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Modest Regrets


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Dear Hanson,
I cannot believe I'm actually even writing this, but you won't read it anyways. Here goes nothing.

I'm sorry that I was a teenie. I'm sorry for every scream that escaped my lips and for every tear that rolled down my cheek. I’m sorry for any comment I may have made that sounded obsessed (i.e.: “I love you” “I want to marry you” – sorry I was dumb!). I’m sorry for criticizing every thing you guys did that didn’t match how you did them the first time. I’m also sorry that I requested Mmmbop on the radio so many times that I aided in its demise.

I’m sorry that I abandoned you after Mmmbop died down. I’m sorry that I became too cool to listen to your music. I’m sorry that I wanted so much to be cool, I helped make you guys seem uncool. I’m sorry my mom called you guys a “pre-teen fad.” I’m sorry that I called you girls and made fun of you. I’m sorry for teasing the dedicated. I’m sorry for being mean to the obsessed. I’m sorry for scratching out the word “love” in exchange for the word “hate” on my notebooks declaring “I love Hanson.” I’m sorry I was so close-minded.

I’m sorry that I missed all the times you were on T.V. I’m sorry that I didn’t buy or listen to any of your albums or singles past Mmmbop. I’m sorry that I don’t know your middle names, or your favorite foods, or even your ages and birthdays. I’m sorry that I don’t carry the common fan knowledge. I’m sorry that I pushed you to the back of my mind to collect dust.

But most of all, I’m sorry that I didn’t get to see you turn into the band you’ve become. I’m sorry for not sticking with you through the thick and thin, for the good and for the bad. And I hope that if you forgive me for any one sorry in here, it’s the one where I didn’t get to watch your talent grow, and you become successful as a group. You guys have come so far, and without my support none the less.

So, I just wanted to let you know that, despite my abandoning you the first time around, I’m reclaming my fandom. Thank you for reminding me that anyone can do anything, no matter what. And thank you for always being there, even if I wasn’t there for you.


A Born-again fan

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