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It's like, the other guy might have the peanut butter and jelly, but you have the chocolate chip cookies. There's a balance there. I think all the boys that write the screaming stuff would write the best love songs.... because they have the most to hide. The guys that are in the most pain are usually the ones with the biggest hearts. There comes a time when you want to roast marshmallows over your own fire. (A thought on Hey Jupiter) Sometimes, anger is appropriate. I think it's fantastic when my voice helps them (the songs) find their own. Their personality is still asleep, and I feel like a princess kissing them awake. Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it. It's like when ya' hafta' have an enchilada, ya' just hafta' have one! Being a Feminist isn't enough now...it's about being a whole person. Okay, and so I...agh! I promised this girl I'd give this a go, so I don't know what's gonna happen here, but we're gonna...I've only tried this one other time in my life, and I gave myself a brain aneurysm so I'm not sure but it's ok, I'll get some seafood later. Wax is a bit more fun to play with than bubble gum. I remember everything...I felt a bit like a Dr. Seuss character. I take that stage and that piano and demon girls come out. I feel if you talk about the self it's like a microcosm of wider issues...that's how I find out what I'm made of. You know--in fifteen years I won't have braces anymore, and my knees won't be like water, and I might actually be an interesting person! So, you know- you shouldn't be so mean to me. I've been a groupie and I wish I hadn't been, but I was and it happens. I can relate. "I've never considered myself to be a great pianist. I'm just a really creative player - voicing and all that stuff. I've never had the chops like the killers. You know, you walk in and you see the killers playing Chopin and yadda, yadda, yadda, and you just go "I'm impressed". And, to some extent, it is impressive. But from a very different place." Shoe shopping is a real art. The piano was very much my identity for a long long time, now I feel like we're partners. It's funny. I don't see myself like that. I see me more like Russel from Fat Albert. You know Russel? That's who I see myself as. I was the tagalong who always had my bubble hat. I mean, I didn't even reach puberty until seven months ago! When I am in geometrically sound shoes, I feel like I'm part of the physics chatter. How do you know I'm not having a margarita with Jesus tonight at 10 o'clock? Socks and mittens are my friends. It feels like 'Earthquakes,' 'Pink,' and 'Pélé' were a trilogy, and now a door has closed. A certain style ended for me. But as long as I honor wherever the music is going, whether or not radio plays it, then I think my audience will still be there. That is the most important thing to me. Whatever it is, it's a charge, a current, it's chemistry. It's the thing that ignites very much like electricity. I'm learning a big thing here, which is, it's not personal. When you get involved with somebody, it's not that they aren't worthy of your love, or that they are. It's that they reflect something to you, and you to them. That's why there's a charge. It's not that they're not exciting, they're just not striking your current or my current.That doesn't mean that they're not striking someone else's. In our minds, love and lust are really seperated. It's hard to find someone that can be kind and you can trust enough to leave your kids with, and isn't afraid to throw her man up against the wall and lick him from head to toe. I have my own parties. They involve being barefoot with a piece of fried chicken and a margarita in each hand. To me the songs already exist, I'm an interpreter for them. I'm now letting go of the belief that I need to look to someone else for my fire and access to a well of expression. When you know you give people inspiration, it's like, wow. I don't know, it's just the yummiest thing. I have to be willing to open the closet and be willing to bring out all my little party hats. So sometimes I sing in the shower and they bang next door and tell me to shut up. And I say well that's not really fair. Maybe if you only knew you could pay 23 fuckin' bucks to hear me sing you wouldn't complain! I'd be quite happy, as an artist, if I knew that a verse, even a line in one of my songs could do for people what 'Thelma and Louise' did for me, liberate them in some way, particularly from a fear of the darker side of their own nature. I think it's my hair color. People like red hair... The whole music industry is so much dictated by radio, and who are they dictated by? Advertisers. It's a vicious cycle. And where does it stop? Wait a minute, when I was four years old, I didn't care what anybody thought. There were no doubts about 'Am I going to be successful?' I mean, I'd get my Shredded Wheat in the morning and play the piano and that was successful! There's a fine line between listening to everything and listening to nothing. Jesus, girl, get over it. There are real problems in life. I wrap my arms around the piano and embrace it. I see the piano as a living being. I'm known as that girl who has tea with the Devil. But yet because I'm different than you, I have every right to play Claire de Lune" my way, as do you. Why should you play it like me? Maybe you're coming from a different background with a different edge that brings it a different perspective. I