~*~IN THE END~*~
Day after day, we struggle to fulfill someone's idea of who we should be...whether it be our own image of ourselves or an image forced upon us by someone else. We as humans wish to please and will sacrifice our inner most dreams and thoughts to do so. Sometimes in the shuffle, a person who once knew what they stood for, will awaken to a stranger staring back at them. The sacrifice's that have kept their soul prisoner, shows in the reflection of emptiness in their eyes. They find they don't recognize who they are anymore. So, this is my Tribute and acknowledgement to the past loves of my life whom contributed to the chains placed upon my heart and my dreams. Dreams left by the wayside, forgotten...while I fulfilled theirs, and a heart that hardened with each heartbreak. At the time, I didnt realize how much I changed myself to hold on to their love for the brief moment in time it existed. The irony of it, is that they fell in love with one woman, and changed her into a woman that couldnt love. I hope they enjoyed their "Dream", "Reason" and "Princess" and I pray they learned from the experience as I have. I do not regret those moments, for they forged inside of me a strength that is unbeatable. A will and a determination to be ME, fully and without restraint. I thank them for giving me that determination. The chains are gone now, and I'm free to be the woman I lost so many years ago. What my past loves meant to me....are now only bittersweet memories, a memory of a time I tried so hard....to be what they wanted and needed me to be. In the end, the past doesnt even matter, its over and one cannot live on memories. Now, I am living only for the future, and what I shall make of it.~*~SS~*~ 12-2001
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"In The End"-Linkin Park
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~*~sunshine-tx~*~December 12, 2001
