12:45 AM 2/1/2003 you put in a second movie, but i was content to just watch you
thank you for that

i promised to not push for it but i dint promise to leave the feelings behind. fortunately ill be gone soon and not able to put myself through such torture.

so much to say, yet none will be told. there will be a little get-together thing at my mothers house on february 9th from 1-3 pm.sort of a 'last time youll get to see caleb in who knows how many years' thing. so if i know you, and wouldnt mind seeing you, stop by. id love to see people before i leave.

tiffany, i thought of you on my way home today. it was very foggy and somewhat cold. as i was driving home i was looking at all the trees and i noticed that they were all solid white. it was awesome. so much frost on them. i grinned.

today is my last day at papa johns. ive enjoyed working there. it has been fun and i got to meet some really rather coo people. good night.

each day passing is one day closer. almost time for me to leave. i got pissed off at tabby so im not talking to her. its clear now. i thought i was right. i thought i was just. i truly believed. i fear now i may have been deceived. i may have just been an affair. an empty morsel tossed to the wind. empty words filled my ears. like balloons filling a trash bag. by all appearances so large and substantial, but in reality hollow and void of all life. please forgive me.

never again. avoid them at all costs. the lesser gender... heavens no. a true force to be reckoned with. avoid getting close. avoid drawing near. avoid trust. avoid belief. avoid... at all costs.
1/30/03 335 am
good night.

oh yeah, to all of you that dont yet realize, samantha and tabby are one and the same.
1/31/03 649 am

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