Last night I wound up buying my first work “suit” ever. It was recommended by one of the temp agency recruiters that it would be best if I wore a business suit to some of my interviews because it might help my chances of scoring a full time position somewhere. I agreed with the fact that it certainly couldn’t hurt my chances. I was going to just buy a black business jacket to go with a nice burgundy under-piece and with the pants to match that I already have sitting in my closet, but I couldn’t find just a regular black jacket that fit me right. I wound up looking at some suits that were on a hanger in one of the shops we went into; I picked out a pale purple pinstripe piece that came with both a skirt and a matching pair of pants. I would have preferred something a little darker, perhaps black and white, but there just wasn’t anything that looked like I wanted it to that came in my size and my price range. At least the purple is a little original and reflects some of my unconventional personality traits. I hate wearing the thing though. It just doesn’t feel right for someone like myself to wear something like that. Whatever! As long as it scores me a job, I don’t really care; at least I only have to wear it on rare occasions, and not for a prolonged period of time.

Rory and I also stopped by the campus at Metro. so that we could pick up some summer and fall class schedules. I had to apply for re-admittance and I will not know for about a week to a week and a half as to weather or not I will be re-admitted, but I don’t see why I wouldn’t be. If I go back I will only be taking one to two summer term and probably one to two classes per semester since I can’t afford much else; I’m working full time so all of my class will need to be either after 5:30pm, weekends, or online. I think my best option it online courses for my general studies, and then evening and weekend classes for my art classes; the art classes will most likely require studio time so those will be the hard ones to accomplish. I am also giving some serious consideration about obtaining a minor in psychology and/or philosophy. We will see. All of this will depend on finances, time, and motivation. I really am looking forward to going back to school though.

On a more upsetting note, it turns out that I have virtually no sexual motivation as of late. I feel really bad because I know that Rory is one of those people with a high sexual drive, and because I don’t, it’s making him feel like he is either doing something wrong, or that something is wrong with him. I try to explain to him that there is nothing wrong with him, and that it is me, but he says he can’t help but feel like it’s about him not doing something right. I have always had a rather low sexual drive but lately it hasn’t really been there at all. I know of some things that “might” be factoring into the situation, but I can’t be positive about that. I’m sure it will all pass in due time, but when it will, I’m not exactly sure. I think the first step I will take is becoming a bit more active; actually, a LOT more active. I have felt incredibly ugly and undesirable lately, and I KNOW that a majority of it has to do with my weight. Summer is coming so I have no excuse for not dropping pounds like crazy.

Now we will go on a little rant about our controlling government and how they want to ban smoking from public restaurants. They say they want to ban the smoking in public restaurants because they want to have a safe working environment for the employees. If that was honestly the case, then they would attempt to stop people from smoking in bars as well, but they aren’t; another overlooked perspective is the fact that most of the employees that work there are smokers any way. Then you have the argument that people want to be able to go out to eat and not be around cigarette smoke because they want to protect their own lungs. The truth be told that most restaurants have, not only a separate smoking section from non-smoking, but a lot of them have started making rooms that are well ventilated, and sealed off from the rest of the dinning clientele. Then you can also argue the fact that, if people are not permitted to smoke in a public restaurant, will they chose not to dine there at all? The truth is, that I know a LOT of people that will not go out to eat if they cannot smoke there as well. In turn, I think that this will begin to hurt the restaurant industry because they will lose business, at least to some degree. This will especially be a complication with coffee shops and late night hangouts because that is where a large selection of people go to relax, have some coffee and smoke their cigarettes. This leads into the next argument which is weather or not our government should be the one to decide weather or not a business can or cannot allow their patrons to smoke on/in their own private property. Should it not be the right, for an American, to allow or disallow the people entering their business to smoke or not smoke? What give the government the right to decide that for the business owner? Yet another point can be derived from this, (which just so happens to be my favorite part of the entire argument). If our government is now allowed to control the usage of a substance that is perfectly legal, in or on a private property and/or proprietorship, then what will be their next move or their next revocation of our American Civil Rights? Will they now take away our right to smoke in our own homes? Or, here is yet another point that can be made, which is asking ourselves where should all of this stop? When and where have the boundaries been crossed? Just how far is too far? Also, once it has gone too far, can it ever be recovered, or is it too late? Have we lost control of our own rights as American Individuals? Why in the world did our “founding fathers” even bother to attempt establishing the government that they did, if we are just going to let it all be undone? Should we even care? This country is not perfect, in fact very far from it, but it has some good ideals behind it all; I think that we just aren’t putting it to good use.

Let me ask if anyone, who is reading this right now, has ever read the book 1984, by George Orwell? If not, then I suggest reading it. If for nothing more than a lack of things to do, or if you want to expand yourself into another realm of thinking, then I suggest you pick it up. Of course that is not the only example of literature that reflects the same types of ideas, there are numerous pieces out there, but it’s a good start.

Rant finished! And yes, I know I’m a moron who should have edited everything I wrote, but I’m at work right now don’t have time. If you don’t like it, then fuck off and don’t read it.