-Tay's P.O.V.-
The girls had gone out to explore the island of Kingman's Reef so I figured now was as gook of time as any to talk to Mom and Dad about my future with Amy. I entered the living room with Isaac and Zac.
"Mom, Dad, Isaac, Zachary, I really have to talk to you about something." I said. Instantly mom looked worried. "I don't exactly know how to start this but I'll try." Isaac and Zac looked just as confused as mom and dad. ~Well here goes nothing~ I thought. "Now before you react let me say everything that I want ok?" They all nodded.
"Ok, now, I've wanted to meet Amy Lee for as long as I can remember, since her first letter to me. And not wit hher being here since June 16th I feel as if I can't live without her." I saw mom getting ready to say something but I caught her. "Just wait. I love Amy Lee I really do. I know you don't believe me but I do. If I have to I'll go home with her. I will, I just can't let her leave me."
"TAYLOR!! You KNOW you can't do that!!" Dad yelled.
"GOD DAMMIT WOULD YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME!!!!!??" I yelled. "No body understands how much I love Amy."
"What makes you think that?" Isaac snapped.
"Yeah no doubt. Do you think you're the only one of us capable of loving? I love Caroline with all my heart. HOW DARE you imply that I don't!!" Zac was starting to cry. "Do you think it's going to be easy to watch her leave me!!? No, I don't think so. Why don't you thik about THAT Taylor." And he cried quietly to himself as he left the room.
"And even though I'm not all over Beth like you and Amy doesn't mean I don't love her. She understands me, she loves me, I'm perfectly happy with her. So don't even think that you're the only one feeling this desperstion--for the love of God." Isaac said defensively.
"Taylor you can't move to Minnesota." Mom said. "You have a commitment here--"
"Amy IS my commitment!!" I yelled. We all sat in silence for a little while.
"What do you want us to do?" Dad asked. At least he sounded like he was open to suggestions.
"Well ok," I started. "Amy and Care made plans for this house. A gorgeous house and in two year I'll be able to move out."
"You're not moving." Mom sternly said.
"No, listen. I want to build this house for Amy, Care, Beth, Zac, Isaac and me to live in. It'd be in Tulsa. But since none of us want them to leave they'd live with us while it was being built." Both Mom and Dad sighed, which was not a good sign. But Isaac was again on my side, loving every part of my plane. Zac wasn't there.
"Taylor that's a lot to ask for." Dad said.
"I know." I said sensing I was defeated.
"Let us talk about it. We'll let you know in two weeks." Mom said. "Now go find those girls." I couldn't believe it. This just might work. I went into our room to change and that's where I found Zac--with a razor blade to his wrist. I was in shock. ~What should I do?~
"ZAC!!" I yelled. The razor slipped and all I could see was blood gushing from his wrist. Zac had a look of pure shock and horror.
"Tay," he was crying. "I don't think I was really going to do it, Tay. Make it stop Tay, make it stop." I was crying too. I couldn't lose my little brother. "I just can't live without her."
"I know Zac, I know." That's when Ike came in.
"Aren't you--OH MY GOD!!!!! Zac...MOM DAD!! Come here quick!! Zac's dying!!!" He yelled as he ran over to us. "Zac, what else did you do?" Isaac asked as mom and dad ran in. Zac seemed to be fallling asleep.
"Oh my God he's dying!!" I said completely distressed as he laid down on me.
"WHAT ELSE DID YOU DO?!!!" Dad yelled as he shook Zac. He woke up enough to point to Amy's anti-depressants.
"Those bottles were almost full last night, now they're almost empty." I said quietly.
"Oh my dear God." Mom whispered.
"Diana, call the hospital, tell then we need an ambulance. Isaac, go find the girls and get the other kids too." They left and it was only Dad, Zac and me left.
"Dad this is all my fault. This wouldn't have happened if we didn't get in that fight." I was crying and holding on to Zac for dear life.
"No, Taylor it's not your fault." Dad said trying to be strong.
-My P.O.V.-
We were all sitting on King's Cliff, Care, Beth, Jess and I when we heard Isaac behind us, crying, calling for Care. "We have to go home, NOW. There's been an accident. We all have to go home." He was crying hystarically while holding on to Beth.
"What happened?" Care asked, knowing it had something to do with her.
"Zac.......Zac's......he..." Isaac couldn't finish.
"HE'S WHAT!!!!!!!!!???!!!!" Care yelled almost in tears.
"He's dying." Isaac lost it again but Care, Jessica, and I took off as fast as we could crying. I could hug Care to comfort her so I just held her hand as we ran. Beth stayed back with Isaac he couldn't move.
We bursted into the house to find Mom losing it in the living room, holding three very confused children. Jessica took Mac and Avie, telling them it would be ok. Care and I made it to the bedroom. Care collapsed by the side of the bed crying and hugging Zac. "Zachary, you CAN'T die. You can't. I love you too much. PLEASE don't leave me." She cried.
I was hugging Taylor. Each of us crying on the other. "Amy...what can...if...take...a lot..your meds...." ~OH GOD NO!!!~ I thought as I instantly pulled away. I knew this scene all too well. I collapsed and cried even more when I realized all that he took. 'WHAT CAN HAPPEN!!?" Taylor yelled as he picked me up off the floor.
"He.....he..." I cried even more.
"He can die can't he?" Taylor asked letting the reality sink in. I could only manage to nod.
"NO, NO, NO, he CAN'T!!!!!!!" Care yelled crying. The EMT's started to come into the bedroom so we pulled Care away from the lifeless Zac.
"What did he overdose on?" One EMT asked. I gave the EMT my practically empty bottles as I told them that they were almost full that morning. The EMT knew what I knew but didn't say anything, just shared a knowing look with me. I let a new set of tears fall down my face.
"That's WAY too much isn't it Amy? That's like the whole fucking bottle." Taylor whispered.
"Yeah I know." I said. Mom and Care rode in the ambulance with Zac. The rest of us followed tin the van.
Just so the could have an idea of how much Zac really took Dad asked me, "How many of those pills do you take a day?" I wasn't sure if I should really tell them. It will shock them--I knew it would.
"Well there's 120 pills in the Tegrotol bottles, I took 4 out this morning. And there are 60 in the Lamictal bottles, I took one out this morning. There were like 8 left in the Tegrotoland 3 in the Lamictal, you do the math." I paused to let this all sink in. "Zac definitely took enough to kill himself." I looked down as I started to cry again. I heard the others start to cry as well. ~How could this be happening?~
When we got to the hospital Mom and Dad went to fill out forms and talk to doctors. I rushed over to my best friend trying my hardest to comfort her. I didn't say anything I just held her close to me. "I can't lose him." she whispered. I ran my fingers through her hair.
"You aren't going to lose him." I whispered determinally. I was on my fifth cappacino an hour later when Mom and Dad came back into the living room.
"How is he?" Care asked quietly.
"Not good." Mom said.
"They stitched up his wrist, pumped his stomach, and are still adding fluids through his IV. But he's in a serious coma." Dad said, again trying to be the strong one. Tears began to fall softly from our eyes once more. Care buried her face into my shoulder and I held onto Tay's hand for dear life. Like the Earth was about to eat me whole. We went to the church in the hospital and prayed for Zac, pleadig with God, begging him not to take Zac away from us.