“ Hey Nick” I said as his eyes looked to me. He tried to talk but couldn’t because the respirator was still in his throat.
“ Don’t talk” I said as Nick looked at the pad of paper and I handed it to him. He wrote down what he wanted and handed it back to me. I read it and looked up at me.
“ What do you mean by what am I doing here? I’m here because I’m your friend” I said as Nick looked at me. He took the pad away from me and wrote some thing else down. He wrote something else down and handed it back to me. I read it and looked back at Nick as tears filled my eyes.
“ I know I wasn’t there Nick, Do you want me to get the doctor to take the respirator out so we could talk normally?” I asked as he nodded and I walked out of the room. I got Dr. Martinez and brought him into the room.
“ Hello Mr. Carter I’m Dr. Martinez” He said as he was about to pull out the tube, “On 3 I want you to breath out”. Nick nodded in agreement.
“ 1..2..3” Dr.Martinez said as he pulled the tube out of Nick’s throat and he tried to catch his breath. Dr. Martinez walked out of the room as I looked back at Nick.
“ How could you do it?” I asked as Nick looked at me.
“ Do what?” He asked his voice small, he didn’t look me in the eyes because he knew what I was talking about.
“ Try to kill yourself!” I said my voice rising.
“ You don’t know how it is Brian! Watching the people who abandon you do what you loved more than anything!” Nick yelled. I looked at his eyes which were a dark blue.
“ No I don’t know but you could of called me instead of taking cocaine and getting drunk everyday!” I yelled as I saw AJ open his eyes.
“ I had no choice Brian I shouldn’t of been the one to call you when it should have been your job, you’re my friend isn’t that what friends are for?” He said as tears came to my eyes. I saw AJ look at me and I looked at Nick then walked out of the room. I walked back to Kevin’s room and start to cry, everything he said was true and it hurt so much. Was I really the one who did this to him and our friendship?
