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undefined 6/30/04


I could feel the amplification of electricity as the storm approached today; it had me on a high that I have not felt for a very long time; it was magnetic. The air was fresh and cool, but thick and heavy; the coming of rain was inevitable. I sat in my car with the windows down; enjoying the serenity that enveloped me. Today has been the first day I have had a chance to enjoy just taking a moment to enjoy myself. I have been so busy that I’ve barely had a chance to breathe. I’ve met a lot of new people, and re-kindled ties with a lot of old friends. I guess you can tell that someone is truly your friend when you can disappear out of their lives for a while, and then just walk right back in with open arms. I felt really bad for not keeping in contact with everyone but life had taken a nasty turn for the worst and, somewhere in the middle of it all, I lost them when I lost myself; at least things are looking more positive. The truth is, I was really unhappy for a long time; I now know why I wasn’t happy. I’m sure the answer is more than obvious.

Sleeping at night is getting easier and easier; though, most of the time, I don’t get to bed until really late (or early); there has just been too much to do, and too few hours to do it in. I can’t wait to pick up some paints so that I can work on this really old, beautiful, chest I found.

I really can’t wait for school to start again. I’m going to take three classes in the fall. I suppose the best part is that they are classes I actually WANT to take. If I don’t enjoy a class, and the teacher bothers me too much, then I have problems with following through; however, if the class is awful, but I love the teacher, then I do just fine. Perhaps it has to do with some stubborn, unconscious, form of rebellion; though, it doesn’t really get me anywhere.

Ok, I’m falling into ramble mode; time to stop here.