her
spine and her heart soaring, "I love you so much." Rose looked up at
him. His eyes were dancing with happiness and contentment.
She smiled and leaned in for a quick kiss,
just as Ruth appeared beside them.
"Rose, darling. It was just perfect. You
looked wonderful." Ruth's greeting was certainly more reserved, but her
gentle voice was sincere and a bit emotional. Rose tore herself from the depth
of Jack's eyes and reached to embrace her mother. "Thank you Mother. I'm
so glad you're here," Rose closed her eyes and reveled in this newfound
closeness she felt toward her mother. Leaning back, she drew her hand across
her forehead and tried to collect her thoughts. "So you could see me okay
from where you were sitting?"
Ruth shook her head affirmatively and pointed
out the seats that she and Jack had occupied. "Oh yes, dear. We had a good
view of everything, especially when you were on the stage." Ruth smiled
and gently took the degree from Rose's hands, opening it gingerly to read the
gold lettering.
Jack glanced at the roses in her hands, which
were now slightly smashed, and already wilting a little from the heat. He
placed one hand on Rose's back and motioned toward them, "I don't think
those things could handle all the excitement. They may be ruined," Jack
chuckled.
"That's okay. I still love them..."
Rose smiled and brought them to her nose, taking in their delicate scent.
"Thank you..." She leaned against him, relaxing in his arms and she
saw Ruth smiling tenderly at them. There were tears in the corner of her eyes,
but Rose knew that they were now out of joy and not sadness.
"We should get out of this horrible
crowd, Jack. Rose, do you mind if I take some more pictures? We need one of you
and Jack of course, and we should try and find someone to take one of all three
of us." Ruth spoke quickly, as if trying to hide the emotion in her voice.
Jack nodded and began to lead them toward the nearest exit. He heard Rose take
several deep breaths beside him.
"Rose, are you okay?" He pulled her
close as they walked, Ruth busy preparing her camera and replacing some film.
Rose glanced up at him, unable to control the
moisture in her eyes or the brilliant smile on her face. "I'm fine.
Just...so much is happening so fast. This is like a dream." She studied
his understanding face, admiring the wisdom and the strength there.
But if she wasn't mistaken, there was
something else in his crystalline eyes--something she couldn't quite put her
finger on. Rose swallowed and felt her mind literally whirling. She felt alive
today, finally touching the end product of her long four years of school.
She now had a degree in journalism, a job
this fall at a magazine based in San Francisco, and then of course there was
Jack. It seemed that indeed all of her dreams were becoming a reality.
He had already promised her forever more than
once, and now she could only wait for the question she was sure Jack would ask
soon. So far, though, he had given no indication that she should expect it.
"I know what you mean, believe me."
Jack rubbed his hand tenderly along her waist, using his other to quietly check
the pocket of his jacket, just to make sure the ring was still safe and sound.
He kissed her hair softly, trying to mask his rattling nerves.
Rose felt slightly confused by his response
and his strangely shaking hands, but she quickly dismissed those thoughts.
"I think over here by this tree is
good...Jack could you set these things down for me?"
Jack grinned down at Rose once more and then
went to help Ruth. The wind was blowing fiercely in their faces, and Rose
reached to swat some hair from her cheek.
Out of the corner of her eye, she spotted a
familiar head of unruly brown hair across the courtyard.
Seth was standing on the steps of the
Pavilion, about 100 feet away, talking to another faculty member. Rose bit her
lip, hoping that she could get his attention somehow. But a few seconds later,
his head turned and she could just make out a smile on his face as he noticed
her. Rose raised her chin and waved, watching as Seth cupped his hands around
his mouth.
"Rose! Congratulations!" He shouted
exuberantly from the distance at which he stood, and it seemed that the man he
was speaking with was a little taken aback. But Rose just shook her head, and
beaming, she mouthed a silent "thank you".
"What are you doing Rose?" Jack
appeared behind her, folding his arms around her waist.
"Oh, it's Seth," she pointed to
him, but he had turned around, and now his back faced them. "He's in good
spirits these days."
Jack nodded and watched his friend retreat
down the tree-lined pathway that led to the staff parking lot. Seth had been
through a lot this year, with his wife's pregnancy and the premature birth of
their child. For a few weeks there, it had been uncertain whether the little
boy would even make it, but now everything seemed to be fine.
"Yeah...he's happy."
Jack paused and took a deep breath, wanting
so much for he and Rose to share that same happiness, for the rest of their
lives. "He walked in the procession, didn't he?" Rose nodded,
"He did, but I couldn't see him from where I was seated. By the way...why
didn't you?"
