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*pAiN*
No one really seems to care
How you wish the people you love would be there
Treated like you're nothing everyday
Wanting to die, to be far away
From all the people that have let you down
Say they love you, but leave if they see you frown
They say that you just want attention
Making you feel like you could from another dimension
You stare at the blade
Watching it shine
The way to escape, you find
Questions running through your mind
Will anyone care?
My funeral, anyone going to be there?
Ah, fuck it
They treat you like shit
You pick it up and slice your wrist
No happy times, you can miss
You sit and watch yourself bleed
Hoping your attempt, does succeed

*GoodBye*
Knife in hand
Expressionless face
It was the end
She wanted to go
To a different place
Many bad things gone wrong in her past
Abandonement as a child, abused as a kid
Misunderstood as a teen
She did not want it to last
The end was near
But death, she did not fear
How she would say goodbye to her friends
Telling them
That this was the end

*If Only They Could See*
No one really understands me
If only they could see
How I feel
That now life, to me, isn't such a big deal
There really isn't much to live for
Since my life is such a bore
No one really cares about me
If only they could see
How it would be like to spend a day in my shoes
How me not being here, isn't much for them to losse
They don't know how I feel, most of them,
I wouldn't consider a friend
I hope what I used to fear is coming soon, the end
If only they knew
All the things I have to go through
Then they could see
What it would be like to be me
Maybe they would be able to understand....
...If only they could see

*Why*
Why are we here?
That is what I would like to know
Why do we go through all this pain?
And the things that cause us shame?
That is what I would like to know
Why are we here with all this hate?
This can't be our one true fate?
That is what I would like to know
Why must we endure all this abuse?
Trying to get help, but what's the use?
No one ever listens
No one ever cares
So, why are we here?

*Revenge*
Darkness
Sadness
Self-Mutilation
All this depression
ALways crying
everyone's lying
to me
why can't they see?
they think its all in fun
I wish i had a gun
then they would see
to stop messing with me

*I Wish You'd Understand*
I thought we were friends
But I guess I was wrong
I wish we could've worked this out
Apparently, this is your way of saying so long
I never did anything to hurt you
Seeing that I didn't have an urge to
I don't understand why you're treating me like this
Our fun times, I'm really going to miss
I culd always tell you what was on my mind
And not worry what you would say
I feel as if you're just leaving me behind
And pushing me away
You don't understand that I'll always be here for you
Especially if you ever need someone to talk to
I'm not going to blame you for any of my problems
Because I know you have enough of your own
I'm not sure whats bothering you, but I wish you'd
talk to me instead of wanting to be alone
I know you're not going to care about any of this
I just thought you should know how I feel
And you not being my friend, is a big deal

*Alone*
Just want to be left alone
No one to say they don't care
No one to lie to me, saying they'll always be there
No one to turn their backs on me
Just want to be left alone
Thinking of the reasons why I'm here
Thinking of things that I fear Thinking of all the people that have let me down
Just want to be left alone
Feeling like I don't beling
Feeling as if I just hit the bong
Feeling of what to do now
Just want to be left alone Locking out all the people that make me cry
Locking out what they do best, lie
Locking out what makes me crazy
Just want to be left alone
Isolating myself from what I can't bare
Isolating myself from the things that don't seem fair
Isolating myself from the world
Just want to be left alone
Not a person in sight
To see what I'm going to do tonight
End all my pain and suffering
Just want to be left alone

*If You Only Knew*
If you only knew.....
What I'm willing to give up
Just to hold you
If you only knew...
How much I'm willing to lose
Just to be with you
If you only knew
How much I care
How much I'd like to be there
If only you would let me
But you don't care
How you affect
Another's life
It's like I was never there
Nonexistant
In your life
I meant nothing to you
The things you said
Meant nothing to you
Just more lies
But they meant nothing to you
If you only knew
What I would've done for you

*Broken*
You were different from other guys and had stolen my heart
I thought that we would never ever be apart
I thought you were perfect in every way
For some odd reason, I still think that to this day
You said you'd be back in a couple of hours
But when you left, you didn't say goodbye or leave any flowers
I felt so sad what you left and never came back
I felt so sad when you left and never came back
Now I know it is the feeling of love that you lack
I feel like the end is near
But it is not death that I fear
It is the thought of moving on, being without you
Seeing that I thought our love was strong and true

*I Wish...*
I don't want to live like this anymore
I wish I could just shut my door
And lock out all the things I hate
They say I need help, but I think its too late
Kicking, screaming, pulling hair
All this abuse, I cannot bare
Why can't it all just end?
Anyone have a good life they could lend?
It would be greatly appreciated
But that's one thing I've always hated
People have parents that are always there
Parents that actually care
They take them for advantage and treat them like shit
Most of them too naive to realize it
I wish I had parents that were there
Parents who actually care
That would listen to my problems everyday
Telling me how everything was going to be okay
That wouldn't yell at me for something small
And would't say I was busy when someone would call
I imagine this all the time
But of course, this is just a stupid little rhyme

*Mommy Dearest*
Mommy, how could you have done this to me?
Why don't you open your eyes and try to see?
All this pain you have caused
All these lies and all the same
You must think it's all a game
Or maybe you think it's all a dream
And can just wake up for it to go away
But you do need to wake up
You think you can just have a kid here
And not take of them there
One day, you'll hopefully realize it
To stop treating me like shit
You think you could just get away
Run away from all your problems
Hope it doesn't come up
But eventually, it will all come back
To haunt you one day
Why did you leave me?
Why can't you just see!?
All the hurt you have caused
Mommy, how could you have done this to me?

*Why Am I Here?*
Why am I here?
Just so people can make fun of me?
So guys can cheat on me?
Make me feel like shit
I guess that mist be it
All I ever feel is the pain people put me through
Is there anyone at all that can treat me like I mean something?
If so, who?
I just want someone who could be there
To say that they actually care
Someone to talk to when I'm feeling down
Hopefully make me smile instead of frown
Someone to make me feel like I have something to live for
Someone to tell me there is more...
More to my pathetic life than all this
That there will be good things to look forward to
But like I said before
No one ever listens
No one ever cares
So why am I here?

*The Betrayal*
You said how much you care
How you understand everything I told you
You said that you'd be there
When I needed someone to talk to
You said how I could trust in you and you're not like everyone else
You'd always tell me that you wouldn't turn your back
I guess it's the feeling of kindness that you must lack
I've lost you now and had lost you once before
You've lied to me in the past
I just brushed it off and pretended that my feelings didn't really matter
I was hoping this betrayal wouldn't last
I guess our friendship was never meant to be
Because then you wouldn't be hurting me
I tried not to let this bother me, but I couldn't deal with it anymore
Now I just lock my door
And throw away the key
Because I know you'll never miss me

*Jessica*
You were the only one I was able to talk to
I'm so glad a person like me, could have a great friend like you
I could always count on you when I needed someone there
When I would tell you my problems, you didn't turn
your back but said that you did care
Every friendship has it's ups and downs
Luckily, when we got in a fight, it didn't end up in frowns
We always did things together, we'd laugh, we'd cry
I knew that I could trust you and you wouldn't lie
I hope our friendship lasts forever and we never grow apart
But if we lose contact, I hope you'll always keep a special place for me in your heart