don't believe for one minute that Debussy would not want to hear your perspective!" There's no doubt, though, that the classical influence has seeped into my brain, obviously. As I play alone at the piano, I have to honor it. If you've never had a papaya, well, it's kind of like such and such, instead of actually experiencing the papaya. Every place you land in life has a reason and a lesson. I hope that these songs (on Little Earthquakes) will enter people's lives and make them realize that they are not alone. I can feel myself collecting the inspiration for new songs all the time. But how, for example, can anyone have an understanding of the virgin if they don't also have an understanding of the prostitute, the saint and sinner in one body? It's weird when you're giving a guy head at 15 and you're thinking 'Jesus is looking at me!' Doing it with a priest never got me off, they wash it so often...but doing it with Jesus, now that is something else! I've nearly always believed that Jesus Christ really liked Mary Magdalen and that if he was, as he claimed to be, a whole man, he had to have sexual relations with her. You should see the album cover--for my hairspray if nothing else. -Tori speaking of Y Kant Tori Read Christianity has been the biggest history in the West, and it permeates everything, even advertising. There are certain things that will or won't be said. I couldn't say 'cum' on David Letterman the other night because of advertisers. I had to sing 'because you make me calm, that doesn't make you Jesus'. (a line from Precious Things) For many years, I shut down that place inside myself that needed to rage, cry, ask questions and basically just express herself. I made a conscious choice when I put 'Me and a Gun' on the record not to stay a victim anymore. I have the right to open the door, to explore and to report on what I find, in whatever way I see fit. And I do have a real commitment to the female, the feminine, the goddess side of my own nature. I am Mary, the mother of god *and* the Mary Magdalen figure now. If you're a lame brain, then you're a lame brain. I can't help that. I don't know anybody who's willing to cut God up a cantaloupe and say, 'Hey, sit down, put your feet up, you need some advice.' You have to have a bit of confidence to do that. You have to stop a minute and say 'I'm not buying this trip that humans aren't worthy of talking to the gods.' I did a tribute to Kurt Cobain with 'Teen Spirit' and 'American Pie' this night in Dublin, because 'American Pie' is what I heard over and over in my head the night he killed himself. I played it to 2,500 kids: it started like a whisper, and then in perfect pitch, perfect rhythm, very softly, they all sang 'American Pie' with me. None of us in the crew had ever experienced anything like it. It was better to be a hooker than to be somebody's wife and get the shit kicked out of you all the time. As a wife you had no rights. At least as a mistress or a prostitute--in the old days--you could do all right. You could tell them when to put on their boxers and go. When I was growing up, it was a bit-it was disciplined. But it's good because, you know, I have things to write about; if [my father] would have been a dentist I don't know what I would have written about. Being a minister's daughter means you get really good poppy seed cake at Christmas time, and you get really wonderful dresses and things made by these really nice little old ladies. And you also get an incredible amount of confusion. But when you're 14 years old, and you don't know what your beliefs are, you're taking on everybody's beliefs around you and you're making them yours. And I'm not about the institutionalized Church. At all. [Trent Reznor's] life is dedicated to being an innovative and experimental musician. At 11 it seemed to me that my life was over. (In refrence to being kicked out of Peabody) There's such a lot of guilt to work through. I'm not totally free yet. Want a piece of fruit gum? Healing for me is being able to sit next to the butcher and say, 'Yes, I'm sitting next to the butcher now,' instead of saying 'There is no butcher.' Well, there definitely is one! Now, my idea of God is not the energy I'm confronting. I'm confronting the institution of God that we've been taught through Christianity, the one that kind of rules this planet as far as the media goes. Under The Pink is a place, it's an internal place. It's the inner world, the inner life. You have to listen from your stomach. To me it's there. But you've got to be willing to put your moccasins on and walk down the road. If you're downloading to make a profit, then you're going to have to live with the fact that you're a scumbag. My physical body has been divided from my spiritual body, divided from my emotional and my mental, because they're all warring in there. I'm just a little warring faction when I walk around, like Waterloo is happening in my kidneys! Where I come from, a cockroach is a roach, and a cockerel is a rooster because they can't bring themselves to say cock. Some of my lyrics upset my father. The whole Christian theology is that god came down to experience life through his son. Well, how's he experiencing life if he doesn't get laid? Give me a break. And why would he not get laid, as he created the apparatus in the first place? Of course he soiled his little dinky. I'm a grown woman. I've earned my experiences, my scars. It hurts me when a woman doesn't come through for me, more than a man. I'm