The reason why I had to include this file is to help the reader
appreciate that child abuse
must be prevented.
As I post more photos I am reminded that some people might recognize me. They might fail to understand the real consequences, and decide they should notify my parents or warn my employer.
I must take the risk of being identified
because what I have posted can help many children who are now undergoing painful experiences. As I was struggling through recovery, the thing that kept coming to mind was that it should never have happened, and that
IT SHOULD NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN TO A HELPLESS CHILD.If this file helps one child, it is worth the risk of posting its contents.
As an adult (due in part to PTSD), I struggled with a foggy mind and this resulted in poor concentration and memory. (This has had a major impact on my performance in school work and on introverted jobs.) I also feared other adults and this came out in a shyness, a tendency to feel inadequate and uncomfortable in conversations. (This hampered my performance in extroverted jobs.) As well, every few days after washing my hair, bathing, or showering, I was full of shame: zonked out. (This effected all jobs.)
Beginning a new job, struggling to concentrate, learning under pressure, and trying to cope with details were all extremely difficult and frustrating. This had a powerful impact on me because I had a strong inner irrational desire to not get in the way. So after struggling on many jobs for many years, and having numerous deeply embarrassing experiences, I had to switch to simple routine work. Although this work has been a boring and irritating struggle, it has paid my bills.
Since Mar. 31/01
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