Blah, I have to wait until Monday to see if I will be admitted for the online course of, Intro to Chicana/o Studies, at Metro., for the Summer term. This is not a class that I would chose to normally take on my own accord, and/or use my money for, but it is a pre-requisite for my degree. I guess the Admissions Office wasn’t as backed up as they thought it was when I called the other day. It took them only a couple of days to re-enroll me as a student. When I attempted to register this particular class online an error message told me that I needed to call the CHS Department for registration. It turns out that the class is full so I had myself put on a waiting list. The girl I talked to said that people are constantly dropping and adding that particular class, and that I should know by Monday weather or not I will be allowed to take it. I think it would be ideal to get my multi-cultural studies course out of the way during the summer term. The reason I think that it’s ideal is because I can afford only one class for right now, and it’s an in-depth class that requires a lot of time and attention; since it’s the only summer course I will be taking, I will be able to focus primarily on that. I purposefully chose an online class because I can do all the work at home and not worry about money for parking, gas, for the time it takes to go to school and home, and I don’t have to worry about rushing to class after work. The fall session will be different though. I have enrolled in my next English class at Metro’s north classrooms, which happen to be away from the actual campus location; luckily they had a session open for 6-8:45pm on Mondays only. I think that any job I have at that point won’t mind my need to leave at about 4:30pm; I might even get by working until 5pm with no problem, depending on how far the class is from my current job at that point in time. If it turns out that something will interfere with the class then I still have plenty of time to either change it to another time, another class, or drop it with a full refund. Now I just have to worry about how much everything will add up to in the end; I think it’s worth it though.

Tonight I am going to drive downtown to pick up a CCD course catalog for Rory. I think that CCD might suit his needs a little better than Metro will. The reason being is that he isn’t sure what he really wants to do, and I honestly don’t think he’s willing to focus all his energy and money on a 4-year degree that he’s not certain he really wants to begin with. At least with going to CCD he can get a 2-year Associates degree and if he really doesn’t like it when he’s finished, then he can obtain another degree in something else within the next 2 years from that. At least that way he has 2 degrees under his belt for the same amount of time spent, and relatively the same cost, as he would have for the one degree at Metro.

I guess Rory and I are rather different on our outlooks on why we want to return to school. His reasoning for going back is that he would like to obtain a degree that he can use towards a better job then what he has now; his interest is merely in financial and stability growth. I, on the other hand think that all of that is fine and dandy, and some day I will finish my degree and make the money I want, doing what I want; however, that is not my main goal of going to school. I think the most important part of the education process for me is the actual ability to learn and grow. Sometimes I think that I would love to be an eternal student; taking a class of this, and that, and such, just for the hell of it. I want to learn about things that I am curious about, or have an interest in learning more about. My only issue about any of this right now is time and money. Time is something I am least worried about since most jobs are a little flexible with hours. Money, on the other hand, is not something I have in large quantities right now. I guess that, as long as I keep saving a little bit at a time, possibly from every paycheck I make, then I won’t really have a problem saving up for it at all.

I really should stop going on about school, but there is a reason behind all of my babble. I am excited that I will be progressing and learning at my own pace, without the pressure of my parents. They will not be behind my every move wanting to know how my homework is going, if I have it done, if I am keeping up with my classes, etc…, but I think it will feel even better knowing that I am doing this all on my own; I am paying for my own classes, so if I don’t feel like going to class, or if I want to drop it, then I don’t need to worry about getting bitched at for it. Don’t get me wrong, I thought it was wonderful of them to try and help me out and paying for my school, but honestly, it was too much all at once. I was not ready for the commitment and time they demanded of me. I was not mentally well during the last couple of semesters I attended. Plus, I was just plainly burned out and felt really restricted.

Ok, enough for now. I'm off!