not sane. I've listened to Ice-T quite a bit. He has a very clear opinion of women, and I don't necessarily agree with that, but L7 have a very clear opinion of men. Certain things do appeal to me more than other things. I can't be a boy with extra holes, right? Well, I guess if you cut my hands off, I couldn't play the piano anymore, but I'd still be a woman. Oh, I laugh my head off when some woman calls me a shivering waif in the forest. I'm like OK, sister, you get raped and get ready to get cut up, and then write about it and sing it. And you have the balls to call me a waif shivering in the forest. That to me is a lizard running around with a pussy. It's not a woman to me. She ruined her rights as a woman. I don't know about politics, but I know about thinking for yourself. A lot of people stand in different camps right now. One of the camps is, We are fucked, and we have no choice. We're fucked. I don't agree with that. I think we're choosing to be fucked, which is different. This ain't Rwanda. Helloooooo. Let's not have delusions of grandeur here. Know what I'm saying? There is a level of the vampire in me, which is OK. Our generation has an incredible amount of realism, yet at the same time it loves to complain and not really change. Because, if it does change, then it won't have anything to complain about. Men have periods too, they just don't bleed... You don't have to justify everything. Being pissed off is just absolutely okay. Eric and I were inseparable, and the truth is I don't care any less for him. We just agreed that we needed to go and be independent of each other. If you look at rock culture, there is very much a desire for the sacred bridegroom to die. The sacred brides don't die much. Janis Joplin is one of the very few. Even if you don't read history or you aren't interested in anything that happened before the '60s, there are reasons why we think the way we do. There are reasons why people are going crazy right now. I think my mom would like to tag along and have a dance with him (Lucifer) because she's been a minister's wife for so long! Let go and love, F*ck that sh*t! My heart is scarred. I have a tear running down the middle of it and I'm not ready to say, 'Let go and love.'" (A thought on Blood Roses) It's not a revenge record (Boys for Pélé) but a releasing record. I've been angry at myself, too, for getting into certain situations with men. Anger is healthy, but out of balance if it doesn't have compassion. Poppa [Tori's part-Cherokee grandfather] always said the South was so confusing because the it smells the sweetest after a lynching. That's because after a lynching the goddess cries and the honeysuckle never smelled sweeter. I've been a musician before I was a human. If somebody needs to collect a million pictures of me, well, then that's what they need to do. I mean, some people have baseball cards. I love fascinating men. But I am very much a one man woman. I am monogamous. I always have been. When I think about getting ready to cheat I know it's over. I am always drawn geographically to a place while I am writing. It doesn't matter where I am as long as there is a fat Italian cook near by. People can travel great distances on a computer, so why can't we travel that way emotionally? You can't have grace without the whores. When musicians challenge themselves, they therefore challenge their audience, and therfore the whole market gets challenged. When you do that, you have a lot of challenging music out there. Then the medium rises to another level. Musically, I always allow myself to jump off cliffs...that's what it feels like to me. I gave up trying to please others and started playing for myself, and because I love music, things naturally happened then. Funny how that works. If you're going to do a cover, it has to be a complete challenge. Being a minister's daughter, I had theology for breakfast, lunch and dinner. The biggest myth about fame is that it's gonna take away the pain. When I play live, I walk in feeling that we could go anywhere, reach any star system. Once I'm out there it's almost like I'm in a trance. I can get very physical too. When I don't have to answer to anybody, I feel I'm more ruthless. I mean, I could not put one more fishin' line in one more boy's pond. I don't hate men. I give equal time in my hate. It's acts of people that I hate. Whether they be men or women, it's their behavior that I hate. The songs kind of stalk me, and when I just throw a line on them to try and get them out of my life they become pretty vicious. They come in. They move in, and they insist. Because they won't accept me lessening them, just because I'm uncomfortable. ...I would find myself either the lovey-doveyest-woviest sweet pea, or a mad-woman. My strength isn't as a technician. My strength is as a composer. I believe in eating. I think women especially have this fear of eating, and I think there is a whole euphoric plane you can rise to when you have a good meal. You sit down and with every bite you honestly just say thank you. My songs have always been reflective of what is going on in my life at a particular time. There's the inner world which is a reflection of the outer world, and when you think of all the billions of worlds that are going on out there -- we are connected with that, we're not encouraged to think of our connection as why we are on this planet. Is our life just functional; is that all that is? Getting up, going to work, having kids, to just populate the