Jack smiled, leaning in to kiss her cheek
softly, and shrugged his shoulders, "I could see you better from the
stands...I just wanted to experience it this way. And besides...we couldn't
have left Ruth all alone up there." Jack's eyes were twinkling, but his
mouth was twitching slightly, as if he wanted to say something more.
"I'm really glad she had you to sit
with," Rose spoke quietly, glancing at her mother, who was just finishing
focusing her complicated camera. "This morning, she seemed a little
depressed...or maybe that's not the right word. I think she's afraid that now
I'm going to move on...or have this completely new life that doesn't include
her anymore." Rose moved closer in Jack's arms, sighing.
"She knows that won't happen Rose...she
just needs some assurance that she has nothing to worry about. Don't think
about that though...this is your day." Jack leaned back to look at her and
winked, trying to lighten the mood. Rose laughed and brought her hand to his
face.
"I know...but seriously Jack...you've
helped her so much."
She smiled once more and turned around,
directing her voice to Ruth. "Are you ready focus yet?"
"Oh yes." Ruth looked up, motioning
with her head to the cypress tree that she had her lens angled toward.
"I'll get one of two of you first...just stand right there and I think I
can make it look perfect." Rose grabbed Jack's hand, leading him to the
place Ruth had specified. She noticed a newfound gleam in her mother's
eyes--she seemed content with that camera of hers, enjoying this very moment.
The old Ruth would probably have doled this job out to a professional
photographer, or at least not seemed so excited about such a task.
As Ruth was carefully instructing them how to
stand, Rose noticed Jack's hand go to the front pocket of his suit jacket
several times. When he saw her watching, he only offered one of his adorable
and innocent glances. Rose raised an eyebrow and smiled, feeling that somehow,
some way, today would be even more special than she had originally thought.
************
"Can you believe it?" Rose shook
her head in disbelief, watching as her mother made her way to the car on the
other side of the parking lot. Ruth climbed inside Rose's red Jeep, and in
seconds, she had vanished into the Saturday afternoon traffic.
"Not really. But she deserves to have a
life...right?" Jack draped his arm across Rose's shoulders and let out a
gentle laugh. He squinted in the bright sun and cleared his throat, thinking
back to the day's events. After posing for several pictures after the ceremony,
the three of them had headed to a late lunch at La Petit Cafe, a fancy little
restaurant that Rose adored. She had been cheerful and excited all through the
meal, describing the many details of the graduation from her point of
view--everything from the chaos backstage to the minute that her name had been
called. And Jack had been grateful for that. Between Rose's eager explanations
and Ruth's string of questions, he had not been forced to say much at all.
Which gave him time to prepare himself
mentally for what was to come. And then Ruth had surprised both he and Rose
with her sudden leave-taking. If he wasn't mistaken, Jack had seen her blush
slightly as she quickly mentioned meeting an old college friend for coffee.
"I wonder who he is...I hope she'll be
okay." Rose looked a little worried for a second, but once she saw Jack's
amused expression, she couldn't help but giggle.
"I think she can handle herself...and
who knows...maybe that's just what she needs." Jack grinned and began to
lead Rose from the sidewalk.
"What?" Rose looked up at him, her
eyebrows furrowing in confusion.
"A little romance?" Jack swallowed
and tried to maintain the carefree mood of the day, pulling Rose gently against
him as they strolled. He had thought his last comment would come off as a joke,
but Rose seemed to be seriously pondering the notion.
She pushed several red curls behind her ear
and nodded to herself.
"Maybe so...she's been so lonely for
years...but enough talk about that."
Rose glanced around her, noticing that they
were headed away from the busy street and toward a small alley that seemed to
lead to some sort of building. "Where are we going, Jack?"
Jack quickly blinked, trying to appease his
quickened pulse. The moment was getting closer and closer, and he couldn't
stall anymore. When he'd spotted the Strybing Botanical Garden so close to the
cafe where they'd eaten, it seemed like a great omen. It was the perfect place
to present Rose with the ring--among the fragrant flowers and the secluded
corners. He saw that Rose was looking at him curiously as he hesitated before
speaking. His hands were shaking again, and he tightened his grip on her, hoping
that somehow she would understand what was going on. "The...the garden
through there--I've only been once, but I thought you'd like it. We could just
spend a few minutes here..." He saw Rose's green eyes warming again, and
she leaned her head close to his chest.
