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Not all of us are here anymore my oldest child was murdered 1-24-75 7-19-94 She was 19 and 6 1/2 mo. pregant Bunny left behind her 2 daughters,sister,aunts,uncles,friends, daddy and me her mommy. There is no pain like that of losing your child!! You watch them grow ,smile walk ,crawl and then they are gone forever.How do I carry on? The pain,hurt,empty feeling,sad even when you are happy there is still a part of you that is always sad it never goes away it never ends. Bonnie'Bunny'Hawkinberry was born to Connie Frazer [Townsend] and Burke Hawkinberry. I was only 13 when I started seeing Burke he was 18. We were young and in love.When Bunny was born it was the Happiest day of my life. I had someone to call my own to love and cherrish untill I died I thought. After all thats how it's suppose to be I can still see her first steps We were so proud she was our little girl.I took her once a month to have her picture made. I can still see her little face and tiny hands and watching them grow.She became a beautiful teenager by this time her daddy and I were no longer together. We lived together for 13 years and had another daughter Brandy.Bunny and Brandy were very close. I don't think Bunny ever got over her daddy and I going our separte ways.She always thought we would go, back together she belived this and wanted this untill she died. Bunny and I were very very close. We were always together There were alot of times I 'd wake up and she would be where I was sleeping at. How she done that I'll never know.We ate together , sleep together, went to the store together we done everything together and now shes gone forever. My child my first born is gone and will never come back, How do I go on because I have to. I promised Bunny while she was fighting for her every breath that I would take care of her babies for her. I adopted them both DezaRaye was 2 1/2 at the time and saw her mommy get shot she delivered Miracle just like anyone else only she was fighting for her life fighting for every breath she made. I ask the Drs. to take the baby but he wouldn't do it so 5 days after she was shot she delivered her baby in th ICU at Charleston WV. Miracle only weighed 2 lbs and 4 oz. When she came home from the hoisptal Miracle weighed 4 lbs and was 13 3/4 in. long. Baby doll clothes were to big for her Bunny got to see and hold her baby for just a min. and then they had to put her in NICU. She never saw Miracle agian. For some reason I thought if I stayed there at the hoisptal awake then she would get to come home. Bunny could't talk she had to write everything down . Even tho I had promised that I would not leave her Bunny would try to get me to go home and rest I stayed there with her anyway I just knew that she would be ok if I did Instead 9 days later she was gone forever Miracle was born on the 5th day on the 7th day her heart stopped for the 1 st. time on the 9th day her heart coludn't take anymoe. The last 2 days she just kept having sezious and crying. How could 1 man that none of us knew had never seen before distroy my life? How could he murder my child in cold blood and then go home and go to bed like he had done nothing I still don't know. There is so many questions only he can answer for me but he won't.Why what differnce does it make now? They gave him life without parole they tell me he will never get out so WHY won't he just give me some answers? Why won't he at least do that after all HE took Bunny from us . She is gone forever on this earth Bunny mommy will always love you we will be together again Watch over your children like it's there Last because it might be.I hope not there is no pain like ours Give them an extra hug or kiss today and every day There not ours to keep God only lets us borrow them, He can take them anytime he wants to.. God Bless You and Your Family Connie and Family
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