planet? I mean there have to be reasons we do things... Whatever we do as consenting adults, there has to be a level of the heart. I was very influenced by these wonderful gay men who gave me the confidence to dress up, and taught me how to put on make-up, and gave me the courage on how to kiss a boy...They taught me how to become a young woman. They taught me about tenderness. I think it's good that I played clubs for so long because it makes you appreciate when people aren't pouring their martinis all over your piano. My commitment is to cross over that river, the river of victimhood. I'm writing the whole record in the tropics. It's great to watch the lizards and drink margaritas while you're writing. The humidity influences the whole rhythm of the songs - your hip sways differently and my left hand is not the same as it was before. It's so humid, as soon as you take a shower you regret it. I love the heat, although it's absolutely necessary to ship in a lot of French perfume. (On writing her new album) It's like I'm saying to the muse, 'Look, if you don't want my input, go to Jewel.' People are hardest on themselves. Vicious. Mad. To feel compassion for others, you have to feel compassion for yourself--somehow. Read, become self-aware, honor your body, be committed to tending your soul. Pick up books that inspire you. One of my favorites, Owning Your Own Shadow: Understanding the Dark Side of the Psyche by Robert Johnson. These songs (Boys For Pélé) are not about make-ups or break-ups. And they're not concerned about who is sleeping with whom. They're about the realization that you and the person you're with are talking different languages. They're about recognizing that an extreme kind of viciousness is being played out even as you exchange honeysuckle. They're about the things that go on in a woman's heart -- the things that are expressed and the things that have to remain hidden. They're about the breaking down of the patriarchy within relationships and the idea of women claiming their own power. Women have had to find ways to practice their art - by banging on the door. A lot of times you don't get in the door because you're banging too loudly. You have to find the crack in the wall. Then, instead of banging, somehow you melt yourself like honey and butter, and just run through to the other side. Seven years I would turn in tapes to record companies; after seven years of rejection of my own music, I believed them when they said, 'This girl-at-her-piano thing is never gonna happen...get a band, do metal, do dance, do whatever'--and I did them all. I had my limit of how much rejection I could take. I didn't believe in myself enough. (Tori on her Y Kant Tori Read/pre-Little Earthquakes years) The Peabody never taught me anything about women composers. There have been women composers for hundreds of years. Mozart's sister was quite an accomplished pianist, but her career was put aside. That's just the way it was. You have to be patient with it (the harpsichord)...which I never was in my relationships. When 'Y Kant Tori Read' bombed, I didn't have any respect for myself. I don't write when I've used too much of any kind of substance. You have to be quite conscious to go into your unconscious. Every song is the Holy Grail for me. If you really want a challenge, just deal with yourself. When all young people would start listening to their own voice instead of saying what adults say or whatever MTV dicatates, this would be a whole different planet. The music really comes from the ethers. It's not an intellectual process. You don't fuck to a metronome. I don't feel guilty when I'm at the piano. You can't change what happened. And nobody's asking you to forgive. But you can't associate all men with violence. Why be afraid of these cuddly, soft, adorable things? For a minute, I thought they were communicating with me. (Tori on the rats in her "God" video) I would sit and tell Bartok secrets. I would play him some John Lennon, and then I'd play something that I wrote and go, 'So this is what I wanted to tell you,' and then I'd play some of his music and feel like he was telling me something. I couldn't become the concert pianist the teachers and parents wanted me to become, she says. "I couldn't sit playing somebody else's music for 12 hours and be told that my interpretation was wrong and be OK with it. How do you know how Debussy would feel about my interpretation of his music?" My concept of the great spirit is not the controlling force that is in institutional religion. When I say God, I'm talking about judgments over thousands of years that are horrific - love your neighbor but do what we say or we'll rape your women. I have good days. Like if I get really good coffee ice cream with just the right amount of chocolate syrup. The term [feminist] has been linked selfishly with women's rights. If men and children are dishonored, we are dishonored too. Feminine energy, the principle of fertility and nurturing, is absent in our culture, but matriarchy isn't the answer, either. It's about balance. I wanted to take leaps as a musician and a composer, but the woman in me had to catch up. The woman wanted to play it safe. If I hadn't become a rock chick, I would be dead today, so long live hair spray. The fans, they write a lot of letters and are very interesting. It's amazing how many people out there have their own unique experience. I've begun to work with the extremes of my own personality, not with any shrink. It's