NOW & FOREVER
Chapter Thirteen
Rose walked out of school, her head held
high. Her friends stared after her, still whispering amongst themselves. They
had been teasing her mercilessly since she had defended Jack that morning,
their taunts growing more derogatory as the day went by.
Rose had never been so happy to hear the
final bell ring. Walking slowly, trying not to show how much the teasing hurt,
she headed for the parking lot, where her chauffeur was waiting.
She wondered where Jack was. She hadn’t seen
him since he’d been led out of the gym that morning, and hoped that he wasn’t
in too much trouble, despite the fact that Gary was probably right—Jack
probably thought that she had turned him in.
Rose knew that she hadn’t turned him in, but
after the way Gary had teased her, she had a strong suspicion that she knew who
it was. Gary had been just a little too gleeful about Jack getting into
trouble, leading Rose to suspect that it was Gary himself who had turned him
in.
She scowled, thinking of it. She had never
really liked Gary, but he was a member of her crowd, and she had no choice but
to put up with him. Members of the upper class stuck together to keep the lower
classes out. More and more, Rose was wondering why it was so important to
maintain that exclusiveness, but it was the way the world worked, and there was
nothing she could do to change it.
When she reached home, Rose dumped her
belongings in her bedroom, then sat and looked out the window, at a loss as to
what to do. She was still upset by the way her friends had taunted her all day,
and she doubted that anyone else would have any sympathy with her. A rich girl
like her didn’t have any problems that anyone would sympathize with. What was a
little teasing? It just meant that she had stepped out of line and was being
brought back to proper behavior.
Rose stared down at the yard below. The
gardeners were clearing and clipping, cleaning out the remains of the summer
flower garden now that autumn had arrived. She could faintly hear them through
the closed window as they pulled up dead plants and cut back those that had
completed their blooms.
Everyone has something to do but me, she thought, watching them for a moment longer. She
knew that she should sit down and get started on her homework, but she was in
no mood to sit and study. She didn’t even want to sit and watch television in
her fancily decorated room, and she certainly didn’t want to talk on the phone
with any of her friends.
Impulsively, Rose decided to go out. She had
dismissed her chauffeur for the afternoon, but that didn’t mean that she
couldn’t go for a long walk. She could always call a taxi if she got too far
from home and didn’t want to walk anymore.
Quickly, before she changed her mind, she
hurried down the stairs and out the front door, her cell phone tucked securely
into her handbag. She nodded to the gardeners as she made her way down the
front walk, then stepped out onto the sidewalk, trying to decide which way to
go.
Several of her classmates lived up the street
to the left, so she didn’t want to go that way. In the other direction, the
street met a main thoroughfare that eventually wound up at the lake.
Making up her mind, Rose started up the
street to her right.
*****
Rose didn’t know how long she had walked, but
it didn’t seem like that long before she reached the playground she had shown
Jack two days earlier. There were a few kids playing, a few mothers or au pairs
watching, but the place was largely empty. Making her way over to an empty
swing set, Rose sat down, idly swinging back and forth.
Lost in thought, she didn’t notice anyone
else approaching until the person spoke to her loudly and rudely.
"What are you doing here?"
Startled, Rose looked up to see Jack standing
a few feet away, glaring at her.
"I came here to think—and to be
alone," she added, narrowing her eyes at him.
"Well, too bad. I was here first."
"Excuse me? Who showed you this place?
If you want to be alone, go somewhere else. I’m not moving."
"Leave, Rose."
"No."
They glared at each other challengingly for a
moment before Jack leaned against one of the swing set poles.
"I guess you’ve come to gloat."
"What?"
"You came here to gloat about getting me
into trouble. I wouldn’t kiss your feet like every other guy, so you turned me
in."
"I did not!"
"Oh? Then why did you turn me in?"
"I didn’t!"
"Oh, come on, Rose. Don’t lie to me.
You’re not very good at it."
"You’re not very good at seeing the
truth! I didn’t turn you in!"
"Oh, yeah? Then who did?"
"I think it was Gary."
"Gary?"
"That boy who said you lived with the
animals."
"How would he have known anything?"
"He was probably watching. He’s been
taunting me all day for defending you when they came and took you away."
"You did?"
"Yes, I did, Jack! Is that so hard to
believe?"
