My Angel Stories

The night before Theresa died I had a dream. In my dream I was pulling a wagon, it was made of wood and it was red. In the wagon was a child, a sick child, there was an aura of light around this child and there was an IV line dragging behind the wagon. We were on the corner near my house and when I looked up I saw an old brown pick-up truck come around the circle (we live in a cul de sac). It was my Dad coming to pick up the child. You see, my Dad passed away on Dec. 12, 1987 and when I saw him take the child in my dream I just knew he would come and take Tee~Tee. The very next day he did. It still gives me goosebumps when I think of the dream, but it also gives me a feeling of Peace to know she is with my Daddy.

The first week after Tee~Tee passed away we took our sons to the shore and on the long drive home through the pines I was thinking about Theresa. We were in the middle of nowhere and all of a sudden a smell filled the car of fresh flowers. Since we were in the woods there certainly were no fresh flowers around. I used to call Theresa my "little flower" and I think because she was with me and I couldn't see her that is how she let me know she was there. I asked my husband later and he told me that he smelled nothing. This was one of the many little "coincidences" I have had.

Sometimes late at night a flash will catch my eye, it usually happens when I am alone and it is late. It is almost like she is running through the house. Night time is the hardest time for me. Theresa slept with us most of her life so to go to bed without her is very difficult. During bad times when I an having a good hard cry and I sit on the edge of my bed put my head back and take in long deep breaths. It's at this time when I get an overwhelming feeling of Peace. It flows through my body and the crying stops. The sadness is gone. It is unexplainable.

Theresa came to visit me in a dream. In this dream I was giving her up for adoption. At first I thought how strange that's the one thing I thought I would never dream about~giving her up~in the dream I was holding her and kissing her. I told her how much I loved her and that for me to let her go was the hardest thing I had ever done but it would be the best for her. I think this was her way of letting me know that it was alright. She understood why I had to let her go and I think she was trying to bring me Peace. My wish came true; everytime I get an e-mail that tells you to make a wish and then pass it on, I wish for Theresa to come and visit me. See wishes do come true. They may not be exactly what you expected and sometime

I got a gift this Christmas, it wasn't wrapped pretty, it wasn't tied with a bow and there was no tag on it either. It was my favorite gift of all and the only one I asked for. This year as Christmas was getting closer I silently wished for a special gift. I didn't tell my family not even my husband knew what I had wished for. When I awoke on December 26th there was a smile on my face, for I had received a gift like no other. Would you like to know what it was? I got a hug. Not just any hug, a special hug from a very special little person, my Tee~Tee. I had an angel visit~I am not sure if I should thank GOD or Santa, so I will just say "Thank you so very much" and whoever sent this precious gift will know that I am truly grateful. Christmas came as always this year, but it was missing something for my family and me. We lost our sweet Theresa last summer and on family holidays like this it is very difficult to have fun and enjoy the day without her. On many nights as I lay in bed, I pray that I dream of her. Every once in a while I do and it is such a calming experience. This Christmas after all the gifts were opened and played with and all our company went home I went to bed, I didn't ask for a visit not did I expect one. They're the best gifts of all, the ones you don't expect. I fell fast asleep and there she was, for some reason in this dream I hadn't seen her for a month. She was across the street in front of our neighbors' house with her brother. She had on a white t-shirt and pink shorts. She saw me and ran right across the street jumping into my arms. She wrapped her little arms tightly around my neck, she was warm, I could smell her hair and I kissed her chubby cheeks not wanting to ever let go. It was so real. She comes to me when I need her the most~I miss her so much. It was a very Merry Christmas.

As I drove home from work the strangest thing happened...it was as if I were dreaming but I was wide awake. I was driving along Rt. 29 and there is an exit with a view of the River. In my dream my car drove off the road over a wall and into the river. As my car sank deeper into the water I must have had a near death experience. At first I could see water all around me and then the water turned into clouds...They were beautiful, the clouds made a pathway to a gate. The gate was not really white more like a pearl color....it was open as if I were expected and behind the gate I could see flowers and bushes they were all very muted in color. Peaking from behind the gate was a beautiful little angel and she said, "Hi Mom" it was my Theresa, and all I wanted to do was run to her and hold her and kiss her little face but I couldn't. Someone was clling me back, it was my son. And I came back to him. I have always said if it weren't for having him I don't know what I would have done. I guess this was her way of letting me know that she understands and that I need to be with him.