real simple, I just observe...I observe when I feel like an idiot and I try to crack a joke. But I'm not an idiot; why do I need to see psychiatrists to see that. Fuck that, I'm not an idiot. I don't think it pays in a week or year for me. I don't want to live that way anymore. I have an audience now, my core audience, and we have made a silent pact. If I'm true and keep challenging myself, then they are interested. Obviously working with Robert Plant was a hoot. I almost wore my confirmation dress just for old times' sake. If there's a way to use the piano without it being the center of attention, I'd like to do that. She doesn't feel shafted by that role. I think there are alot of great female writers, but I don't think there are a lot of great female musicians. I was accepted at Peabody when I was 5, and the whole idea was to get me to read. The problem with getting me to read was - it was so frustrating, because they started me on `Hot Cross Buns,' and I could play scores of musicals by then. So, when you can play, you know, Rogers and Hart, or Gershwin, by ear - maybe not perfect, but, you know, you get the gist of `Summertime' - then you're going, `Hang on a minute. From `Summertime' to `Hot Cross Buns' is a far cry.' I think that happiness is when you can let yourself feel every emotion you want at any time instead of being a lying little fuck. I'm not into this dieting thing. Chics, more to love. I've got all this cream cheese and they're bring up some poppy seed bagels. I'm going smilin' baby, I'm going similin. It has crossed my mind maybe that the public doesn't want my ultimate. But I can't censor or contrive. I think I'm lucky to have skated through under the guise of pop musician. I'm really a classical musician. If I get found out now, if the whistle is blown...maybe that's not such a bad thing. I felt like I had relationships with these dead icons (classical music composers) that, to me, would have been just hanging out in a house with loads of people, making music and probably having sex with most of 'em. Their music became a champagne social thing, when these guys were the Nirvana of their day. I had a strange incident with a girl when I was eight. It was a bit violent, a bit sexual. She was a little older than me. She held me down on the bathroom floor, made me take my clothes off and fell on top of me. There are women now in my life I love and am in love with, but it hasn't got physical. I experienced it at such a young age, when I wasn't ready. A boundary was crossed. And maybe I drew a boundary, consciously. I come to share, a personal, a real personal secret together, and it's reciprocal. I get a lot back from that audience. I'm very, very dependent on the crowd, very dependent. I like the freedom of being alone because there's an intimacy that I develop with the audience that I wouldn't otherwise. I mean, they could just as easily bond with the drummer. And the more distractions I give them, the easier it is for them to avoid what I'm talking about. I know every note I sing. Every night I know, was that note higher than last night? But that's not the important thing. It's the listener that concerns me. It's intake and out-take. If the listener doesn't like what is going on, it's partly their fault. The B-sides, some of them are my favorite, to be honest. They just...the songs didn't want to go on the album. They all have different places where they want to go, and, uh, it's strange. It's like, if you were to imagine writing a book. Chapter 7 is Chapter 7, and so it wouldn't fit in another book. I've heard a popular movie director scoff at the idea of the 'inner child'. This is nothing to scoff at. We are made of many different fragments. If these fragments aren't dealt with, we'll all end up in a looney bin. I wanna be burned....definitely burned, like the witches. There has to be a place where you allow yourself to go, You know, that's how I really felt." There has to be a safe place where you allow yourself that freedom. So, I do it in music." I don't prow the night looking for boy blood like I was doing for a while. I realized that what was most important to me was following my own path, and not the one laid down for me by others. If you haven't fallen on your face, then I really don't want to know you, because you haven't lived. I mean that's part of my natural archives, thoses experiences. And I've got some archives. You have something to write about when you have lived. And living is....you have to try things. Um, don't get me wrong because I love boys, it's just that sometimes we don't need you. There are things that I refuse to deal with except through my music...because I don't trust humanity that much, and I don't know if I trust me that much. But I trust the songs. You can never believe what you are up to when you're up to it, of course. I want to bite people's butts when they hear my record, and I want people to want to bite other people's butts when they hear it. -Tori on her upcoming 1998 album I think that they were kind of hoping that I would be Neneh Cherry if they just turned their backs...to put it mildly, they were very disappointed - Tori on her early struggles with Atlantic Records Pretty is never beautiful. I've never felt anything that moves me as much as my piano. I'm an emotional player. I don't really like people. I prefer my piano to people. It's totally reliable and it's alive. I can hear what it's saying. For the most part, piano are female to me. Sometimes they're