The time nor place never happened
I haven't the will to forgive the wrongs
and set them back into place to right them
Past gone to hell smoke breaking past the walls
they are my protection
hold onto heart that rests only in tattered remains
I hadn't found the truth before it was all ripped away again
I give up on....everything
I know now I will find no peace
I know now I will find nothing
so I rest not even twenty six years old
and wait for death
for I haven't the strength to lift the blade again
to push the pills down
to bleed where blood no longer flows
Less dignity made when you take it yourself.
Sometimes silence is the best way to break what was holding on
by only threaded strings.
I never saw reality as it would be
the real world as you all call it
I lived in my fairy-tale dream world stuck in my cave I dare not walk from
a few plucked out I let in
Fewer still I would tell the truth
and none came to love
Fearful their very soul would be sucked away
like some sort of twisted vampire..
yet I took nothing
and gave nothing in return
Believe me or not but what I waste is my own life
food nor drink shall remind me of heartache
but what falls from grace was my own hope
Lost in the oblivion
I search for something to hold onto
and nothing came
so I wither here
Resting someplace lost in my darkness
I gave up the fight
fallen tumbling down I hit bottom
and I gave up hope of ever crawling out
past reminds of pain
future holds nothing but more
and present was left at still
I was gone long before any words came.
