When I awoke in the position I put myself and her in once she was asleep. I couldn’t get last night out of head. I lay there just thinking of the beauty of it all and her smell drifted around me. I inhaled letting the sweet sent of her femininity inside me.
Then out of nowhere the circumstances came back I was getting married in less than 6 months to Leighanne Wallace, Emily wasn’t in the picture. At least not until now. This made things very complicated. The ceiling turned into my future. Could I just forget Em and continue my life. I think not-that would mean to stop interaction with her. Even if we were just friends, it’d end up like this. Its the effect we have on each other. I hate to admit it but she was intriguing, interesting , and easy to love. Last night was incredible, unlike anything I had ever experienced. It was innocent but at the same time guilty and didn’t care at all. I chastised myself for thinking back to that. I had to decide something.
I noticed she had awakened on my chest. I looked down at the woman in my arms, the one I had eagerly let into my life and this situation. I hated myself for it too. As bad or as experienced as she thought she was, she was naïve and innocent. Her deep blue eyes expressed that as we locked eyes. Her eyes pleaded for something to show I didn’t hate her. I quickly looked away. She had figured out why I’m sure.
“Do you wanna leave?” she asked her voice barely above a whisper.
“I dunno.” I honestly said looking at her again.
“If I let you leave, will you keep in touch?” She asked this time her voice stronger.
“You should know as well as I do it can’t be in person.” I replied with.
“Will you at least call me.” she begged with emotion. I shouldn’t have gotten her into this, AJ was so right. This was wrong.
“Yeah.” I said. I at least owed her that much.
“I got to go” I said. She nodded as if she understood. I hated leaving her there. I looked back as I was exiting. She had sat up and was twisting the sheet and looking down. Seeing that made me feel even worse. How could I have done such a thing? I called AJ in the car.
“Hello-hello!” He cheerily greeted.
“AJ get your ass down to my house.” I said angrily. Angry at his happiness when I felt so torn.
“Attitude needs work this morning Bri, but sure I’ll be there.” He replied. I was glad he didn’t get defensive. But I wasn’t known to have a temper so I’m sure he understood.
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