THEN YOU LOOK AT ME
Chapter Five
Rose's Diary
June, 2000
Dear Diary,
Jack Dawson took me out on a date tonight.
Oh my, it was the most magical date in the history of the world. We went to a
movie, first of all, and even I, the Movie Freak, could not concentrate. I just
kept thinking about Jack sitting right next to me. In the dark! I get chills
just thinking about it. About halfway through the film Jack put his arm around
me and I leaned against him. We sat like this for the majority of the time,
just holding hands and cuddling. Then, after the movie, Jack asked if I would
like to do something else. I said yes; I wasn't ready to go home! Jack
suggested we go down by the river. And that's just what we did. Jack bought us
ice cream cones. And we talked for a little bit. But then something happened,
diary. And I don't know if I can put it into words. Jack and I kissed. But not
just kissed...we KISSED! It was so sweet. Jack asked if he could kiss me. And
after I said yes, he did. We kissed for a half-hour in that little park down by
the river. The backdrop of downtown Spokane was behind us and somehow it made
the whole thing more exciting. Once, in eighth grade, Liza and I were down
there during Hoopfest and we saw a couple making out on the bank of the water.
Liza has since then called the area "Makeout Beach." And now I can
see that she is right. After a while, Jack remarked that he'd better get me
home or else my Mother would get worried. I agreed and we started home. As he
was dropping me off, Jack got out of the car and we kissed again on the front
step, this time for ten minutes. I knew I should be getting inside, but I
couldn't tear myself away. Jack is so wonderful and unimaginable. I can't
believe I met him. He's nice, funny, sweet, handsome, smart, oh, I can't even
name everything. Jack said he would call again tomorrow. Oh, I hope he does!
Dear Diary,
Jack called just a minute ago! He woke me
up in fact, he he. It's only eight o'clock in the morning. Anyway, he said that
he was going to church, since it is Sunday, but wanted to know if I wanted to
take a drive with him afterward. I'll pick you up around twelve, he said. I, of
course, agreed. Imagine, two dates with Jack in the same weekend! Oh God, what
am I going to wear? I need to shower as well. Maybe Moll is home and she came
come over and help me decide what to do.
Later
I just got back from being with Jack. He
picked me up around twelve, just as he had said. Before that Mollie did come
over and helped me decided what to wear and things like that. She said that
since we were going for a drive that I shouldn't really dress up. I agreed. So
I ended up wearing dark green cargo shorts and a white tank top. When Jack
showed up he said I looked nice. I was happy, diary. We went for a 'drive' and
ended up in Moses Lake, where we ate a late lunch (since both of us had eaten
late breakfasts we weren't hungry until then.) It was so much fun getting out
of town like that. Even for a few hours only. After lunch, Jack and I went down
by the water and Jack pulled out his sketchbook. He showed me some of his
drawings and I must say, they are wonderful. He can draw like any professional
artist can; I was really impressed. As we were heading back to the car, Jack
and I noticed the boats out on the water. Jack mentioned that it might be fun
to go boating sometime and I was all for it. I haven't been boating much
before, since my mother doesn't care for it. Speaking of Mother, she met Jack
for the first time today. I think she likes him; they seemed to get along fine.
But we will see. Anyway, we then started back from Moses Lake in Jack's Ford
Explorer (which I love!) The whole hour and half drive was so much fun! Jack
and I played all this wonderful music the whole way, blasting it and singing
along until we reached Spokane. Then we stopped singing and turned down the
music, he he. The best was when we played Alanis Morissette's
"Ironic." We were in the middle of nowhere and no one was around.
Jack and I sang the song at the top of our lungs and then broke down laughing
afterward. It was so much fun! I am still giddy thinking about it. Rehearsals
are tomorrow, which means I get to see Jack!
Dear Diary,
It is now Friday. The week is over and
done with and I can look forward to the weekend. We had rehearsals all week,
but they went well. The play looks like it is going to be wonderful. All of the
cast members, assistant directors, and directors seem to be excited about the
whole ordeal. Everyone shows up at the theater in a good mood and ready to
perform. Jack called me just a few minutes ago. It has been so fun working with
him. Gosh, I think he makes a good Romeo. No, a perfect Romeo. Anyway, Jack
asked if I wanted to do the boating thing we talked about doing. 'Are you
kidding?' I asked him. I have been looking forward to doing this all week.
