4/5/04 | |
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Not that it's ruining my life or anything...
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3/2/04 | |
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Sorry i didn't update sooner, but i didn't think it was that important since, as the link says, i have no evidence anybody is reading this thing anymore. I appreciate everybody's feedback and thoughts on the new format and ideas for making the page better. Oh, wait, nobody said ANYTHING.
It's probably cause it's just too difficult to leave a comment or e-mail. I mean, if i had a livejournal or Xanga page it's a lot easier, you just click on the link at the bottom of the post and type in your short little comment. Oh wait.... I DO THAT TOO! Don't think i'm upset, i just think there wasn't enough easy access ways to leave a comment or e-mail. So to fix this problem, i've littered this entry with links to do so. Just to make it easier for you, cause i care about your feedback so much and i can't improve if you don't tell me how. That aside, i decided to update since my counterpart did just a few hours ago. As you can see, i had some ice cream..... and that's about it for my life as of now i think.
Oh yeah, chorus field trip, what you need to know is a wore a tux, and that's all that's really important. We got high scores, which kinda surprised me a bit, but that infromation is secondary to the fact that i was wearing a tux and some swave shades. Maybe i'll put a pic up later.
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2/25/04 | |
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Cowabunga! i dumped all the previous entries back to another site again as well as taking on a few old and new features for my journal entries!
As you'll notice, i decided the color scheme of my original entries was superior (if only by a little bit) so i switched back. I kept the trimmed out backgrounds, the option of enlarging the mood pictures, and the comment link from the entries just past. And indeed, i still don't capitalize most of my "i"s when referring to myself. I wanted to add more features but i couldn't think of anything particularly cool at the time, so i'll be working on it. I also rediscovered the half-made web-SITE i had been making since before this journal was even around; in fact, this journal was originally just a branch of the site that somehow became the only page. There's actually a very good chance i will bring that site to life again if enough people are interested... E-mail me to tell me how you like or dislike the changes or make suggestions for this new slew of journal entries. If i can do it, it'll happen. Recently somebody asked me why i don't update my journal as often as i did when i first started. My first impulse was to say it was because i didn't feel like i had time for it anymore, but i thought about it a little more and found out that wasn't really the reason. Here's what i came up with: It seems to me that online journals are a terribly convenient way to keep in touch with nearly everyone. And that may be the problem in itself. When you can hear from somebody whenever you need them, it becomes so easy to take them for granted. I know, in my case anyways, that whether i do it consciously or not, i tend to make more of the time i have with people if i can't do it whenever i want. By making your life readily available to whoever has a phone line, people start to feel less and less like they need to ask you personally what's going on. Now granted, while you're talking with your friends on the phone or on AIM and you ask them what the latest news with them is, they generally will give you a half-assed answer like "nothing" or "not much" and when you ask them how they are they'll say "fine" or "ok" and that will be the extent of your conversation. But even though nobody can seem to tell you about what's been happening to them or even engage in meaningful conversation anymore, it's still important to them that you're curious. It's human nature to want attention for yourself, just to get noticed, just to have somebody interested in you. That's why giving everything away, or at least giving the perception of everything away on online journals ultimately gives people less of a reason to be interested in you. Now there are always exceptions; there are people who say things on their journals intentionally to whet people's interest in them without really saying anything. There are also those who keep journals but never express how they really feel. They put on a facade in their own journals because they know people will read it. When you think about that, it really defeats the purpose in the first place. The reason they should truly express themselves is because it's a good place to write down what they are really thinking, and then people can see that and understand them better. It's not a bad thing at all to keep a journal. People like to be able to have an idea of what's going on in your life at their own convenience. I guess the only point i'm trying to drive home is that some people really overdo it to the extent where i don't think there's anything left for they want to tell anybody. You loose your curtain of mystery that makes people wonder what makes you tick. I seem to have forgot where i was going with this.... i suppose it was everything in moderation. Now that i'm done telling people how they don't need to reveal everything about themselves, i'll move onto my life *smirk*. Recently i've been experiencing a tougher and larger workload from IB. It's time consuming to the extent where i think i psyched myself into being sick. Like, really sick, not just faking it and taking a day off. I guess you can exhaust your immune system through simple mentality. Anyways, i don't plan on that happening again because it simply makes things tougher, all things considered. I was also putting some unneeded strain on myself last week. Admittedly, i worried myself over Sweets because i haven't had the opportunity to really do anything with her for quite a while and she seemed to be expressing less and less of an interest in me. But then i realized how ridiculous i was being for letting that upset me. We have, after all, been only dating; and in all honesty things have just been too busy for both of us to make that very consistent. So that was actually pretty easy to resolve once i realized it. That's just taking things slow. My house has been extensively hectic, even more so than usual. My mom has been an emotional wreak for no real apparent reason for the last three weeks. It makes me wonder if something important is going on that i just wasn't informed about. But if it was going to set me on edge as much as her, i'm pretty content not knowing about it. Billy never ceases to amaze me with how insightful he can be for a three-year-old. Whenever there is extra tension in the room i can see the gears turning in his head until he comes up with a solution to it (he generally ends up going up to mom and saying "i love you" and she smiles and the whole house breaths a sigh of relief). Still, whenever things are laid-back, Billy goes back to his reckless self; jumping off of couches, making makeshift swords out of anything semi-pointy, and even finding ways to take after Paul, the second youngest...... (Paul is the soon-to-be arsonist in the family for all of you who didn't know what i was talking about). My 17th birthday was yesterday, and nothing particularly special happened. It was also Mardi Gras coincidentally (i share a birthday with Mardi Gras roughly every 5 years) but that wasn't a big deal to anyone either. I had gone to sleep at 4 in the morning the day of my birthday because i had stayed up to talk to my friend Zach Hirsch from MN, so i was especially fatigued the whole day. Nevertheless, i got a couple "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"s so that make the day go by faster. Dance Co. auditioned the dances for the next concert after school. I unintentionally fell asleep in a very odd looking stretch during warm-ups and they decided to just leave me like that. I guess they didn't want to wake me up since it was my birthday and if i wanted to fall asleep with my leg folded up to my head and my arm bent in half, they were going to let me. Anyways, i woke up after warm-ups to find that both my legs had lost all feeling and my left arm and ass were asleep. You can't really walk that well like that, much less dance, but i was going to have to make due. So during the first three dance auditions (one of which i was in) i regained the blood circulation to all my appendages.... and my ass. The auditions went pretty well, nothing got cut so everything is still on schedule to go in a month or so for our performance. It should be pretty good.
Once i got home my family also said "happy birthday" and then left for my brother's basketball banquet.....
Finally some mysterious benefactor gave me silk, zebra-stripped boxers via package with no return address. hmm.... thanks whoever you are. I don't know exactly what you wanted me to do with silk boxers, but regardless, i'm sure i'll sleep very comfortably in them. hmm.... what else?.... My e-mail pen pal stopped writing to me almost a month ago. That makes me very sad, but i keep sending letters anyways. She's just too busy i think. In closing i'd like to thank everybody who dropped a few cents into my hat while playing outside of caribou last Saturday. It was cold and your funds helped buy me a coffee. |