dykes, and they're always good fun. Each song has a little soul, a little persona, it's own little birth certificate and favorite shoe shops. When I started watching my behavior and seeing how I would control people, and how they would control me, it was awareness. I want awareness more than anything, and part of awareness is being able to honor the part of you that's Lady Macbeth. My vioce came with age. I was no Shirley Temple. It took years and years to develop. Like you know some little kids have great voices at first but get worse later? Well, I was the opposite. I was a rebel for such a long time...to the point where I put on these sexual shows for the sake of shock value. I'm tired of being a rebel. Now I just want to be me. Give the kids tools, so they can go build their own houses; not the blueprint of what the houses should be. So I'm in Virginia, and I had crabs...I keep saying that! I had crab sickness, I had eaten bad crabs in Maryland! We all have creative gifts. My circuitry doesn't work for scientific thing. I'm not helpful when somebody's sick or ill, but I can help with an emotional something. That's why I can't avoid the subject totally, because it is what it is. I'm very aware that there's such a world out there that exists as thoughts that you can tap into if you can...it's the only way I know how to talk. I mean, I don't use crystal suppositories every day...just on Tuesdays. It's hard not to notice a girl with two-foot hair and plastic snakeshin boots up to her thighs, unfortunately. That's what my band, Y Kant Tori Read, was all about. I left home at 21 and I was off to the races. Well, women and music have been around for a couple hundred years now, but men have mainly dominated it. You'll have a few women popping out in art or literature, but being a female musician is tough. Something comes up like bubbles to the surface, bringing up another part of ourselves that has been silent; that we were in the dark about. Lurking. Nightmares aren't my favorite thing. I want to feel safe, period. My soul wants to feel safe not terrorized. I really respect anybody who stands by their truth. Being exposed to the gay community at 13 would change my views forever. I've played a lot of universities...they're real thinkers. They talk about stuff, they yell things out at the concert, and we have a little chat. They know that they're the future; I wanna play to them because they're the future. I wish we could go in a time capsule to a Sunday dinner at my home. You'd think these people are so warm, but boy do you disagree with them. When I was very little I got into trouble for wondering if Jesus had a thing going with Mary Magdalene. My God, you guys, she's 21. Let her fit into tight pants. Let her explore and grow. I did. What is this you're not allowed to explore? Look at me now. I'm breast feeding pigs. It's about draining you of your passion. Thats what religion is about; cutting off the physical from the spiritual. What gives it to you? Does this rush, this being in love, meeting someone that has it? You want to be close, you want to be near them? No. You can feed off them for a while, but in the end, you're just a vampire. Once you get to know sad...she's got some sweet little dresses, you know? Lucifer understands love better than anybody. You know he's done a mean tango with Greta Garbo a few times. - A name holds an energy, like anything else. Look at 'Ruby Tuesday'. I think Talula is about rhythm and tone and sensuality. It ain't fucking Catherine. There's something in there about West Indian dance. And yet it's a very classic name too. Talula really just started to represent all women to me; women that let themselved dance for themselves. Do you know what it's like to be a girl and have blood running down your legs and think that you're dying, just because no one's told you that's what happens? It's horrible. I know I'm not like a picnic in the city on Sunday; but when you wake up one morning and you are making these gingerbread muffins for breakfast and you are dropping razor blades into them just to see how he reacts, you have to pull back and say, 'hang on a minute.' And that's really where the record (Boys For Pélé) stems from. It's from being a woman alone and not being able to hide behind anyone else's personality. I strarted finding the people inside me; the prostitute that's really angry because I judged her so harshly, the self-righteous virgin who knows everything about sex and has never made love. I'm a road dog, I love being on the road. I mean there have been times that I have had to go head to head with people, one of those shoot out kinda things. Definitely a high noon situation. Sometimes the relationship has just fallen apart because you have drawn your line. I am getting a bit better at that, drawing my line. I will go this far, but I cannot compromise what I really feel. You know how when you do something that goes against honoring yourself, it makes you feel sick in your stomach. You get heart burn. It's like if you had green chili, sausage, eggs, catsup, and Doritoes on white Wonder Bread. Yeah, it feels like that. I'm begining to accept and love the parts of me, of women that I was trained to hate all my life. Particualrlly the bad girl I can still be. I just want to play it like it is. Whether mankind or womankind has created what god has become, the point is it's a very strong force that has divided us within ourselves. I mean religion has divided the whole planet. |