"Mmm...that's fine." Rose
momentarily closed her eyes, lost in the serenity and the quiet around them. A
gentle breeze was lapping through the trees and in her hair, causing it to
bounce slightly against her neck. Warmth radiated from Jack, like always, and
she fit perfectly into the incline of his shoulder as they walked. "You
know what today is Rose, right?" Jack nudged her slightly, watching with
great affection as she lifted her head and lowered her eyes in a question. He
felt himself calming a bit, so close to Rose and her ever-present confidence.
"A year ago today..."
Jack waited expectantly for the date to
register in Rose's mind, and he could tell immediately just when it did. She
placed a hand over her mouth, and her eyes were dancing with recognition.
"Our first date..." She whispered
this softly, interrupted as Jack reached to open the metal gate that would lead
them to the garden. But then his arm was around her again, and he shook his
head affirmatively.
"Yep...hard to believe it's been a year,
huh?" Jack gently put his free hand to her cheek, tracing a line down her
jaw with his finger. Rose felt herself drawn into his magnetic eyes, as she
heard the soft voice he used only with her. His delicate touch sent her heart
racing and made her knees weak, even after a year together.
"It doesn't seem that long...it's been
so amazing." Rose looked away for a second, as if to gather her thoughts,
but turned back to Jack with a brilliant smile reinstated on her face.
"You were so nervous that night. I could
tell...but so was I." That beautiful, teasing gleam was in her eyes now.
Somehow Jack knew in his heart, that Rose wanted to be his wife. They had
talked about forever so often that it seemed something already a vital part of
their relationship. And now all he had to do was ask...but that was the part
that made his palms sweat mercilessly. "I'm sorry Jack...I didn't even
remember, with everything today."
"That's okay, Rose. I was just thinking
about it earlier. And that's why I wanted to come here...it's kind of fitting,
don't you think?" He let his arm slip from her shoulder and took her hand
in his own. She nodded, breathing in the sweet smells of the wisteria and
climbing roses that were hanging lazily from white trellises. The spacious garden
was deserted except for them, and it did seem to remind her of that night in
Jack's garden. Except instead of the moon and the darkness, the sky was a
shining shade of blue and completely cloudless.
"Hmm...this is nice. But I still prefer
your little garden, Jack. It's like our own private place." Her voice was
soft and soothing, as she placed a comforting hand on his arm.
Looking up at her bright smile, Jack was sure
that she knew he was nervous about something. He could never keep anything from
her, for Rose had an uncanny ability to read his thoughts even before he could
sort them out himself.
"Rose...why don't we sit down over
here..." Jack took a deep breath, as his mind was racing with all the
words he wanted say. He ignored the questioning expression on Rose's face and
led her to an old-fashioned iron bench, with swirling, Victorian style
patterns.
Rose smiled and sat down, sliding to make
room for Jack to join her. He moved as if he were going to sit next to her, but
then hesitated, sweeping down in on emotion. Still grasping her hand, Jack
carefully fell down to his knees, bending one outward in front of him.
Rose could not help but giggle gently as she
saw his movements. She reached to cover her mouth with her free hand, studying
Jack's strange behavior. At first, it had looked as though he had stumbled and
fallen, but he was staying where he was now, kneeling directly below her.
"Jack...what in the world are you doing?" Her mouth opened in a
laugh, and her eyes widened as Jack placed one finger over her lips to silence
her. His face was serious, and he sighed before speaking. His hair, too short
now to get in his way anymore, only rustled in the whipping wind.
"Shh..." He slowly let his hand
fall back, "Rose, trust me." He saw her smile at his words, and he
knew that there would never be a moment more perfect than this. Rose looked
radiant and happy--her hair was flying like a halo, all around her shoulders,
and the sleeveless blue dress she wore set off her porcelain skin beautifully.
"Moment of truth, Dawson. Your life is
about to change for better or for worse," Jack thought to himself, bracing
his heart one last time. It was now or never.
Rose had sobered, and her eyes were waiting
patiently for him to speak.
"Rose, I saw this in an old, old movie
once. And I've always wanted to do it." Rose grinned with delight at his
words, seeing some of that familiar light and mischief in his blue eyes. But
still, she didn't quite understand what he meant. Those same eyes were filled
with such love, such hope, and she could even sense some anticipation on his
part. It wasn't until she saw him reach inside his pocket that any of it
registered.
In a split second, there was a deafening
silence pounding on her ears, the air whirling uncontrollably, blurring her
vision. It seemed to take hours for Jack to produce a small square box. Rose
gasped silently, her hand moving to her chest. Jack's head darted up, and
immediately she transferred to him a look of both understanding, and happiness.
She held her breath as Jack slowly opened the
tiny box and it was only when its contents were finally visible to her did a
sound escape from her throat. An almost noiseless shriek. Rose gripped Jack's
shoulder to steady herself, not trusting herself to maintain her balance.