Apparently Jack's uncle has a boat that he is going to let Jack use so that he
doesn't have to rent one. Jack was talking about going up on the Columbia
River--but that is almost two hours away. We may just go to Moses Lake again or
Sprague Lake, which is near there too. Jack promised to teach me how to fish.
He he. I've hardly ever been fishing in my life. Except for the time when I was
five and six and I went with my father. This is going to be so much fun! I am
meeting Molly, Liza, and Sara (who is back in town now) at the movies in about
an hour. They all want to hear about Jack.
Dear Diary of a Very Happy Rose DeWitt
Bukater,
I just got back from my day with Jack. We
got in kind of late (9:00) and Mom was a bit worried, but she was glad I had a
good time. Jack picked me up at 7:00 AM, which seemed really early when he told
me over the phone yesterday. But considering I woke up at five, it was okay. We
ended up going to Sprague Lake, since it is closer to Spokane then any other
lake we had considered. It's not the nicest place, very rugged where we were.
But it was fun. Jack got a day pass and we spent the whole day out on the
water. Jack brought along a radio and we listened to that. I also had brought
lunches for us both, so we ate that around noon. Around that time it began to
get really hot, so I took off my shirt and lay around in my bathing suit top.
Jack too had his bathing suit on in place of regular shorts. So he took off his
shirt as well and we had a great time lying around getting a better suntan.
Around six Jack said we should start back. So we headed for shore and got
everything set up and ready to leave. Well, as we were heading back we both
decided that we were hungry. So we pulled into a local diner in the town of
Sprague and ate there. Jack and I both had clubhouse sandwiches and lemonades.
And then after dinner we got a big thing of red and black licorice to eat on
the drive home. The whole way back, as we were eating our candy, Jack and I
talked about everything and anything we could think about. About what we wanted
to be after college, about our families, school, everything. I had such a great
time; I never wanted to go home. Jack is coming over tomorrow and we are going
to swim in our pool. I can't wait to show off the rest of my bathing suit to
him!
My Dearest Diary,
I have not written in some time--almost
two weeks! Sorry about that. I have been so busy with summer jobs, rehearsals,
Jack. It's just been crazy. Jack and I have been spending more and more time
together. We have gotten so that we carpool to rehearsal together, along with
Jack's friend Tommy. Jack will come over after practice, or I will go over to
his house. I really like his cousins, Aaron and Felicity. They seem to be
really good kids. And they adore Jack. His Aunt Maddy and Uncle Robert are
really friendly as well. They are also nice to me and I think they have gotten
used to me around. Mother has gotten used to Jack being around too, I think.
She doesn't mind anymore when she comes home from work and finds out that Jack
is eating over at our house. And she's gotten used to me eating over at Jack's.
One thing though, Mollie and Liza have been kind of...I don’t know...avoiding
me I guess would be the right word. They just haven't called or been over in a
while. I wonder if it's because of Jack. They, along with Sara, met him a few
weeks ago. And they all seemed to like him. I don’t know what's going on. Maybe
I'll call one of them tonight and see what is going on.
Dear Diary,
Jack and I went out again last night.
Nothing fancy, we just went to a movie and then for a soda downtown. But then
we took a drive and ended up in a deserted area close to our neighborhood. Then
we spent a lot of time in the back of Jack's car. We didn't do anything, just
kissed. I don’t know if either of us are ready for a relationship involving sex
just yet. You know, diary, that I am sill a virgin. I am not sure about Jack,
but from what he has told me I totally think he hasn't gone all the way yet. It
sounds like he hasn't had a real serious relationship before. Maybe I shall ask
him whether he is or not. But would that scare him off? I never thought I would
have sex before I was married, I am not sure I ever wanted to. But now I have
been thinking more and more often about it. Not just about with Jack, but about
sex in general. That must sound really bad. I am not a sex-crazed person or
anything. Maybe I should talk about this with Jack. I wonder if he feels the
same way that I do.
Dear Diary,
I spoke with Jack. He is a virgin and he
says that he feel like I do (yeah!). He is curious about it, but he doesn't
think he is ready right now. I agree. I mean, we have known each other for less
than a month. As close as I feel to Jack, I just don't think we are ready. I
feel closer to Jack now. More than ever. I think it's a good thing we talked
this over. I have rehearsal early tomorrow, so I am going to get to bed. Good
night, diary!