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*Mike*
You're in my thoughts
You're in my dreams
Not a day goes by, without me thinking
Of how you and me were meant to be
You can always cheer me up
When I'm feeling down
You make me smile instead of frown
I'm glad a person like me could find someone like you
I'm just hoping that you feel the same way too
I hope we'll be together for a long, long time
And I know I'll be embarrassed if I give you this rhyme
But I know you won't laugh at me
Because we were meant to be

*Like You*
You were nice to me in every way
I tried talking to you everyday
You were a great friend to me
So maybe we were meant to be
You have qualities I have never seen in any other guy
You make me laugh so hard I could almost cry
You were never boring to talk to
Maybe that's why I started liking you
I hope that we can stay friends forever
When I talked about my problems, you wouldn't say whatever
I was never unhappy when I was around you
Seeing that our friendship is so true
I hope I never lose such a great friend like you

*Screaming*
Screaming
Hitting
Blaming
Never trusting
Always wanting
Wanting to be happy
Wanting there to be no pain
Can't take it anymore
No way out
Suicide attempts failing
Running out of things to do
Driving me crazy
Losing my mind
No way out
Can't take it anymore
Wanting there to be no pain
Wanting to be happy
Always wanting
Never trusting
Blaming
Hitting
Screaming

*Too Many Questions*
I sit here and think to myself
All I can do is question myself
Why do I always cry?
Why does it seem as if my life is a lie?
I don't know what to do
How to act
Or how to feel
Why do I make things seem like such a big deal?
Why must I have thoughts of suicide running in my head?
Why can't I just be happy?
And not wish I were dead?
Why do I go back to the ones that hurt me?
Say they love me, but why can't they show me?
Why do I always feel like the off one out?
Why do I always have to be full of doubt?
Why am I always there for people,
But they can't be there for me?
Why do I always f*** things up for myself?
Too confused to help myself
Why can't you be here for me?
To show if you care about me?
Just to listen to what I have to say
Not criticize me everyday
Why can't you be my should to cry on?
Why can't you be the one. . .
The one to wipe my tears away?
And make all my troubles seem to float away
Make everything in the world feel so right
Tell me you care and hold me tight
Why can't I find someone like you?
And let these words I say come true
...Please come true...

*Confusion Has Taken Over*
I hate this feeling I have for you
Seeing that the things you say, aren't true
How could I be so naive
Believing when you say you care
Believing when you say you'd be there
Why can't I just forget about you?
Why can't I get rid of this feeling for you?
You let me down
When I needed you the most
You turned away
When I needed you the most
I wish you could understand
How much I care about you
But I messed up again
So now nothing could ever happen
You may not care, when I say I'm sorry
But believe me when I do
Because Josh....
I don't want to lose you

*Feeling*
Feeling like you've never belong
Feeling like everything's gone wrong
As if you've lost all that you ever had
In the blink of an eye
So many painful thoughts
So many happy memories
Just makes you want to cry
You're so confused and don't know what to do
Should you find a better place and get away?
Or face all the things you fear the most, and stay?
Not knowing what to do
Wanting to disappear forever
Like you never existed

*Better Place*
Cold hands
Pale face
Soft smile
Not a grin
Deep sadness
A broken heart
When the Angel of Death
Had pulled them apart
But a small smile formed on his face
For she had entered
A better place

*Why Your Life Sucks*
Your friends treat you like you're nothing
They joke about you and you eat it up like its your last meal
Obviously they don't really care how you feel
The guy you love, broke your heart again
You wish he'll change his mind and talk to you
But you know that it'll never happen
You try to talk to people, but all they do is lie
You feel as if suicide is your only way out
Could this just be a cry?
A cry for attention is what they all say
They don't understand what you go through everyday
They only care about themselves
And don't care about no one else
They'll regret it in the end
They'll receive the consequences
But for now, you have to suffer
And there's no way out

*Dear Mike:*
I'll always be here for you
Even if you don't want me to
I'll be the listening ear for you to confide in
I'll keep all your secrets deep within
I won't be the one to betray you
I know others have done this to you
I'll be the one to give you advice to help you along your way
Whenever you need someone to talk to, I'm here, night and day
I'll be the one to pick you up instead of let you down
I'll be the one to help you smile, not frown
I know I've hurt you in the past
I just hope your hatred for me doesn't last
I just didn't realize how much our relationship meant to you
Now that we're not together, I can see how much I need you
I just want you to know I'll do anything for you
I'll do anything you want, I'll even change for you
I may not be everything you expect
Everything I've done before, I really do regret
I pushed away the one person that meant the most in my life
I just hope I can make it through all the pain and strife
I hope you remember all we've been through
Remember the "Post Office"? Cuz I do Yeah, it may be korny now but who does care? At least a happy memory remains there
I'm just hoping you'll give "us" another try
If not, I'll understand and try my hardest not to cry
I know cutting myself has always been an issue
But you know I'll stop, just for you
It's just hard for me to deal with all the pain I feel I take it out on myself, but when I was with you, happiness is all I could feel
I'll throw out the razor blades, no suicidal thoughts in my head
No more thinking I'd be better off dead
This is one thing I can promise you
Because I'll do anything for you

~Love Always~
Christine

*Day by Day*
All these lies just ripping my apart
Feelings of suicide make me want to depart
Can't trust anyone now
Pushing everyone away now
I'm just running through a maze with no way out
Can't go back, just another dead end, without a doubt
Nowhere to turn, can't even see the sun
Can't talk to anyone
Just a swirling world that never stops going around
Standing in a room screaming, but no sound
No one can understand me
If only one person could see
All the shit I put up with everyday
Trying to keep sane, day by day

*Goodbye: The End*
I'd like to say goodbye to all my friends
Let's just say that some stories, like this, have tragic ends
Sorry if I hurt any of you
I'm sure you'll understand this is something I had to do
Goodbye to Carly, Doug and Chad Lowe
I'm really sorry I had to go
I love you guys always, keep me in your heart
I'm afraid to say it, but we must depart
I just don't want to feel like this anymore
I wish things could just be like before...
No frowns, only happy thoughts in my head
NO thinking of wanting to be dead
Goodbye to Josh Leake, even though we couldn't get along
Too bad things had to go so wrong
I'll always think of you as my brother
Just you alone and no one other
Oh, goodbye to Mike Welch too
You thought I was crazy. . .
Guess you were right
The crazy thing I did, was falling in love with you
I wish it didn't have to end like this
Hope the good times...aren't hard to miss
I just don't want anyone to think about me
I'm gone forever and out of your lives
So just let this be.

*Josh *
Running through my mind
Are thoughts of you
Where did I ever find
A friend like you?
Where would I be
Without a friend like you?
We've had our good times and bad
You always manage to make me smile
When I'm feeling sad
I'm glad our friendship has lasted this long
Hope we can stay friends forever
And nothing else goes wrong
If we don't ever talk again
Remember I'll always be here for you
If you ever need someone to talk to
Cuz Brotha, I'll always love you!

*You know*
I know there's something on your mind
Something that you hide
Something that I want to find
You keep it deep inside
So no one can see
How you truly feel
You know you can tell me
You know I'll try my best
To understand how you feel
So just tell me
Let me know what you hide
Tell me what is on your mind
Tell me what you keep locked up deep inside
You know how much I care
You know that I'll always be there
When you need someone to tell your secrets to
When you need someone to cry to
You know I"ll be here
When you need somone near
To listen to what you have to say
And I'll never look away
I'll bever betray you
Because I love you