Her emotional equilibrium was off kilter too.
She had expected Jack to propose sometime in the future, but not today and not
with that ring.
"Oh my God, Jack. It's the ring we saw
in Florence. How did you ever...oh, Jack." She let her finger flutter in
front of him anxious now to see how it would look on her hand.
"Rose, just wait a minute." A smile
crinkled around his eyes as he watched Rose's unabashed enthusiasm.
"You've got to let me say my part. Remember?" he said, his golden
voice rippling with laughter. He set the box on the bench next to her and took
her hand firmly in his and looked steadily into her eyes, silently willing her
not to look away.
Jack cleared his throat and let his mind
tumble with all the fancy words he had thought of this morning. The vision of
himself before the mirror this morning, rehearsing a formal speech, seemed
totally out of place now. In the end he decided to just be himself. Rose would
like it better that way. "Rose, since we met, you are all I have been able
to think about. And when I look into my future I see only you with me."
Her warm, understanding smile gave him the courage to go on. "So, Rose...I
want you to be my wife, Rose. I...I want you to marry me. Say yes, Rose. I love
you."
With tears of joy streaming down her face she
tried to speak, but her answer came out a hoarse and almost inaudible
"yes". Rose had always imagined how she would react if Jack ever
proposed and she never dreamt that she would be shaking and practically
speechless.
She thought that she would be jumping and
screaming at the top of her lungs.
But the moment seemed so serious, so
reverent, that the stillness around them seemed more appropriate. Poor Jack
looked as nervous as she felt. Between the two of them there didn't seem to be
a dry eye or steady hand.
She watched Jack, who with unaccustomed
clumsiness, fumbled and then pulled the sparkling ring from its velvet cushion.
Now she knew why his mind had seemed elsewhere at lunch and why he had been
checking his jacket pocket all morning. Rose held out her hand and shivered
with excitement as Jack slipped the ring onto her finger.
The small circle of silver slid smoothly onto
the third finger of her left hand, impeded slightly by the clamminess of Jack's
hand. When it was in place, he lifted her hand to his mouth, as he had done on
their first date, and planted a tender kiss on her fingertips.
He looked at her with an unwavering stare
that was filled with love.
"Jack," she whispered. "I love
you, Jack. I never dreamed or imagined that this was going to happen now."
With her free hand she wiped the moisture away from her eyes, overwhelmed by
the electricity in his touch. Her heart was thudding and her pulse was
pounding. Jack had totally blown her senses away today.
In one smooth motion, Jack slid onto the
bench next to Rose and wrapped his arm around her, while still holding her
hand. He leaned into her so that their cheeks were touching.
The smell of the perfume that she had used
since they first met was like an intoxicant to him, that and the feel of her
soft tendrils brushing against his face. Now that he had gotten over the actual
proposal, he felt suddenly relieved and all he wanted to do was to hold and
kiss Rose.
"You whispered your answer, Rose. But
say it. Tell me again."
His warm breath tingled in her ear as he
spoke. How on earth could he expect her to speak when she was almost paralyzed
by his nearness?
"Tell me, Rose," he demanded,
softly.
As she spoke the words he so desired, she
felt Jack gather her tightly in his arms and pull her snugly against him. She
buried her face in his neck as he kissed first her hair, her forehead and then
forced her out of her hiding place. With the firm touch of his lips on hers,
she felt a spiral of passion sweep through her, like she had never known
before. All of it caused by the fact that she knew now that forever she and
Jack would belong to each other.
When they reluctantly moved apart, Rose
studied the face of the man she loved so much.
"Jack," she asked, gazing into his
eyes that reflected the color of herring, "how did you get this ring? I
was with you all the time."
Jack threw his head back and chuckled
heartily, as he traced circles on her chin with his thumb. "Maybe you were
so sick that you don't remember. But there was that one afternoon, the day
before we left for home. You had that bad headache and you needed to lay
down."
She stared at him in amazement, not really
recalling too much of the afternoon. "I know you were there when I went to
sleep and you were there when I woke up. I just thought, guessed that you had
been there the whole time."
"Well, now you know. You do like it,
don't you?" he asked earnestly. "I wanted you to be surprised."
Rose looked down at the ring and then up at
Jack. "Like it? I love it, Jack. I…I just can't believe it." She
looked thoughtful for a moment as if not wanting to break the mood of their
happiness. "We'll need to tell Mother. She's sure to notice the ring
and..."
"Don't worry, Rose. She already knows
and she thinks it's wonderful. She said she is looking forward to seeing the
ring. I didn't want anyone to see it before you."
