Sometimes we fall so far the line was drawn before we even looked
I hadn't see quick enough to react other than...jaw drop...disbelief.
I had lost so much and so very little at the same time.
Looking back mislead through the maze of life I can't seem to find myself anymore.
I hadn't searched but given up.
Hope was so far from my mind I hadn't seen the coming light.
Firefly in midnight's reign.
I didn't think you loved me.
I didn't want to believe.
Stuffed away in my stoic visage I lost my heart...my mind...my soul.
Given so freely was the bliss I lost in full.
Given so freely was the love I cried for.
Given so freely was all my feelings and emotions.
And I kept nothing.
There was no hidden agenda.
There was no backlash with a wicked vendetta.
But there was life, disclosed disconnected disconcerted with the outcome of actions none could foretell.
All in but one single second...a sudden tear that fell upon lonely cheek..
a thunderstorm was brewing and what lashed out I could not stop...pure...like my words but harsh.
The beginning they were so beautiful, the things I would write, the feelings I would share.
Where had they gone all wrong.
Now I can only seem to see in shades of gray.
Now all that come is words of loss.
What was stolen...my muse...my heart.
What was taken away in a single moment of love, my hope, my belief.
How did I lose what I never had.
How did I taste a wine so sweet only gods could proclaim it their own.
What had come and gone so fast I blinked and all that was left was a far distant memory.
I hadn't escaped all but my bars.
Held me in so tight..so cold..no longer your touch that kept me safe.
How do I crave the dream once more.
How do I stare at what is left and scream and fight..trying to believe it is not me sitting there still crying.
How do I want to see past, but cannot because this is what it has come to.
A fragmented shell.
A shattered soul.
A tormented artist.
A million pieces that is left of my broken heart.
