As I sit here thinking about all the time I have wasted,
just sorting out my life -- I never really realized what
loneliness was until you were gone. It seemed as though
things were going so good until one day you left without a
single trace. All of our plans for the future were
shattered. There was to be no more of you and I together.
You were gone, gone forever. I still remember the times we
shared, but slowly these memories are going too. One day
they'll be gone just like you ...
I'm trying desperately to find you and bring you back to me.
I dream about you every day and pray that you'll come back,
but it's hopeless. There's no use in pretending, cause deep
down in my heart I know you've found another. Someone to take
my place, someone who'll love you -- but never like I loved
you. And even though you've found another, I'll be true to
you, even though you've asked me not to ...
My life seems so meaningless now. I'm useless - why was I
ever placed on this earth? What purpose do I serve? None,
none whatsoever. People tell me that another will come along
and take your place, but where is he? Who is he? Sometimes
I feel like giving up on life, on love, on everything, but I
can't. My spirits won't let me. I must go on - with or
without you. The things that ever really meant anything to
me are gone - vanished - never to come back to me again. All
I have left now is my dignity, but slowly that is slipping
away too ...
I have to get a grip on myself -- I can't let this get me
down. Life must go on. Maybe it's good that the memories are
going, maybe then I can go on with my life as meaningless as
it seems now. I don't hold it against you because you left
me. It's like they always say, "Let him go and if he really
loves you, he'll come back to you." But it's not that
simple, now is it? The only way to having true love is to
realize that someday it may be lost. Believe me, I realized
that a long time ago ...
The funny thing about all of this is if you were to come
back - I actually don't believe I would take you back. I
don't deserve such pain and torture. If you left me once,
you could do it again ...
Goodbye, my long lost love - maybe we'll meet again some day.
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