penned by Faye
When he found out I had heard the news before he could tell me himself he called saying he would be right over. I slammed down the phone. NO!!! Not again, He would not do this to me again. He had done this before. I would put up with it no more!
How many times had he told me he loved me. How many times had he said and sung those words to me in so many ways. Then turn around and announce he was with someone else. NO! I wouldn't let him get away with it again. Not this time.
My mind was whirling with a mass of confusing emotions when I heard a knock at my door. I cracked the door open with the latch key still attached. There he stood looking at me with those big sad eyes that were asking for forgiveness once more. I darted my eyes to look elsewhere and shouted , "No!"
I tried to slam the door shut but he grabbed it pushing from the other side against me. With all my might I tried to close it. Pushing as hard against him as I could. But he was stronger and held fast. He was trying to reach in and grab the latch . I fought with his hand hitting him as hard as I could yelling at him to stop and go away. But he didn't stop. Unable to reach the latch enough he started pounding on the door slamming his body heavy against it. I yelled at him to go away and leave me alone. I told him my heart couldn't take this anymore.
That's when he burst through the door breaking the latch and slammed the door shut behind him. I started to run, but he grabbed me by my arms and slammed me against the back of the door pinning me to it. He began kissing with those soft lips I had always ached for. His tongue trying to force it's way into my mouth as it had done so many times before. This time I didn't respond in return. Pushing him off me I began shaking my head no at him. I tried to cover my ears as he starting telling me he loved me and needed me. Managing to wiggle free from his grasp I started running. He was begging me now. Pleading in that voice I loved so dearly to not push him away. I was fighting back tears now as I continued to fight him. Knowing I had told myself I would not cry in front of him. But the tears were falling now . It was too late.
My body was shaking and my strength was fading as my emotions were running rapid with confusion. I know I should end it. I knew he would probably do it to me again. I knew I should run as far away as possible from him.
He grabbed me again pulling me down to the carpeted floor coming down hard on top of me. Pinning me to the floor looking straight into my eyes. I should of closed mine. But instead I looked directly into them. Eyes that told me he loved me no mater what. Eyes that pleaded and asked for my continued love. I was looking into the eyes of the one who owed my heart. And I knew there was no escape. As he started kissing me again. This time I responded as our tongues roamed within each other. I gasped for air as he stopped long enough to began to pull off his clothes making me feast my eyes at his body once more. No matter what I knew I couldn't deny I wanted him.
His mouth started devouring my neck as he started roughly pulling at my clothes. Tearing them in his haste he pushed his legs between my legs . I tried to not want this. Trying to put other thoughts in my head . Thoughts of anger at him and her. I held my breath as his hand made it's way between my legs as well. Stroking roughly and making me wet despite my confusion of thoughts. He kissed me hard and I found myself kissing him in return.. I gasped as felt his hardness push itself into me taking me hard and fast. My body betrayed me as my wetness made it easy for him as he slammed in and out of me. Making me groan and grab his back in return. My hands began pushing his hips into me deeper and harder. We continued to ram into one another groaning loudly until we exploded within each other.
Exhausted he lay on top of me. I began stroking the back of his hair as his hands were stroking my back underneath. The love I felt was undeniably strong for this man. Such is the madness of loving Alexander Mclean.
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