Donna pulled into her driveway that Friday afternoon and saw her
boy-friend's black
Walking into the house,
she was surprised to find the kitchen empty and the rest of the house silent.
Leaving her purse on the kitchen counter, she kicked off her heels and headed
upstairs to change clothes. When she flicked on the light, she was startled to
see Kevin lying on her bed. "Damn, baby. You scared me..."
"Sorry," Kevin
replied holding out his arms. "Wanna join me?"
Donna took off her jacket
and leaned back into Kevin's strong arms. She loved the feel of his tight chest
against her back as he pulled her hair aside and kissed her neck. Unbuttoning
her shirt, he slid one of his hands over her breasts while the other hand
inched up the inside of her thigh. "Don't start anything you can't finish,
Kevin stood up and pushed
Donna down onto her back playfully. "Don't tempt me."
Donna sat up, took her
blouse off, and tossed it to the floor decide the bed. Kevin unhooked her bra
and slid her skirt and panties down her long, tan legs. Before he could pull
his t-shirt over his head, Donna had his windpants
and gray boxers around his knees. Stepping out of them, he laid
down on top of her and kissed her hungrily.
"Baby, I've been
dreaming about you all day," Kevin said sexily. "Do you know what I
want to do to you?"
"Show me."
Donna raised her leg to Kevin's side and he entered her forcefully, causing
Donna to cry out. Her nails dug into his back as he pushed deeper inside her.
Kevin moaned as he ground
himself harder against her body. Her cries of pleasure were exciting him to no
end and he was about to lose control. He buried his face in her neck, licking
and biting at her skin as they moved together in perfect rhythm.
Donna slid her hand down
to Kevin's hip and felt him lace his fingers into hers. When he squeezed her
hands she opened her eyes. He was biting his bottom lip, completely lost in the
moment.
Kevin moaned as he pushed
himself farther into Donna roughly, causing her whole body to shake. She
wrapped her legs around his waist to pull him closer as he continued to move in
and out of her wildly. They had never been this untamed before and now they
could contain themselves no longer. He bit down on her neck and she couldn't
keep herself from screaming. Together they got louder...and louder...and
louder...
Kevin brought his lips
back to Donna's and gave her a long, lingering kiss. Their eyes locked and they
came together. Donna's hips raised at the feel of him
spilling into her. Kevin kissed her again and placed his head on her chest, not
bothering to move. He ran his hand over her breast and kissed her collarbone as
she played with his damp hair.
"I think that was
better than any movie," he said softly. "What got into us?"
"I don't know, but I
liked it."
Kevin gazed at Donna
adoringly. "I love you, do you know that?"
"I love you, too,
baby," Donna whispered.
After a few minutes,
Kevin rolled over and stood up. "Come on, Boo," he said after he
kissed Donna. "Let's go eat that dinner I cooked."
Kevin slid his windpants back on and threw his t-shirt back on over his
head. Donna put on his boxers and the sweatshirt he had worn the night before.
It still smelled like his cologne. After she tied her hair back, she and Kevin
walked downstairs hand-in-hand.
"You fix the glasses
and everything, baby, and I'll get the movie ready. I borrowed one from A.J.
tonight. 'Cruel Intentions' or something like that."
A shiver went down Donna's
spine at the mention of A.J.'s name. "Don't think about the past,"
she told herself in an effort to calm herself down. She set to work fixing
their food. Kevin had made Chili, her favorite.
"I'm gonna go ahead
and start it, baby," Kevin yelled from the living room. Donna froze and
almost dropped the tray when she heard the sounds coming from the t.v.
"Whoa! I think A.J.
gave me the wrong video!" Kevin said with a laugh. "Look at him and
that poor girl. I know she had to hurt later." Kevin got up to stop the
tape, but something made him freeze in his tracks.
On the screen, the two
bodies shook together, their noises nearly drowning out the loud music and the sould of A.J.'s headboard banging against the wall. She and
A.J. rolled over and the girl sat up on top of him. A.J. grunted and moaned
under her as she scratched his bare chest with her long nails.
He held her hips tightly,
lifting her up and slamming her back down onto him. As A.J. kept ramming into
her body violently, she yelled out in a mixture of pleasure and extreme pain.
Throwing her head back, she screamed, "A.J., baby, fuck me harder!'
A.J. sank his fingers
into her waist and slammed her down, rocking her whole body back and forth.
They moved harder and faster until A.J. came with a loud, raspy groan. The
girls' violent climax wasn't far behind. She continued to move her hips roughly
against A.J.'s body as she moaned and screamed his name.
Kevin's jaw dropped to
the floor. The whole scene was shot from behind the girl but he would know that
body anywhere. He would never forgive himself for not recognizing the voice
earlier. "Donna, this is you..."
Donna, still standing in
the kitchen, put the tray down on the counter and turned around to look at
Kevin through the doorway. She didn't know where to begin explaining or what to
say.
"Tell me I'm seeing
things, Donna. Is that really you?" Kevin's eyes began to water as he
waited for her to respond.
Unable to speak, she
nodded her head. Sobbing, she blurted, "Kevin, I'm so sorry. That was such
a long time ago; please listen to me! I am so sorry!"
"I really want to
believe you," Kevin said softly, "But that tape didn't look very
convincing, Donna. And now I don't know who to be more upset with, A.J. for
doing the things he did to you or you for letting him. Why couldn't you have
just told me yourself instead of letting me find out like this?"
"Kevin, we never
meant for it to be this way. That was over a year ago and I haven't been with
him since."
"Was that the only
time?" Kevin spoke so quietly that Donna could hardly hear him.
"No," she
answered, casting her gaze to the floor. "But it was the last time, Kevin.
I swear. I finally woke up and realized how good you were to me and how muck I
was putting at risk for something so meaningless with A.J. And I realized I
love you too muck and I just couldn't do it anymore. I've felt guilty ever
since. And I know it doesn't make everything okay, but I hate myself for what
I've done. Kevin, I love you more than anything."
Kevin tried to blink away
tears as he looked at her. He wanted desperately to believe her, but he just
couldn't. And he wouldn't allow himself to go fall into the arms of the woman
he loved more than life itself because he didn't know if she loved him anymore
or ever really loved him at all. That thought hurt him worse than anything she
could ever say or do.
"Donna, for the past
two-and-a-half years of my life you've been the most important thing in
it." Tears spilled from Kevin's eyes as he spoke. "I put you on a
pedestal and I worshipped you. I more than love you, Donna, even after what I
saw tonight."
Kevin stopped to wipe his
eyes before he went on. "What happened between us upstairs tonight
actually meant something to me. Every time I have ever made love to you has
meant something to me. I used to think that you felt the same way, but I'm not
so sure anymore."
"Kevin, I am so
sorry. It was a stupid mistake that cost me the most valuable thing that I
possessed: your love and trust in me." Donna let out a choked sob.
"Kevin, please don't tell me that you're leaving me."
"Donna, I just need
some time to sort all this out. I do still love you and you're a part of my
life that I'm not gonna give up, but I just can't be around you right now. You
will never know how bad this hurts." Kevin looked at her, his face wet
with tears. He wanted just to hold her close and make everything alright, but
he had to clear his mind first. He turned to leave and shut the door quietly
behind him.
Outside the door, he
heard Donna's sobs of sorrow. He knew she was slumped against the front door
with tears streaming down her face. Pressing both hands and his forehead to the
cool glass he let his tears flow freely. It broke his heard that he couldn't
kiss these tears away but this problem wouldn't just vanish. Taking one final
glance through the window, he pulled himself away from the door to leave.