She shook her head in disbelief. If anyone
had told her a year ago that she would begetting engaged to someone like Jack
and that her mother approved of everything, and that she would have this
beautiful ring, she would have thought them mad.
Now besides her love for Jack, the only thing
she felt was a sensation of total peace and satisfaction.
Jack grinned from ear to ear, sensing her
happiness. He reached forward once again to kiss her, but was interrupted by
the sounds of laughter coming towards them.
Approaching them was a group of about twenty
people that appeared to be a wedding ensemble. In addition to the bride and
groom, there was the bridal party, some assorted family members and friends and
the photographer.
He stood quickly, pulling Rose up with him.
"Popular place, huh?" He winked at her, knowing that they would
always share the memory of these precious few moments in this beautiful garden.
"Maybe we should do that, when we get married. Have some pictures right
here?" Jack nodded his head in the direction of the bower they were just
leaving.
Married. He had said the words, he had
proposed, but to Rose everything sank in at last when he said the words
'married.' A wedding. They had to plan a wedding.
"Oh my God, Jack. Yes, that would be
wonderful. But there's so much to do." She brushed the side of her head
with her hand as Jack led her along back to his car. "It takes time to
plan a wedding. And Mother will want..."
He smiled as Rose suddenly started rattling
off all of the requirements for a wedding.
Much as he would have preferred to just take
her away alone somewhere and get married privately, he knew he owed Ruth and
Rose the honor of planning a wedding that every mother dreams of.
Rose blushed when the bridal party passed
them, somehow feeling that the whole world suddenly knew their secret. She felt
Jack's eyes on her and she glanced up at him from down-turned eyes. He had made
this day so special for her. It was one that she would never forget. How could
anyone be so lucky as to get a degree and an engagement ring in one day? But
Jack had made it possible for her. She only hoped that she could make their
wedding day as special for him. Wedding day.
"Jack, we need to pick a wedding date.
There is so much to do. We have to get started right away." She pulled him
to a stop under a beautiful flowering plum tree. As she studied the man before
her, she was filled with a happiness that she wondered if any other people had
ever felt. Surely only Jack and herself were capable of knowing a love as
intense as theirs.
"A wedding date?" Jack seemed
surprised for a moment that they had to settle that little detail right this
minute. All he needed to do to convince himself of that necessity was to
examine the inner excitement that was illuminating Rose's face. Of course they
would pick a date. And Ruth would want to know as well. "What do you think
would be good?" he asked, knowing that Rose would know better than he how
much time it took to accomplish the many things involved in organizing a
wedding.
She held his hands in hers and stepped back,
leaning her head up towards the trees. "I'm thinking," she giggled.
In her head she made some quick calculations and suddenly she had an answer for
Jack. "How about the Saturday before Thanksgiving?"
Hoping that day would please him too.
Jack answered with a satisfied look in his
eyes, that it would be a perfect time for a wedding. "I can take off the
Monday and Tuesday of that week. That would give us eight days for a honeymoon.
Not long enough for all the things I have planned, but..." Rose glowed
with happiness at his response. Eyeing him seductively she asked just what he
had planned.
Without warning, he pulled her into his arms
so that her head rested comfortably against his shoulder. He bent his head
against her softly curling hair, drinking in the smell of Rose and the garden
around them. The warm afternoon breeze picked up sending a blizzard of light
pink blossoms cascading around them. Laughingly he gently picked them out of
Rose's hair, as she dusted his tanned face with delicate kisses.
"A perfect ending to our afternoon,
wouldn't you say?" he said, his heart racing as he looked into her emerald
eyes. There was a teasing expression that he could not quite understand.
"Anything else about the wedding?"
Rose cocked her head to the side and stared
at Jack with a smile on her face. She put her finger on the tiny goatee
covering his chin. "Well," she began in a flirtatious tone of voice,
"there is one condition to marrying you, after all."
Jack gulped and frowned at this unexpected
turn of events. "What?" he asked, his mind spinning with confusion.
He relaxed only slightly when he saw a brilliant smile on her face.
"That," she giggled, tapping the
goatee. "That has to go before the wedding."
His heart started beating again when he
realized what a small request she was making.
Jack pulled his hands down on his face so
they stopped at his chin.
"Doesn't make me look like a famous
artist?" he asked somewhat disappointedly.
The smile on Rose's face was brighter than
the sun overhead, so overjoyed was she with the events of today. "Uh-uh.
The only famous artist I want you to look like is you." Rose stood up on
her tiptoes and kissed Jack soundly as another cascade of flowers showered them
with their fragrant petals.