"After what you said the other day, yes,
it is!"
"I told you I was being sarcastic. You
think you’re so smart, but you can’t even tell sarcasm when you hear it!"
"Whatever."
"Fuck you!"
"Well, well, well…that’s not very
ladylike."
"I don’t care about being a lady, you
idiot! I’ll think as I please, and neither you nor any of my crowd can tell me
otherwise!"
Jack stared at her for a moment, then laughed
appreciatively.
"What’s so funny?" Rose snapped.
"You do speak your mind, don’t
you?"
"Yes, I do! Do you have a problem with
that?"
He raised his hands in mock surrender.
"Not at all."
"Good."
They were silent for a moment, avoiding each
other’s eyes. Finally, Rose spoke again.
"What happened, if I may ask? They
didn’t expel you or something, did they?"
"No. They just suspended me for a week.
I will be expelled if it happens again."
"I’m sorry. I swear I didn’t turn you
in."
"I guess I’ll try to believe you."
Jack was silent for a moment. "My cousin’s real mad about my getting
suspended, especially so early in the school year. He didn’t want me here in
the first place, but now…"
"Where would you go, if you didn’t live
with him?"
He shrugged. "Back to the United States,
I guess, and into a foster home unless I could find a way to support
myself."
"Don’t you have any relatives
there?"
"A few, but none of them can afford to
keep both my sister and me, and our parents didn’t leave us much. It’s James or
nobody."
"How awful," Rose murmured.
"My father died a couple of years ago, but I’ve still got my mother—even
though we don’t always get along."
"I’m sorry to hear about your dad."
Jack came and sat down on the swing next to hers. "My cousin didn’t want
to take me in…he said that kids who lose their parents are really hard to deal
with, and I guess he was right. Like with Mr. Richardson. I’d never pulled such
a stupid stunt before."
"I did some stupid things after I lost
my father," Rose admitted. "I was fifteen, and liked him much more
than my mother, who is so straight-laced and proper that she hardly ever cracks
a smile. Anyway, after he died—he had cancer—I just wanted to stay in my room
and cry all the time, but Mother wouldn’t let me. She insisted that we keep up
our social activities, keep up that perfect façade that people of our class are
supposed to have. One night, I was just sick of it, and when we went into a
restaurant for a fancy dinner, I threw a tantrum and dumped a glass of red wine
all over my mother’s dress before smashing the glass on the floor." She
sighed, looking down. "Mother was more embarrassed than anything else. She
pulled me aside and yelled at me, and got even more angry when I wouldn’t stop
crying. Then we went home, because she couldn’t stand to stay there at dinner
with that wine on her dress—even though her dress was the same shade of red and
it didn’t really show—and because she was so embarrassed by me."
"Didn’t she understand how sad you
were?"
Rose shook her head. "I don’t think so,
Jack. Mother isn’t a very understanding person. Most of the people in our
society aren’t. It’s—it’s very shallow, Jack. You aren’t supposed to get upset
and show emotion, or let anyone know that life isn’t quite perfect. My parents
married for money, so when Father died Mother hadn’t lost much. She inherited
everything, except for what Father had put into a trust fund for me. That money
will be mine when I’m twenty-one."
"What will you do then?"
Rose shrugged. "I don’t know. I’ll
probably be married by then…a marriage of convenience, just like my parents’.
What else is there to do?"
"What else…plenty. You could do anything
you want. Canada is a free country, you know."
"Yes, but I don’t live in a free
society."
"So? You could always leave it."
Rose shook her head. "No, I couldn’t,
Jack. Once you’re a part of my society, you’re in it forever. There’s no
escape."
"Why not?"
Rose opened her mouth to speak, then closed
it. She didn’t know the answer to that question.
"You could do anything you wanted, I’m
sure."
Uncomfortable, Rose changed the subject.
"You almost sound like you approve of me."
Jack ducked his head, looking at the ground.
"Well…you’re not as bad as the rest of them, anyway."
"Yeah…you’re nothing like what my crowd
thinks of poorer people. You’re not lazy, or dirty, or a drunk…although, come
to think of it, some members of my crowd are like that."
Jack swung slowly back and forth before
looking at Rose again. "Truce, then?"
Rose nodded slowly, looking at him and
offering her hand. "Truce."
Smiling tentatively, they shook hands.