FEELINGS IN THE SPOTLIGHT
Chapter Eleven
Jack got to Rose’s apartment
making sure nobody was following him. When he got there he sat down on her
couch.
“Rose, I’m here. We have to talk
babe.” He said and Rose walked in.
“I know what you want to talk
about. I saw it on TV this morning. It’s on every gossip show in on TV.” Rose
said walking slowly towards him.
“I was afraid this would happen.
Ah, I don’t know.” He said looking up at the ceiling.
“What do you mean you don’t know?
I think we should just come out with it. I mean there are worst rumors out
there.” Rose said and Jack stood up.
“No I don’t think that is the way
out of this. I think we should try something else.” He said and she stood up in
anger.
“Are you trying to brake up with
me? Not that we ever were!” She yelled.
“No Rose, not at all. I just…”
“What is the big deal Jack? Is it
pride or embarrassment? Oh Jack Dawson not dating one of those tooth pick
models oh what shock! I know I’m not a model or one of those foreign actresses
with attractive accents, I know you Jack!” she yelled.
“Rose…honey that has nothing to
do with this. It wouldn’t matter if you were 40 or 400 hundred pounds or if you
tolkd like dis, that wouldn’t change how I feel about you. It’s just that I
hate celebrity scandals especially because I am one!” he yelled.
“For once would you stop thinking
like a celebrity and think like a normal person in a serious relationship. I
love you but I’m not going to hide just because you are scared of a few cameras
and magazines. I once cried because it was forbidden to love you or have you
and now I don’t want to cry because I do and yet I can’t express it like normal
people do. If you want to keep hiding this than that tells me that you don’t
care and this is not as important than a stupid little golden naked man trophy.
If that is what you care more about then I don’t have any reason to be with
you. You hurt me once by rejecting me and now you are doing it again.” She said
crying and Jack was about to hug her but she pulled away. Jack felt his heart
break when she did that. She was so cold with him now.
“I can’t lose you again.” He said
and she looked at him with angry eyes.
“Well you want an Oscar and I
want your love. You already chose by what I can see. I lost you once and it
hurt like hell, but I think I can lose you again. I’m already use to the pain.”
She said opening the door signaling for him to leave.
“I guess our story or movie
doesn’t have a happy ending.” He said looking at her sadly while standing at
the door.
“I guess not.” She said and he
looked at her one more time.
“I do love you Rose. This is your
choice and it hurts me, but if this is what you want…Goodbye Rose.” he said
with tears in his eyes and left she closed the door and he fell back and leaned
against the door. She did the same and started to cry. He wanted to knock on
the door so bad, but he didn’t want to beg her. He had too much pride to make
her understand. He was sad and angry at the same time and all he could do is
run away, so he did. He stood up and walked away.
He got into his car and hit the
steering wheel with anger.
“I swear Rose that I will do my
best to forget you. You…you couldn’t understand me! I lo… I swear, you will be
out of mind and out of my heart. This I guess wasn’t meant to be.” He said
crying and left.
Rose threw a cushion in anger and
broke a vase with flowers. She walked around the living room with anger. She
was crying and frustrated. An idea crossed her mind. She grabbed the phone and
called her sister.
“Hey Sarah, uh I was wondering on
that trip you were wanting to take. When do you want to leave the States?” Rose
asked and Sarah answered.
“Uh this is all too sudden, but
I… I would love to leave any time this week. Why? Are things not going well
with…?”
“Let’s just say celebrity couples
never last!” Rose said and Sarah understood.
“Okay this Saturday if it’s okay
with you.” Sarah said and Rose agreed.
“Okay, yeah bye.” Rose said and
hanged up. “I swear Jack that I won’t cry anymore for you. I have cried too
much and I’m not going to be weak anymore, I’m not!”
*****
Jack arrived at his house and
threw his keys and sat on his couch. He thought and thought about what had just
happened. He loved her no matter what he tried to tell his heart, but he felt
like it wouldn’t work. Then he started to think of the past few months with
Rose. They were the happiest months of his life. But he had to forget and he
would.
It was going to be different now.
He was only going to concentrate on his work and be the actor he always imagined
he would be. No more love trouble.
*****
Saturday arrived and Sarah and
Rose were on the plane. Sarah wanted to know what had happened. She wanted to
help Rose for she looked devastated.
“Rose I know you probably don’t
want to talk to me about what happened, but please just let me know what
troubles your heart.” Sarah said and Rose looked at her.
“I loved him; I love him I swear
I do. But he didn’t want anybody to know. I told him I didn’t want to hide
anymore, but he said he couldn’t tell anyone yet. So I told him that if he was
too scared to tell people that we were in love then it was better for him to
leave and for our relationship to be over. I don’t change my mind about it; I
swear, I just wish it wouldn’t hurt so badly.” Rose said and Sarah laid a hand
on her shoulder.
“I think you were right. If he
understands and if he really loves you, he will comeback.” She said and Rose
smiled.
“I don’t think he will and to
know that hurts, but I swear I will move on.” She said as the plane left the
country.
*****
Jack drove around in his hybrid
and environmental friendly car. Rose had been one of the people who had
understood him about that to. He drove all night not knowing what to do. All
that was in his mind was Rose and no matter what he did she was in his mind.
“What if I make her see? Oh what
am I thinking? I have to make her understand that I live for her, but we can’t
tell the media right now. But I love her, I really do.” He said and drove to
her house. He got out and walked to the front door. He stood at the door for a
few seconds thinking of what to say. He took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
Nobody answered at first so he
knocked again and again and still nobody answered. He started to walk to his
car and then he saw her gardener, Sean.
“Hey Sean! Have you seen Rose?”
Jack asked.
“Uh not really, I don’t think for
a while. She left.” Sean said.
“Uh left…where?” Jack asked.
“On vacation…I think she left the
country. She isn’t coming back for a while. She told me to go on one myself. I
have to lock the place first. Why? She didn’t tell you?” Sean said. Jack looked
away in disappointment.
“Uh…thanks Sean.” Jack said and
walked to his car. While he was sitting down he laid his head on the steering
wheel. “I tried…I really did. Why Rose, why did you give up on us? I guess this
is what you really want. I swear I won’t bother you ever again.” He said with
some tears and left her house. They both decided to go on their separate ways,
only time would tell if their love could be buried and forgotten.